Wanna touch my emotional button? Here we go:
Before the surgery I was/thought:
-borderline sociopath
-80% pessimist
-most people are scum
-not really sure life is worth living
-true friendship is a myth
-most medical doctors are idiots
-family means: not dying alone at the end
After the surgery I was/thought:
-cautious person -but no sociopath
-50% pessimist
-a lot of people are scum, maybe 65%
-not really sure if life is worth living -but somehow optimistic about good times ahead, eager to find out
-there is true friendship, its RARE -keep them close to you, make them family
-some medical doctors are idiots, the others are capable. Dance for them and they don't suck you dry.
-family means ALL. Its my solar system, all is spinning around it, without family, I'm a dead rock in the vast universe. Friends are family too, show emotions and pay them back with the same attention and love. Forgive their failures.
It was very profound for me and a emotional healing, seeing so many people actually care for me. I had no clue.
During my hospital stay, about 5-6 people slept around me, taking turns holding my hands or helping my wife dealing with all that. I'm crying right now. I have a BBQ today with all of them, there will be more tears I guess.