Witch’s Log

[Old Witch]

I do prefer a simpler diet, though. It’s easier to control nutrient intake.

Meals normally consist of a meat, a carb, a fiber.

Sometimes this means Chinese bell peppers and beef with rice

Sometimes this means spaghetti with a very meaty meat sauce.

Sometimes this means steak, rice or pasta, and broccoli or green beans.

Sometimes it means TACOS.

A lot of times, it means three chicken legs, three chicken thighs, and a large bowl of broccoli.

 

[jrock645]

I keep it simple too. Beef rice and veggies is what i eat most meals. Liquid egg whites for protein in a pinch. Greek yogurt and an orange for a snack. Replace beef with salmon 2 meals a week. Eat liver once a week. Start the day with a smoothie(spinach, carrot, banana, blueberry, protein). A glass of milk a couple days a week. Thats pretty much my diet these days.

 

[Old Witch]

Damn!

Chicken is almost as much as beef around here so i just say eff it and eat sirloin(or similarly prices cuts) most of the time. Cant beat beef.

Beef is about 5.99 a pound for non steak cuts and about 3.99 a pound or less for ground where I live. I do tend to buy in larger packages. 10lbs ground beef 80% for 20 bucks... can’t beat that. Just drain it. It’s good to go.

I get these 5 and 10lb bags of frozen chicken legs and quarters for 5 and 6 bucks respectively. The lady and kids love the legs.

For dry goods, I have a 50lb bag of white rice I’ve been working on for awhile now... I think it cost $8.

Barilla Protein Plus pasta, is amazing. It’s a little more expensive than the usual Creamette brand I grew up eating. Normal pasta texture. Awesome stuff.

 

[Old Witch]

I keep it simple too. Beef rice and veggies is what i eat most meals. Liquid egg whites for protein in a pinch. Greek yogurt and an orange for a snack. Replace beef with salmon 2 meals a week. Eat liver once a week. Start the day with a smoothie(spinach, carrot, banana, blueberry, protein). A glass of milk a couple days a week. Thats pretty much my diet these days.

I only eat liver once in awhile, personally. A few times a year though. I love liver and onions. So does my wife.

I usually buy the calf’s liver (vegans fuckoff) because it does have less toxins.

And it tastes best.

I like to soak it in milk overnight before I put a little bit of flour on it and start the meal.

 

[Old Witch]

It’s not a cheat meal if you’re not on a cut...

 

[Mathb33]

10 lbs for 6 bucks wow... 200gram of chicken is like 4$ here

 

[Wobmarvel]

Pretty cheap here in the UK too. Kg of chicken legs or thighs are less than £3. Oats and rice are crazy cheap. 12 large eggs are a couple of quid.

 

[Old Witch]

Well... my whole right buttcheek is completely swollen from crack to hip. A welt from when I had to start hitting glutes hit the sciatic nerve and it was game over. Left VG is still not ready, right VG was supposed to be ready.

So I dropped the DHB til I’ve got a spot to put it, unfortunately.

So that M1T run will be without DHB in. Unfortunately.

I really fucked myself, too high volume too often.shouldve just done a ml a day.

Put my test in my vastus lateralus with a 25 because I hadn’t anticipated doing delts or quads until next cycle when I’ll need it.

None of it hurts. At all. I get minor pinching feelings from trying to sit on the swelling and it has a minor itch from the skin stretching.

Ok I lied, my lower back, where the sciatic originated from the spine, is in agony.

 

[Old Witch]

Taking the first dose of M1T 7.5mg before training tonight.

Gonna do legs, while my VL has pip and my ass is a balloon.

 

[Joshinator]

Taking the first dose of M1T 7.5mg before training tonight.

Gonna do legs, while my VL has pip and my ass is a balloon.

Pain is just weakness leaving the body

 

[khall1974]

Well... my whole right buttcheek is completely swollen from crack to hip. A welt from when I had to start hitting glutes hit the sciatic nerve and it was game over. Left VG is still not ready, right VG was supposed to be ready.

