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rascal14 said:
Looking good! I'm no help on bodyfat, I would have guessed 9-10%, looking very good though and looks like an ideal cut to me. Definitely helping motivate me to keep trucking in a deficit.. I envy your self control on stopping eating a cookie. For me, one bite of something sweet and its game over - I will eat everything in sight that has sugar after that one bite lol
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Trust me I'm the same way, I often go to war with 3 rows of oreos in one night lol. Honestly I'm just burned out on fat and sugar right now, been a long week of nothing but take out and dine in
 
Smont said:
Trust me I'm the same way, I often go to war with 3 rows of oreos in one night lol. Honestly I'm just burned out on fat and sugar right now, been a long week of nothing but take out and dine in
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Yeah, oreos are a weakness especially with a cold glass of milk. If I get started the likelihood of there being any left is extremely low. My self control there is just don't get started.
 
MrKleen73 said:
Self control takes practice, I am the same way but the longer I practice self control the better I get at it. Of course it doesn't take long to lose it either if you stop practicing it.
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Ya I go in streaks. The longer I'm good the less I think about it, out of sight out of mind. If yiur dieting and there's a bag of cookies in the house you probably intended to eat them, or your not serious about the cut, or you got kids or a girlfriend that do not support you cutting 👋. She will continue to buy junk food and cook things I can't eat and get mad at me for not taking a bite of this or that. I have to fight with her to the point she dosent want to speak with me before I get the point across. I literally have to flip out and yell and I truly 100% found that's the only way. Or it's come on, just 1 bite, your ridiculous ect. I feel like a dick but she is the biggest factor holding me back on a regular basis. Deep in a cut I start making sure I train from about 530pm to 730pm and won't walk through the door till 8 because no matter how many times I tell her I'm doing my own dinners she will sit around for a hour to try to make me eat something I already told her I wasn't going to eat. It's bizarre.

Damn sorry I rambling on like that lol
 
The sheer stress alone of knowing that every day I have to bicker with her about food sets me back and sometimes I end up just saying I'm not eating tonight and skip my last 2 meals until about 10pm rolls around and I eat the remaining calories for the day then. It's the reason I know I could never go through a real contest prep. I'm 100% positive me and her would both get arrested for a domestic on a contest prep lol.

Laughing but not laughing
 
Smont said:
Ya I go in streaks. The longer I'm good the less I think about it, out of sight out of mind. If yiur dieting and there's a bag of cookies in the house you probably intended to eat them, or your not serious about the cut, or you got kids or a girlfriend that do not support you cutting 👋. She will continue to buy junk food and cook things I can't eat and get mad at me for not taking a bite of this or that. I have to fight with her to the point she dosent want to speak with me before I get the point across. I literally have to flip out and yell and I truly 100% found that's the only way. Or it's come on, just 1 bite, your ridiculous ect. I feel like a dick but she is the biggest factor holding me back on a regular basis. Deep in a cut I start making sure I train from about 530pm to 730pm and won't walk through the door till 8 because no matter how many times I tell her I'm doing my own dinners she will sit around for a hour to try to make me eat something I already told her I wasn't going to eat. It's bizarre.

Damn sorry I rambling on like that lol
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Dude thank you for posting that! I thought I was the only one. It’s like a guilt trip because I don’t want to eat what she cooks. She is one of 8 and her mother taught her how to cook. She cooks very well but LARGE portions.
Offered to make me white rice the other night w my tips. I’ll make 1/2 cup of rice but I’ll eat 1lb of tips. She made 2 cups. Like wtf that’s 4 meals. And ya know the 1lb of tips was sitting on a 2cup bed of rice so it wasn’t worth saving. And if it’s on my plate I’ll eat it. I was a fat kid.

Do you ever get called “self centered” for spending so much time on yourself?

If you put this kinda effort into us instead of you…..
 
