Yeah, as I said I have done and failed many of times. But, this time is different. I can feel it. Knowing my brother died at 46 not being able to overcome it, has really put it in to reality for me. And now in a few days, not sure when yet. But, my parents are flying me down so I can attend the funeral. They werent gonna have one, but I think them hearing how hard it hit me from the wife, they have changed their mind and decided to fly me down as well.
My wife was even amazed, on Saturday she said, "Hunny, go get you a beer, one beer wont hurt". I snapped at her, and said, "NO, Thats the problem, I Cant Have Just 1. It has to be a Pint of Bourbon, and a Tall Boy. And if I go and get a Beer, I'm getting Both". She hasnt said anything since. Think she realized she wasnt helping me in the long run.