So I dropped the DHB til I’ve got a spot to put it, unfortunately.

So that M1T run will be without DHB in. Unfortunately.

I really fucked myself, too high volume too often.shouldve just done a ml a day.

Put my test in my vastus lateralus with a 25 because I hadn’t anticipated doing delts or quads until next cycle when I’ll need it.

None of it hurts. At all. I get minor pinching feelings from trying to sit on the swelling and it has a minor itch from the skin stretching.

Ok I lied, my lower back, where the sciatic originated from the spine, is in agony.

Sorry to hear that. That is how my left glute was. Pinned yesterday...heated the heck out of the oil and so far so good. Get yourself back right.

 

[khall1974]

Sorry to hear that. That is how my left glute was. Pinned yesterday...heated the heck out of the oil and so far so good. Get yourself back right.

I hear you on the volume. May try to go quads and delts Thursday. The sheer volume and compound is a motha.

 

[Codybenz]

I’ve been pinning 2ml every 3.5 but missing shots because of swelling. I think I’m about to switch to 2.5ml every 5 days. Which will give me 10days on each glute between shots.

 

[khall1974]

I’ve been pinning 2ml every 3.5 but missing shots because of swelling. I think I’m about to switch to 2.5ml every 5 days. Which will give me 10days on each glute between shots.

I feel everyone's pain...I am gonna rotate each glute a week and split between quads and delts. I did 1.5 ml in my delt last Thursday and it was good in 2 days. I didnt care about the pip...was tired of my butt feeling this way and wanted somewhere else to hurt for once.

 

[Codybenz]

I feel everyone's pain...I am gonna rotate each glute a week and split between quads and delts. I did 1.5 ml in my delt last Thursday and it was good in 2 days. I didnt care about the pip...was tired of my butt feeling this way and wanted somewhere else to hurt for once.

I have seriously thought about this myself. Lots of people say delts suck with dhb but it’s tempting. Glad you are having some success with it

 

[Old Witch]

I wouldn’t mind my shoulders swelling up like balloons.

 

[khall1974]

How has your stomach been in cycle?

 

[Old Witch]

Stomach has been great, except for maybe the past few days where I didn’t really have any food.

 

[Old Witch]

So DHB is dropped, exem is dropped. Mk677 is dropped. Test upped to 750/wk will up to 1200/wk soon.

Taking a different approach suddenly. I’m not having success with my old methods. Too much instability at home.

Case in point: I just smoked meth for the first time in about sixteen years with my neighbor. They were right, this stuff ain’t like the anhydrous we used to get. Smoked a big fat crystal, like six huge hits, and I’m barely high. Not even spun in the least. More hot and sweaty in a way meth never did before. This ain’t meth. Closer to weed in potency. Super weak.

I won’t be making a habit of it. I have self control. Really.

 

[Mathb33]

Have you thought of NPP?

 

[Old Witch]

Have you thought of NPP?

I want my dick to work without caber and cialis. Super high test is something I haven’t done in forever and while I feel like Superman on dhb it makes my dick not work anymore for some reason. It wasn’t like that when I was younger.

I didn’t care at first because the wife is a bit asexual, but she gets hormones once a month and when they hit it can be really heavy duty.

She ended up having a guy make a move in her in our yard and she made it to the point his dick was out and in her hand before she realized she needed to not be doing that. We do have a somewhat open relationship but at that time that was not cool to do and she knew it.

She is very trustworthy, especially considering she’s an ex-teen-hooker who was crack addicted at 14 and is now 40 and monogamous except for our agreed exploits.

 

[Matthersby]

I want my dick to work without caber and cialis. Super high test is something I haven’t done in forever and while I feel like Superman on dhb it makes my dick not work anymore for some reason. It wasn’t like that when I was younger.

I didn’t care at first because the wife is a bit asexual, but she gets hormones once a month and when they hit it can be really heavy duty.

She ended up having a guy make a move in her in our yard and she made it to the point his dick was out and in her hand before she realized she needed to not be doing that. We do have a somewhat open relationship but at that time that was not cool to do and she knew it.