MrKleen73 said:
Cool, once I actually start the prep for the show I will make another log just to chronicle it. I probably won't have the cash for a coach for the first couple of months this coming year, but am going to try to put some back to have one for the entire prep which if just starting with the coach might be a 20 week prep just so they can really learn my body before making tons of adjustments.
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In for this foe sure
 
Smont said:
The sheer stress alone of knowing that every day I have to bicker with her about food sets me back and sometimes I end up just saying I'm not eating tonight and skip my last 2 meals until about 10pm rolls around and I eat the remaining calories for the day then. It's the reason I know I could never go through a real contest prep. I'm 100% positive me and her would both get arrested for a domestic on a contest prep lol.

Laughing but not laughing
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And the food I’ve asked her not to buy anymore. I found a box of these in the freezer. These r my JAM!!! I go ham sauce on these. I make Little Debbie my sweet tooth hoe! Funny though, ate the entire box and it was like I chugged a gallon of water in Mexico. 3am **** got real. I think I dropped weight. Lmao. Sad but true
 

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Smont said:
The sheer stress alone of knowing that every day I have to bicker with her about food sets me back and sometimes I end up just saying I'm not eating tonight and skip my last 2 meals until about 10pm rolls around and I eat the remaining calories for the day then. It's the reason I know I could never go through a real contest prep. I'm 100% positive me and her would both get arrested for a domestic on a contest prep lol.

Laughing but not laughing
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Dude when em and I first got together in 2010 we tried to do a prep together. ..we didn't make it 6 weeks..lol. we were smart enough to know our relationship was infinitely more important then some local show so she bowed out before we would've done something we would've regretted
 
98FATBOY said:
And the food I’ve asked her not to buy anymore. I found a box of these in the freezer. These r my JAM!!! I go ham sauce on these. I make Little Debbie my sweet tooth hoe! Funny though, ate the entire box and it was like I chugged a gallon of water in Mexico. 3am **** got real. I think I dropped weight. Lmao. Sad but true
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Lol, recently when she shows up with cookies or something I asked her not to get I take 2 big ziplok bags, put half in each and give one to my son and 1 to my daughter and say these are yours. Hide them
 
98FATBOY said:
And the food I’ve asked her not to buy anymore. I found a box of these in the freezer. These r my JAM!!! I go ham sauce on these. I make Little Debbie my sweet tooth hoe! Funny though, ate the entire box and it was like I chugged a gallon of water in Mexico. 3am **** got real. I think I dropped weight. Lmao. Sad but true
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They're so f.cking good tho
 
MrKleen73 said:
Yeah, oreos are a weakness especially with a cold glass of milk. If I get started the likelihood of there being any left is extremely low. My self control there is just don't get started.
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That’s the way I am with peanut butter cookies or Reeses….I’m fine if people are around eating them, but I better not take a bite or it’s game over for me and the pack, and then add some nice cold milk.
Man Smont I come to your log for motivation, now I want cookies and milk. 😜
 
gphagan1 said:
That’s the way I am with peanut butter cookies or Reeses….I’m fine if people are around eating them, but I better not take a bite or it’s game over for me and the pack, and then add some nice cold milk.
Man Smont I come to your log for motivation, now I want cookies and milk. 😜
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I know, I'm ashamed 😔. Now I gotta go grocery shopping to buy boiled chicken and rice cakes
 
The way I see it, my family should not have to restrict themselves based on my goals. If I choose to partake in things that my family enjoys, but I choose to restrict myself from then that is 100% on me. I have never once not had bad stuff in my house, the family is not into fitness like me. So there are always some cokes in the fridge, something sweet somewhere, tons of junk or comfort foods. So it is on me to exercise discipline in the face of temptation. It is not their responsibility to not buy things that tempt me or to keep them out of the house. That is on me, and is my responsibility to abstain from them because those are my goals. Certainly it does not help having those things in the house when dieting, but the failure is my own if i choose to partake, or overindulge. I can't place blame on them. I am not a victim, just a person being weak in that moment.
 
