Glad people somehow magically look through time traveling telescopes at my life huh. Damn where do I get one?
Considering I have only been saved for a couple years, my life and actions before that were more in line with violence than you assume. I have had my nose broke. I have had my teeth busted from having some old silver damn thing that weighed a good 14 lbs slammed into my face. Have had my back bent so hard from a slam I lost use of my legs for 10 to 15 minutes THAT is scary crap. And returned the favors in kind...My hands and knuckles have quite enough scars from it...
I have been shot at, not that scary you just wonder whether or not your going to feel that searing through you or if you are flipping fast enough.
I have rand from the cops, though I did a good enough job.
Nice to know I just get it all from movies though...Nice to know I havent shed blood and dealt blood. Nice to know you seem to know my life so well! Damn I do need to sit down and look back, all my memories and injuries must all be fake...damn I should see a doc and ask about these magical issues...
Did it ever occur to you that hey, violence is violence, and it has produced the best civilizations. Which nation became great without an act of violence? Yes it is dirty, bloody, and there is never really a right, just magnitude of wrongs.
But some of us, get so used to it, its just natural. What because I am not dead in a morgue from a gangster shooting I have never seen violence?
There is no romanticizing of it. The idea of gliding on that edge is the most intriguing thing to me. What the hell is there offered otherwise? A life in this world where its all about money, greed, entertainment in all its electronic and physical forms. Doing the same thing every one else does, every day, over and over...
Not every one can play sheep. Some of the people tied up in crimes, are so stuck there because they cant live in this bull crap world we have today. Stagnation at its max.
You cant pretend to analyze my posts. Because you dont have a clue. Obviously you are some kind of demi-god with the ability to see into anthers mind, and past.
What is it with people, and their need to suck into the masses, or the some of the ones who stand on the outside but think they can magically analyze everyone.
Many of your issues can be quite disproven come the proper timing...
Now men who barely qualify for the gender are allowed into control, and to make decisions affecting the masses.
Yes might used to be part of acquiring passage into adulthood...not anymore though.
But be happy, your ways are right...Look around America today, at the utopia civilization produced by your way...Or wait, you cant, because the person beside you weighs 400lbs of pure fat and cant lift himself out of his motor scooter. But its ok, he doesnt have to prove himself a man...No need for that today. His twinkie addictions are justified, we can support him, and let our nation go another notch..
I will be honest, my emotions may not work very well, maybe not well at all. I desire to help people, but even in church my nickname is "bloodyscientific" because I carry a rougher ideology and people know that.
One of the reasons I am single since my ex, is because no matter how many dates I go on, I cant get attached to anyone. Maybe I dont think right, maybe my emotions are that screwed. Fact is though, I will practice what I preach be it helping someone in need, or shooting someone if the justifiable situation presents itself.(aka, allows me to do it without going to jail)
There are 7 billion people, a few of them gone wont hurt a damn bit.
Very day this country does fall into an internal conflict/war if it ever does, I will be settling a few old scores from my past. Because the laws change.
What I cant stand though, is trying to be like every one else. I prefer my own path, regardless of your imaginations abilities to try and analyze me.
god bless test