She is very trustworthy, especially considering she’s an ex-teen-hooker who was crack addicted at 14 and is now 40 and monogamous except for our agreed exploits.

This thread went from painful welts and weightlifting, to smoking meth, crack, teen hooking and open relationships.

Now we’re talking.

 

[Old Witch]

We’re lucky we don’t have some disease. We both have HPV, the genital wart virus 80% of people have it... we don’t have actual warts or anything. She has abnormal Pap smears, might have cervical cancer.

I had a lump on my testicle last year and I ignored it. We’re both dying I’m sure.

Also, she’s down to 100lbs. Last night I fucked her standing right in the middle of the living room with no support whatsoever.

 

[Old Witch]

But yeah, so if anyone has a spare vial of HCG and some caber or prami that I could have or trade some mk677 for... and maybe if you have bac water too...

Help me out, I need to glaze my wife good this week.

 

[Mathb33]

Jesus fucking hell

 

[Old Witch]

Jesus fucking hell

I know right? It’s crazy. My life is crazy.

By the way, this meth really sucks. There is zero high, zero euphoria.

I do have 100% of the energy that should come with the amount I smoked though.

I’m certain this is hexahydromethamphetamine. No aromatic phenyl ring. No hydrogen donors=no euphoria.

Incidentally that means I can just get this from a benzedrex inhaler. And it’s not illegal.

 

[Codybenz]

Mind Blown. I think you need to go to church this Sunday.

 

[Mathb33]

Bro you got me curious... how are Christmas’ Dinner having two girls you’ve fucked at the same table? Legend LOL

 

[Matthersby]

We’re lucky we don’t have some disease. We both have HPV, the genital wart virus 80% of people have it... we don’t have actual warts or anything. She has abnormal Pap smears, might have cervical cancer.

I had a lump on my testicle last year and I ignored it. We’re both dying I’m sure.

Also, she’s down to 100lbs. Last night I fucked her standing right in the middle of the living room with no support whatsoever.

Everyone has HPV.

 

[Matthersby]

Slutty piece of fuckmeat.
I’m totally using that tonight.

 

[Matthersby]

But yeah, so if anyone has a spare vial of HCG and some caber or prami that I could have or trade some mk677 for... and maybe if you have bac water too...

Help me out, I need to glaze my wife good this week.

Bro I just barely took 0.2mg liquid Prami last night.
I need to be using that every time I ****. especially since I run 19nors year round. It was high level porn quality. I’m 10x more interested in getting her off in her ass, getting her squirting, cumming over and over, giving way more head. Way more filth, and I’m rock hard, doesn’t subside for anything. Nothing beats 10mg cialis 1/4 milligram Prami. Rock star

 

[Codybenz]

Bro I just barely took 0.2mg liquid Prami last night.
I need to be using that every time I ****. especially since I run 19nors year round. It was high level porn quality. I’m 10x more interested in getting her off in her ass, getting her squirting, cumming over and over, giving way more head. Way more filth, and I’m rock hard, doesn’t subside for anything. Nothing beats 10mg cialis 1/4 milligram Prami. Rock star

You doing 10mg of cialis a day?

 

[Old Witch]

Mind Blown. I think you need to go to church this Sunday.

I’m a pagan. I worship aliens from outer space who make magical promises to give me riches in exchange for my undying servitude.

 

[Old Witch]

Bro you got me curious... how are Christmas’ Dinner having two girls you’ve fucked at the same table? Legend LOL

Well... the whole family knows about it too so I guess I feel like a bit of an asshole and a bit of a Mack daddy all at once.

I’m the only guy ever to **** both sisters.

 

[Matthersby]

You doing 10mg of cialis a day?

Just about. But PRO cialis was so strong I barely even needed that.
I don’t like the facial flushing but it’s the only drug where I’m good to go for days and super hard erections.. when you’ve got a spontaneous 35 year old girl, a 4-6 hour window isn’t good enough. I like a weekend drug, so it works for days at a time.
I’m not sure I’ve ever needed it, it just works better and they like not having to get it hard again if you take a break etc, it’s just always good to go.