MrKleen73 said:
The way I see it, my family should not have to restrict themselves based on my goals. If I choose to partake in things that my family enjoys, but I choose to restrict myself from then that is 100% on me. I have never once not had bad stuff in my house, the family is not into fitness like me. So there are always some cokes in the fridge, something sweet somewhere, tons of junk or comfort foods. So it is on me to exercise discipline in the face of temptation. It is not their responsibility to not buy things that tempt me or to keep them out of the house. That is on me, and is my responsibility to abstain from them because those are my goals. Certainly it does not help having those things in the house when dieting, but the failure is my own if i choose to partake, or overindulge. I can't place blame on them. I am not a victim, just a person being weak in that moment.
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But I’m the only one who likes Little Debbie and her Nutty bars. So if I ask them not to be bought, why r they there?
On a subconscious level I don’t think the misses wants me to look better
 
MrKleen73 said:
The way I see it, my family should not have to restrict themselves based on my goals. If I choose to partake in things that my family enjoys, but I choose to restrict myself from then that is 100% on me. I have never once not had bad stuff in my house, the family is not into fitness like me. So there are always some cokes in the fridge, something sweet somewhere, tons of junk or comfort foods. So it is on me to exercise discipline in the face of temptation. It is not their responsibility to not buy things that tempt me or to keep them out of the house. That is on me, and is my responsibility to abstain from them because those are my goals. Certainly it does not help having those things in the house when dieting, but the failure is my own if i choose to partake, or overindulge. I can't place blame on them. I am not a victim, just a person being weak in that moment.
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I 100% agree, I'd never ask any of them to. I'm talking about her specifically buying things for me. IL tell her I'm dieting no thanks 15-20 times and she will still order a box of Swiss cake rolls or pop tarts and say I got you a snack lol.
 
Smont said:
I 100% agree, I'd never ask any of them to. I'm talking about her specifically buying things for me. IL tell her I'm dieting no thanks 15-20 times and she will still order a box of Swiss cake rolls or pop tarts and say I got you a snack lol.
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Pop tarts frozen are BOMB!!! Or heated w butter OMG. blueberry, strawberry, strawberry milkshake, brown sugar and cinnamon etc etc etc. I forgot about pop tarts.
 
So we're home and we check the garden and everything went nuts, we picked like 12-15lbs of peppers so we will be jarring soon and my brother is making hot sauces. I haven't seen them yet but he picked his first Carolina reaper yesterday apparently but I told him keep that mofo separate from the normal batches lol

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Also had a big bud snap off my plant so I wasn't too happy but it's got a little denser and has some orange hairs already so I'm drying it out. IL move it to a dark cool room later. I got a old garage I dry the garlic and peppers in that should work fine as the temp seems to be on the way down. IL check it in a week, should be ready in about 10 days if I remember correctly

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Just trimmed all the leaves off and I'm boiling them with some others I pruned and gonna see if I can get anything out of a cup of tea.

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Diet for the next few days is a coffee protein shake while doing my 15min morning walk.

Meat and vegetables from the picture, and 1/2 cup rice

Piece of fruit and a Greek yogurt cup

If prosthesis shows up IL do that pre workout and mid workout 1/2 serv ea.

Meat and vegetables with rice

Protein shake
 
Smont said:
Just trimmed all the leaves off and I'm boiling them with some others I pruned and gonna see if I can get anything out of a cup of tea.