 

[Old Witch]

Bro I just barely took 0.2mg liquid Prami last night.
I need to be using that every time I ****. especially since I run 19nors year round. It was high level porn quality. I’m 10x more interested in getting her off in her ass, getting her squirting, cumming over and over, giving way more head. Way more filth, and I’m rock hard, doesn’t subside for anything. Nothing beats 10mg cialis 1/4 milligram Prami. Rock star

Dude... it’s so weird... I want and don’t want all at once. I more want to want, really. Like I just want to cum, which I can barely do at this point. But I want to get freaky too.. but I kind of don’t... but I know she wants me to do things I haven’t done in a long time... and I want to but only sort of. It’s like, the interest is only half there, and the half that’s there is only there because I think it ought to be.

I know that if I went and picked up some 20 year old I’d rip her in half and be glad to do it... but I’m having some trouble getting in that mood for my wife, even though I want to be in that mood for her. And then she’s asexual half the time so usually she’s not even receptive to it anyway.

It’s literally only right around her cycle that she gets massively horny and cock obsessed, and we get pretty crazy. This time around she’s especially horny and I’m especially wanting to be with her vs another woman but my GODDAMN COCK DOESNT WORK RIGHT.

I’m on 20mg cialis right now, I took 100mg proviron today, and even smoked meth.. and I still can’t cum with a hard dick.

It’s total Deca dick, and just like when I was in high school before ever trying gear. It’s hard, gets going, about to bust, it goes limp and numb and I lose my fucking mind.

Once I hit about 25 or 26 that had stopped, and instead I just came way too fast for my liking. Five minutes of sex and I’d bust, but I’d stay hard so round two or three could happen. What sucked is we were going through a lot of trouble and her sex drive was basically gone so those extra rounds didn’t happen. Instead I’d wait a month for my once-only sex and it would last less than five minutes and I’d be left wishing for a longer time.

Then last year, I got back on prohormones etc and that sort of became reality, I could bust whenever I wanted or hold it forever if I wanted.

Then, I started taking the mk677 and DHB. It immediately ruined my ability to orgasm and it has not come back except for a short two day span where I had a perfect estrogen level.

No matter how I time my Adex or don’t even use it, same results. It’s got to be prolactin and testicular atrophy together playing a role.

So to help at least a little, I’m dropping literally everything that fucks with it and raising the doses on everything that makes it work.

Until I get some prami or caber.


At this point I’m trying to get my wife to understand why a monogamous relationship is just probably better overall, since the sex between us is always better than sex with others involved anyway...

To her sex is just a thing you do for fun. And I’m mostly the same. But we’re not so young anymore anyway and I actually do care what people think of us now. And it’s (promiscuity) just not something I’ve wanted anymore for a long time, and she never wanted it at all really.

Trying to explain to a woman that it doesn’t matter what the actual agreements and reasons are, that basically any guy who sees her as available will see me as inferior, is like pulling teeth. She understands the concept. Just doesn’t understand why that is the case, and thinks it’s a stupid sentiment.

But, she also always portrays herself as monogamous around my friends, so she must understand at least somewhat. To my buddies I’m the only one who can go and do whatever I want. In reality we both could, she just rarely ever wanted.

Hard to explain but suffice it to say that we both want to be exclusively monogamous, but we also both would have a hard time refusing someone attractive who made a move, and she doesn’t trust herself as much as I trust myself. So we’re just discussing all of that and such, reasons, feelings, worries, etc.

Like I said though, I need some hcg and some prolactin antagonist / dopamine receptor agonist. Really bad.

Even with a dick that barely works I **** like a comic book hero. Totally unstoppable. I don’t care if I can’t feel it as long as I know she can.

So it goes without saying that I proved to her already that I can devour her just like I used to. I’d just like to be able to cum too. She likes that.

 

[hairygrandpa]

Thank you guys, now I have a erection.

 

[Codybenz]

Just about. But PRO cialis was so strong I barely even needed that.
I don’t like the facial flushing but it’s the only drug where I’m good to go for days and super hard erections.. when you’ve got a spontaneous 35 year old girl, a 4-6 hour window isn’t good enough. I like a weekend drug, so it works for days at a time.
I’m not sure I’ve ever needed it, it just works better and they like not having to get it hard again if you take a break etc, it’s just always good to go.

I’m on 5mg a day and have no issues. I was just curious if 10 everyday had any sides.

You said face flushing. Any headaches?

 

[hairygrandpa]

I’m on 5mg a day and have no issues. I was just curious if 10 everyday had any sides.

You said face flushing. Any headaches?

Heartburn and pain in hamstrings for me. 10mg e3d is what I do.

 

[Old Witch]

I don’t get headaches from cialis up to 30mg apparently even two days in a row. I also don’t get strong enough erections to necessarily matter from it either.

 

[jrock645]

I picked up some full dose viagra, cialis, dapoxetine combo pills. Used em once or twice. Mainly got them for the honeymoon. Now THOSE are fun!

 

[Matthersby]

Dude... it’s so weird... I want and don’t want all at once. I more want to want, really. Like I just want to cum, which I can barely do at this point. But I want to get freaky too.. but I kind of don’t... but I know she wants me to do things I haven’t done in a long time... and I want to but only sort of. It’s like, the interest is only half there, and the half that’s there is only there because I think it ought to be.

I know that if I went and picked up some 20 year old I’d rip her in half and be glad to do it... but I’m having some trouble getting in that mood for my wife, even though I want to be in that mood for her. And then she’s asexual half the time so usually she’s not even receptive to it anyway.

It’s literally only right around her cycle that she gets massively horny and cock obsessed, and we get pretty crazy. This time around she’s especially horny and I’m especially wanting to be with her vs another woman but my GODDAMN COCK DOESNT WORK RIGHT.

I’m on 20mg cialis right now, I took 100mg proviron today, and even smoked meth.. and I still can’t cum with a hard dick.

It’s total Deca dick, and just like when I was in high school before ever trying gear. It’s hard, gets going, about to bust, it goes limp and numb and I lose my fucking mind.

Once I hit about 25 or 26 that had stopped, and instead I just came way too fast for my liking. Five minutes of sex and I’d bust, but I’d stay hard so round two or three could happen. What sucked is we were going through a lot of trouble and her sex drive was basically gone so those extra rounds didn’t happen. Instead I’d wait a month for my once-only sex and it would last less than five minutes and I’d be left wishing for a longer time.

Then last year, I got back on prohormones etc and that sort of became reality, I could bust whenever I wanted or hold it forever if I wanted.

Then, I started taking the mk677 and DHB. It immediately ruined my ability to orgasm and it has not come back except for a short two day span where I had a perfect estrogen level.

No matter how I time my Adex or don’t even use it, same results. It’s got to be prolactin and testicular atrophy together playing a role.

So to help at least a little, I’m dropping literally everything that fucks with it and raising the doses on everything that makes it work.

Until I get some prami or caber.


At this point I’m trying to get my wife to understand why a monogamous relationship is just probably better overall, since the sex between us is always better than sex with others involved anyway...

To her sex is just a thing you do for fun. And I’m mostly the same. But we’re not so young anymore anyway and I actually do care what people think of us now. And it’s (promiscuity) just not something I’ve wanted anymore for a long time, and she never wanted it at all really.

Trying to explain to a woman that it doesn’t matter what the actual agreements and reasons are, that basically any guy who sees her as available will see me as inferior, is like pulling teeth. She understands the concept. Just doesn’t understand why that is the case, and thinks it’s a stupid sentiment.

But, she also always portrays herself as monogamous around my friends, so she must understand at least somewhat. To my buddies I’m the only one who can go and do whatever I want. In reality we both could, she just rarely ever wanted.