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Looks good, and probably taste good after your herbal tea. Those are some healthy looking peppers, and bud. I grow cayenne, jalapeño, and those Carolina Reapers too. We eat the Cayennes and Jalapeños, but man those Carolina Reapers are so hot all I do is make hot sauce with them. I make a regular hot sauce that will set you on fire, but my favorite is a mango hot sauce that I got the recipe from a Jamaican buddy of mine. The original recipe was with 30 habaneros, but I use only 10 Carolina Reapers. He thinks it’s better than the original. It’s great with chicken, fish, and beef, and it doesn’t take much….Man I went from cookies to peppers.😎
 
I may have said this already but all the sweets talk makes me think of it - I love something sweet before bed lol so what I’ve been doing is 3 servings of baby rice cereal mixed with 2 scoops of whatever protein, then put enough water to make some “sludge” then I’ll eat that.

lately I’ve been microwaving it for a minute or so, half of it cooks and turns to a “healthy” cake consistency, the other half remains liquid and feels like icing on top of a cake. Truly magical to me, but I can’t convince anyone else I know to try it so I may just be too far gone into the diet.
 
rascal14 said:
I may have said this already but all the sweets talk makes me think of it - I love something sweet before bed lol so what I’ve been doing is 3 servings of baby rice cereal mixed with 2 scoops of whatever protein, then put enough water to make some “sludge” then I’ll eat that.

lately I’ve been microwaving it for a minute or so, half of it cooks and turns to a “healthy” cake consistency, the other half remains liquid and feels like icing on top of a cake. Truly magical to me, but I can’t convince anyone else I know to try it so I may just be too far gone into the diet.
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Dude that's exactly what I do with my cream of rice that and some frozen fruit on top with a couple of packets of Splenda and I'm golden. Obviously ill still have 8oz of chicken with that tho. Honestly during a prep fruit is what I miss the most. Fruit on oatmeal or cream of rice is all the desert I really need. The other day at work they served a bunch of caje fir a retirement party and I didn't have any. When everyone asked why I wasn't eating it scince they new my cut was over I told them because I don't need it. No one seemed to understand that answer. It's like we've berm taught if it's there you have to eat it. I'm here to tell you ummm...no you don't..bodybuilding is more important to me than a couple of punk ass pieces of cake
 
Your women very truly probably do try to pork you up; you’re not crazy. They probably feel better if you are bigger because you are a bit less attractive to other women, but it also makes them feel better about themselves/helps justify their own behaviors. And lastly, and this is just as relevant, many people have learned to express care through feeding, whether that is cooking or just providing. All of this can essentially be on a subconscious level, but these are the things driving it usually.

I always feel good when I decide to buy random sweets/treats for my wife or stepdaughter. If my wife is dieting, I will get her something more friendly like a mango Monster Ultra.
 
Hyde said:
Your women very truly probably do try to pork you up; you’re not crazy. They probably feel better if you are bigger because you are a bit less attractive to other women, but it also makes them feel better about themselves/helps justify their own behaviors. And lastly, and this is just as relevant, many people have learned to express care through feeding, whether that is cooking or just providing. All of this can essentially be on a subconscious level, but these are the things driving it usually.

I always feel good when I decide to buy random sweets/treats for my wife or stepdaughter. If my wife is dieting, I will get her something more friendly like a mango Monster Ultra.
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I've said it a lot over the years, when I liik like my overly bulked oreo binge self she compliments me. When I have abs or if I'm getting significantly leaner she acts like I'm being obsessive. She actually just did it to me this morning. I went to the bathroom to weigh myself for the first time since i've gotten home and I discovered the scales in the hotel were not accurate. I gained 7lbs, I'm back up to 199. Now in my mind I got abs and veins popin so I would be happy if I didn't just make the next 6 weeks that much harder.

So I said oh crap me by screwed up, I over did it and now I gotta loose 21lbs and she started right in with why this is stupid and I immediately got upset and I bit my tongue and only said stop and walked away.

I don't care if she dosent support my decisions but you don't get to tell me my goals or plans are ridiculous. Much of what I do, I do it because it's a challenge. That's the whole point, if it was super easy I wouldn't even be interested. It's one thing to not be cheering .e on because trust me I actually don't want that. But your belittling what I'm doing.

I managed to somehow let this topic really get to me yesterday and today and I'm filling myself up with doubts and negative feelings and I need to get my ass back in gear and stop worrying about everyone else.