Hard to explain but suffice it to say that we both want to be exclusively monogamous, but we also both would have a hard time refusing someone attractive who made a move, and she doesn’t trust herself as much as I trust myself. So we’re just discussing all of that and such, reasons, feelings, worries, etc.

Like I said though, I need some hcg and some prolactin antagonist / dopamine receptor agonist. Really bad.

Even with a dick that barely works I **** like a comic book hero. Totally unstoppable. I don’t care if I can’t feel it as long as I know she can.

So it goes without saying that I proved to her already that I can devour her just like I used to. I’d just like to be able to cum too. She likes that.

Amongst a lot of this, we have some things in common with this stuff.
I remember being only 22, and jacking off watching Seinfeld and porn. If I got too close, I’d watch the show and slow down with the porn. I’d do this for 2 episodes sometimes. Just for stamina.
I’d hook up with friends or coworkers I had no interest in so I could practice something I had learned or perfect head and gspot techniques or squirting, whatever.
I don’t understand how so many guys are ok with sucking in bed and they think their woman is going to constantly come to them for more, or open avenues for freakier, dirtier, filthier fantasies..
I feel most women have a dirty cumcrqzed whore side to them but they are so used to guys that can’t handle it, that you have to nurture it out of them. It took me a little while to realize this. Your girl the first few years at least should be sending filthy nudes on your phone and should be able to confess some seriously dirty ****. I won’t be with someone that doesn’t want to be degraded and isn’t extremely confident sexually, and if you know what you’re doing, it’s not super hard to turn her into someone like that. (Or maybe she has been all along but it’s never drawn out)

Anal and bondage should be a major part of people’s sex life. Or go even further to some of the other stuff. BuT vanilla sex won’t keep a couple together. One or both will get bored.
I don’t even care if I get off. If I can please her 15 different ways, I go to bed satisfied, because I know if I want it, she’ll be down to give it. Enthusiastically too.
I can’t even imagine a married woman, like in the movies, just giving you a monthly maintenance **** to keep you from going postal.
She should want it more than you on androgens do, otherwise, it’s time to learn how to please better.
Some just don’t get it, being selfless IS being selfish. You gotta give it well and youll get it so much better. And more often. And freakier. I want every Monday Thursday and Sunday night to be better than the **** you see in porn. Why I don’t even watch porn.

 

[Codybenz]

Amongst a lot of this, we have some things in common with this stuff.
I remember being only 22, and jacking off watching Seinfeld and porn. If I got too close, I’d watch the show and slow down with the porn. I’d do this for 2 episodes sometimes. Just for stamina.
I’d hook up with friends or coworkers I had no interest in so I could practice something I had learned or perfect head and gspot techniques or squirting, whatever.
I don’t understand how so many guys are ok with sucking in bed and they think their woman is going to constantly come to them for more, or open avenues for freakier, dirtier, filthier fantasies..
I feel most women have a dirty cumcrqzed whore side to them but they are so used to guys that can’t handle it, that you have to nurture it out of them. It took me a little while to realize this. Your girl the first few years at least should be sending filthy nudes on your phone and should be able to confess some seriously dirty ****. I won’t be with someone that doesn’t want to be degraded and isn’t extremely confident sexually, and if you know what you’re doing, it’s not super hard to turn her into someone like that. (Or maybe she has been all along but it’s never drawn out)

Anal and bondage should be a major part of people’s sex life. Or go even further to some of the other stuff. BuT vanilla sex won’t keep a couple together. One or both will get bored.
I don’t even care if I get off. If I can please her 15 different ways, I go to bed satisfied, because I know if I want it, she’ll be down to give it. Enthusiastically too.
I can’t even imagine a married woman, like in the movies, just giving you a monthly maintenance **** to keep you from going postal.
She should want it more than you on androgens do, otherwise, it’s time to learn how to please better.
Some just don’t get it, being selfless IS being selfish. You gotta give it well and youll get it so much better. And more often. And freakier. I want every Monday Thursday and Sunday night to be better than the **** you see in porn. Why I don’t even watch porn.

This is 100 percent accurate. Almost as if I wrote it myself. I always say if you ain’t taking care of your girl, somebody else will.

I have turned my wife into a sex machine. She has got to have it every night. I won’t go into details, but my wife could have been a porn star no problem.

And I’m the same way. If your primary goal in the bedroom is to always please your women as much and as many times as possible, she will make sure you are taken care of. And what I need to do to accomplish that changes all the time. You gotta get inside there head and understand what they want, and what they need.

 

[Matthersby]

This is 100 percent accurate. Almost as if I wrote it myself. I always say if you ain’t taking care of your girl, somebody else will.

I have turned my wife into a sex machine. She has got to have it every night. I won’t go into details, but my wife could have been a porn star no problem.

And I’m the same way. If your primary goal in the bedroom is to always please your women as much and as many times as possible, she will make sure you are taken care of. And what I need to do to accomplish that changes all the time. You gotta get inside there head and understand what they want, and what they need.

Exactly. What I do now and what I did a year ago with my girlfriend is totally different. We learn something new every week. And to get to that point, there’s got to be communication and trust. Meaning, both of us have to admit stuff without fear of judgement from the other. That never really happens right away in a relationship. You’re not breaking out whips and anal beads and gags on the 3rd date awkward first time ****.
I know I don’t.



You want a girl that wants to push the envelope to keep it spicy. And you can’t let yourself get stagnant either. This girl I’m with now is awesome. She is always getting filthier and very open about it too. That’s huge for me. I can’t say I’ve had that but 3 times in my 40 years. Makes her really seem like a keeper if that was the only thing. But there’s more than just that.

I like how OW and his wife think realistically and outside the box about their marriage. Probably why it’s made it and will continue to make it. Sometimes putting her needs first gets you what you need anyways.
And like he said, ya strange is great, but it’s never fucking ever as good as someone you’ve explored with and pushed boundaries sexually with, that knows every damn way to please you better than anyone else in the world. I’m monogamous for that reason alone. Sex is so much better with the person that is an expert with your body. I’d rather keep the mechanic that’s worked on my car for 10 years, they know wtf they’re doing with it.

 

[Old Witch]

Must say, it sucks knowing I myself pushed my own wife away from me for awhile without noticing. And then I didn’t listen when she said anything about it.
Luckily for me I guess, nothing totally irrevocable happened, whether she wanted it or not.

When you have agreements, you have them, when you have monogamy, you have that... it would have been pretty lame to have avoided her ever actually cheating for so long only to have it come screeching to a halt right now.

She cheated on every single guy she ever dated except me. I am apparently enough to make her want total monogamy. Anytime we messed around with others, it was originally my idea, she just went along with it.

The only reason she even got flirty was because I made her unhappy. She was always quite adamant that she didn’t even like to look at other guys. And it was true until now.

Instead now she’s having some trouble with what she just almost did and the fact that I’m so willing and able to fix what I hadn’t done before.

It’s like she won every argument we ever had all at once and doesn’t know if it’s good or bad.

She says she liked the “kinky” me better but... to be honest the open relationship stuff was pretty vanilla. We have much kinkier sex by ourselves in monogamy, because I’m not distracted by other people.

It makes me want to do things to her that she would never let anyone else do. Just to remind her who I am.

 

[Old Witch]

To her, sex with me is this magickal thing that nobody else can touch, sex with someone else is just what you do when you’re bored.

I used to feel similarly, we were both very hyper sexual. I still am, but I just don’t want to bother with banging new chicks or confused men.

And I kind of just want her to feel like she used to. Like I’m not a major dickhead.

 

[CroLifter]

This thread is so far, i must say, the most entertaining thread on this board i have read to date.

 

[DaveyCrockett]

This thread went from painful welts and weightlifting, to smoking meth, crack, teen hooking and open relationships.

Now we’re talking.

Agreed

Dude... it’s so weird... I want and don’t want all at once. I more want to want, really. Like I just want to cum, which I can barely do at this point. But I want to get freaky too.. but I kind of don’t... but I know she wants me to do things I haven’t done in a long time... and I want to but only sort of. It’s like, the interest is only half there, and the half that’s there is only there because I think it ought to be.