Back to the other topic, she absolutely loves the way I look when she's the only one looking at me. But she would rather I was 220+ muscular but fluffy. The higher my bf the more comfortable it makes her about herself and The more secure she feels that i'm not gonna go anywhere, she definitely gets angry if she sees someone looking at me unless it's a guy dude, then she points it out and laughs lol. That Mexican restaurant was in a different hotel then we were staying at and there was a gay pride convention or something like that going on. It's probably why she had such a good night, because she didn't feel threatened or insecure in that setting like I can tell she does at the pools and stuff
 
Terrible first workout back lol. Top much carbs and sodium or something. I barely made it through warm ups before I had a lower back pump from hell. Drove the struggle bus to the finish line
 
Smont said:
Terrible first workout back lol. Top much carbs and sodium or something. I barely made it through warm ups before I had a lower back pump from hell. Drove the struggle bus to the finish line
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Really don't want to sort through 22 pages, so here I am...lol did you ever use peptides for the injuries you mentioned like in post 1?
 
GreenMachineX said:
Really don't want to sort through 22 pages, so here I am...lol did you ever use peptides for the injuries you mentioned like in post 1?
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Lol, yes. In several places and some worked better then others.

Bpc and tb500 on my right knee for a fresh Meniscus tear was feeling better in like 2 or 3 days and after a week I stopped the peps and it has had no issues since. My right shoulder I used the same combo but it didn't seem to work as good, after about 2 weeks I stopped the shoulder and switched to the left knee because that started acting up. The shoulder slowly has got better except my pinch nerve issue is still there, less flare ups tho. Overall shoulder is good and I can't for certain say the peps did it or time or both. The left knee took twice as long as the right did and still hasn't got back to 100%, it dosent hurt but I can tell I need to keep a eye on it. All in all my injuries went from fairly bad to just what I would call normal aches and pains. I also used some hexaralin along side it just because I had a bunch. I don't know if it contributed but I know anything that effects hgh or igf should have some hand in healing so I took a shot with it.

I'd say that it seems like the newer the injuries the faster the healing. Older ones take longer and may be too far gone to heal correctly
 
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Smont said:
Terrible first workout back lol. Top much carbs and sodium or something. I barely made it through warm ups before I had a lower back pump from hell. Drove the struggle bus to the finish line
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Eventually the struggle bus gets you were you need to go tho so there's that
 
Mikereyn513 said:
It isn't the anadrol still in your system is it? ( a far as lower back pumps)
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Ya I think it is, that's definitely a factor, I only took about 10 pills total over the 5 days so about 100mg a day for 5 days. I was breaking them into thirds and taking a little piece with all my high carb meals and adding salt to everything. I'm probably just loaded up lol. I can catch a pump super easy right now and that's the opposite of what I want on boxing days. Few days on low carbs and lower sodium and lots of water. I'm gonna run and flush out what I can and I'm sure IL be fine in another day or 2. What feels great going into a bodybuilding workout is the opposite of a boxing workout.
 
Smont said:
Lol, yes. In several places and some worked better then others.

Bpc and tb500 on my right knee for a fresh Meniscus tear was feeling better in like 2 or 3 days and after a week I stopped the peps and it has had no issues since. My right shoulder I used the same combo but it didn't seem to work as good, after about 2 weeks I stopped the shoulder and switched to the left knee because that started acting up. The shoulder slowly has got better except my pinch nerve issue is still there, less flare ups tho. Overall shoulder is good and I can't for certain say the peps did it or time or both. The left knee took twice as long as the right did and still hasn't got back to 100%, it dosent hurt but I can tell I need to keep a eye on it. All in all my injuries went from fairly bad to just what I would call normal aches and pains. I also used some hexaralin along side it just because I had a bunch. I don't know if it contributed but I know anything that effects hgh or igf should have some hand in healing so I took a shot with it.

I'd say that it seems like the newer the injuries the faster the healing. Older ones take longer and may be too far gone to heal correctly
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Gotcha. My wife has been having shoulder pain in certain movement and next day soreness/pain for the past 5 months or so, very similar to what I went through with a completely deactivated rear delt, and pain with any external rotation. Getting her in to see a professional but thinking of adding bpc to the mix as well.
 
GreenMachineX said:
Gotcha. My wife has been having shoulder pain in certain movement and next day soreness/pain for the past 5 months or so, very similar to what I went through with a completely deactivated rear delt, and pain with any external rotation. Getting her in to see a professional but thinking of adding bpc to the mix as well.
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I'd go for it, my shoulder issues are like 10 years old and the peps definitely still help them, just not as much as they help a fresh injury In my opinion. 5 months ain't such a old injury
 
Man during my 25 rep sets of warmup circuit stuff, I almost can’t even with my lats this week on Anadrol. They’re so pumped by rep 12, getting to 25 with just a single plate/side on the row machine is torture! I get a lat pump just wiping my ass at this point.
 
@Smont I want you to listen to this 5 minute clip when you can. Especially the part when Les Brown is talking about trying to get other people’s approval.

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When I really took this video to heart, I finally squatted 500lbs for the first time (and I wasn’t taking anything for a long while either, even though I started cycling before I ever even did 405).
 
98FATBOY said:
But I’m the only one who likes Little Debbie and her Nutty bars. So if I ask them not to be bought, why r they there?
On a subconscious level I don’t think the misses wants me to look better
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Oh no doubt, she doesn't, and yeah that is pretty shiesty, but next time you will be stronger and just go throw them away in front of her so she gets the point she is wasting money right?
Smont said:
I 100% agree, I'd never ask any of them to. I'm talking about her specifically buying things for me. IL tell her I'm dieting no thanks 15-20 times and she will still order a box of Swiss cake rolls or pop tarts and say I got you a snack lol.
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Yeah, I won't get involved in that dynamic, I would likely just throw it away in front of her so she knew it was wasted money, and admonish her for trying to sabotage my goals. I wouldn't suggest that for everyone, but it is a part of what worked for me, but could easily become a much bigger relationship issue depending on the demeanor and reasonability of the other person.
 
Hyde said:
@Smont I want you to listen to this 5 minute clip when you can. Especially the part when Les Brown is talking about trying to get other people’s approval.

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When I really took this video to heart, I finally squatted 500lbs for the first time (and I wasn’t taking anything for a long while either, even though I started cycling before I ever even did 405).
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Put it on my watch later list. I got my niece tonight so IL listen on my headphones while she torments everyone with her tween TV shows lol
 
Smont said:
Ya I think it is, that's definitely a factor, I only took about 10 pills total over the 5 days so about 100mg a day for 5 days. I was breaking them into thirds and taking a little piece with all my high carb meals and adding salt to everything. I'm probably just loaded up lol. I can catch a pump super easy right now and that's the opposite of what I want on boxing days. Few days on low carbs and lower sodium and lots of water. I'm gonna run and flush out what I can and I'm sure IL be fine in another day or 2. What feels great going into a bodybuilding workout is the opposite of a boxing workout.
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Awesome..I got 10 pills left and I gonna start them on Monday now thar I'm carbed up..I've been getting gnarly pumps lately so I'm hoping the drol really pushes it over the top.
 
Smont said:
IL tell you what tho, all that salty food and the couple anadrols made the veins pop out of my veins lol. I gotta be the most vascular person over 10% bf. When this fight is over I might have to keep cutting just to see how gnarly these veins get
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pm me where you got the anadrol
 
Read something once about back pumps actually being caused by kidney stress?
What you all think ?

I ran some dmz and really liked it over the summer…After a few weeks thought I was having back pumps, then my anxiety led me down the kidney pain path…..Turns out I strained a low lat, after close inspection I had a tiny but painful bruise. Must have been the quick strength increase 🤷‍♂️
 
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