I know that if I went and picked up some 20 year old I’d rip her in half and be glad to do it... but I’m having some trouble getting in that mood for my wife, even though I want to be in that mood for her. And then she’s asexual half the time so usually she’s not even receptive to it anyway.

It’s literally only right around her cycle that she gets massively horny and cock obsessed, and we get pretty crazy. This time around she’s especially horny and I’m especially wanting to be with her vs another woman but my GODDAMN COCK DOESNT WORK RIGHT.

I’m on 20mg cialis right now, I took 100mg proviron today, and even smoked meth.. and I still can’t cum with a hard dick.

It’s total Deca dick, and just like when I was in high school before ever trying gear. It’s hard, gets going, about to bust, it goes limp and numb and I lose my fucking mind.

Once I hit about 25 or 26 that had stopped, and instead I just came way too fast for my liking. Five minutes of sex and I’d bust, but I’d stay hard so round two or three could happen. What sucked is we were going through a lot of trouble and her sex drive was basically gone so those extra rounds didn’t happen. Instead I’d wait a month for my once-only sex and it would last less than five minutes and I’d be left wishing for a longer time.

Then last year, I got back on prohormones etc and that sort of became reality, I could bust whenever I wanted or hold it forever if I wanted.

Then, I started taking the mk677 and DHB. It immediately ruined my ability to orgasm and it has not come back except for a short two day span where I had a perfect estrogen level.

No matter how I time my Adex or don’t even use it, same results. It’s got to be prolactin and testicular atrophy together playing a role.

So to help at least a little, I’m dropping literally everything that fucks with it and raising the doses on everything that makes it work.

Until I get some prami or caber.


At this point I’m trying to get my wife to understand why a monogamous relationship is just probably better overall, since the sex between us is always better than sex with others involved anyway...

To her sex is just a thing you do for fun. And I’m mostly the same. But we’re not so young anymore anyway and I actually do care what people think of us now. And it’s (promiscuity) just not something I’ve wanted anymore for a long time, and she never wanted it at all really.

Trying to explain to a woman that it doesn’t matter what the actual agreements and reasons are, that basically any guy who sees her as available will see me as inferior, is like pulling teeth. She understands the concept. Just doesn’t understand why that is the case, and thinks it’s a stupid sentiment.

But, she also always portrays herself as monogamous around my friends, so she must understand at least somewhat. To my buddies I’m the only one who can go and do whatever I want. In reality we both could, she just rarely ever wanted.

Hard to explain but suffice it to say that we both want to be exclusively monogamous, but we also both would have a hard time refusing someone attractive who made a move, and she doesn’t trust herself as much as I trust myself. So we’re just discussing all of that and such, reasons, feelings, worries, etc.

Like I said though, I need some hcg and some prolactin antagonist / dopamine receptor agonist. Really bad.

Even with a dick that barely works I **** like a comic book hero. Totally unstoppable. I don’t care if I can’t feel it as long as I know she can.

So it goes without saying that I proved to her already that I can devour her just like I used to. I’d just like to be able to cum too. She likes that.

Lots of good stuff in there.. I guess it's the test I'm on now because this never happened before but I have a really hard time saying no to female advances.. And yet I can't stand the thought of hurting my GF like that... We do not have an open relationship lol..

Also it was weird, though even if my chick had multiples, it really started to bother her when I couldn't finish (before gear). Now I'm all Dapoxetine needed and sh*t for the first time in my life.. Thanks a lot testosterone lol

This thread is so far, i must say, the most entertaining thread on this board i have read to date.

I am hooked on this thread like it's f*cking OxyContin lol

 

[CroLifter]

I still am, but I just don’t want to bother with banging new chicks or confused men.

This phrase might be confusing to someone whom English is not their 1st language.

 

[Old Witch]

This phrase might be confusing to someone whom English is not their 1st language.

What? You never fucked a guy up the ass before? Pfff. Wimp.