Witch’s Log

[Matthersby]

I too have pooped the jumbo brown corncob.

I’m starting my 297th Kratom taper today.
Wish me luck! This one’s the one! I can feel it!

 

[DaveyCrockett]

It’s funny, when I called the dude out over it in the first place he tried claiming she threw herself at him (even though she was on the rag which I of course knew all too well...) but she literally said, “Got something for me?” Which was asking about some weed the dude was supposed to get which was why he was even there, to sell it to us. And it wasn’t the first time he was asked. Yeah, idiot. Just because she’s a woman doesn’t mean every vague question is a sexual advance. Generally it means that she’s still asking about the same drug errand as the last two times she asked in as many hours.

Trust me, when my wife makes a sexual advance it’s pretty physical. She asked a question about weed, dude walked away without answering so she followed him and then he made a move, she stopped him, went inside, told me etc etc the whole thing lasted 20 seconds from the time she left our door to the time she came back to tell me he tried to make a move out in the yard.

She’s very responsive to physical contact so he got pretty far before she had a chance to make him stop. Take her by surprise with a kiss, pull your dick out, put her hand on it, lay her down, tug at her pants all in under five seconds and then she says...

“I’m wearing pants and a tampon”

She’s so cute. she actually said “I’m wearing pants and a tampon” to stop him, so he did and then called her a bitch.

As if pants would have stopped anything. Pants. “I’m wearing pants and a tampon.” Amazing self defense skills this woman....

Luckily, she wears athletic pants with the drawstrings tied tightly and tucked in. Those pants were never coming off for anyone but her. And she was not at all a willing participant. So, tell your wives to tie their pants. It could save their ass, literally. Saved my wife’s. She’s very petite (5’7” 105lbs) and pretty much extremely defenseless and rapeable.

But, you know, I was also about to walk out there when it all stopped, so, you know, had it gone literally one second further I’d have caught it and totally fucked up his brain case for life. He actually ran away as I opened the door and she was telling me what just happened in the less than 20 seconds she had been gone. I mean it was seriously fast. Scary fast really. I guess he didn’t know I was home, and really really didn’t know I was coming outside pretty much right after her.

I mean, unless there was reason to believe that kissing a mans wife and jamming your dick into her hand is appropriate (or somehow permitted) behavior its a fucking sexual assault. I mean i undwrstand you guys are kind of like swinger typw people but that does not mean that anyone has permission to **** her at any time. Dude deserved to get his teeth kicked in and look it happened and you dont even have to worry about an assault case. Damn right karma.

 

[DaveyCrockett]

I’m starting my 297th Kratom taper today.
Wish me luck! This one’s the one! I can feel it!

Goddammit bro i bought 30g last night. Still have half so im pacing it. How much a day were you up to?

 

[Matthersby]

Goddammit bro i bought 30g last night. Still have half so im pacing it. How much a day were you up to?

I’ve been as bad as 150g a day but I can’t be much over 70-80 right now. A kilo lasts me between paychecks so it’s under control...

Under control....Other than the whole addicted to it part...

 

[DaveyCrockett]

I’ve been as bad as 150g a day but I can’t be much over 70-80 right now. A kilo lasts me between paychecks so it’s under control...

Under control....Other than the whole addicted to it part...

Dude remember its only as addictive as coffee and even at 150g a day im sure there were zero sides cuz its all natural.

Right?

I took a pretty hefty dose of phenibut my.first night cold turkey and got up the next day completely insane. Looked in the mirror and didnt recognizw the muscular guy there. I had regressed back to my pre gear memories. Then didnt sleep for three days. Then intractable skin crawling pain for two weeks. Then hopelessness and lethargy for one more.

Just like quitting coffee!

 

[Matthersby]

Dude remember its only as addictive as coffee and even at 150g a day im sure there were zero sides cuz its all natural.

Right?

I took a pretty hefty dose of phenibut my.first night cold turkey and got up the next day completely insane. Looked in the mirror and didnt recognizw the muscular guy there. I had regressed back to my pre gear memories. Then didnt sleep for three days. Then intractable skin crawling pain for two weeks. Then hopelessness and lethargy for one more.

Just like quitting coffee!

I go into freezing cold, pouring sweat, eyes dilated as big as saucers, aches/pains in less than 10 hours between doses. And I will not sleep even an hour that next night, restless legs and all. Just like tramadol withdrawals which I’ve experienced to be as bad as other opiates
But who knows what shape my opiate receptors are in from 2009.

 

[DaveyCrockett]

I go into freezing cold, pouring sweat, eyes dilated as big as saucers, aches/pains in less than 10 hours between doses. And I will not sleep even an hour that next night, restless legs and all. Just like tramadol withdrawals which I’ve experienced to be as bad as other opiates
But who knows what shape my opiate receptors are in from 2009.

The thing that got me with kratom WDs was that all those alkaloids bind to so many receptors....serotonin dopamine and the opioid sites....i was not prepared man.

 

[jrock645]

I go into freezing cold, pouring sweat, eyes dilated as big as saucers, aches/pains in less than 10 hours between doses. And I will not sleep even an hour that next night, restless legs and all. Just like tramadol withdrawals which I’ve experienced to be as bad as other opiates
But who knows what shape my opiate receptors are in from 2009.

Wow luckily i didnt get that way coming off tramadol. I was up to 9 of those fuckers a day when my back was fucked up, before i got switched to vicodin and was on 3-4 of those.

 

[Old Witch]

I’m not addicted to anything but sex.

Oh and I guess probably steroids. You know...

 

[DaveyCrockett]

I’m not addicted to anything but sex.

Oh and I guess probably steroids. You know...

Steroids? How can a person possibly be addicted to strength and fitness enhancing substances and it be a negative thing? The world just needs to hop on for a few cycles before they get all judgey lol

 

[Matthersby]

I’m not addicted to anything but sex.

Oh and I guess probably steroids. You know...

I like steroids more than anything drug I’ve ever used.
Except good Molly. That stuff is so damn good.

 

[DaveyCrockett]

I like steroids more than anything drug I’ve ever used.
Except good Molly. That stuff is so damn good.

The steroids got me for sure. I mean of course i got sucked into the bodybuilding side of but man, the fucking confidence! The aggression and or assertiveness! The way women practically disrobe and spread from what just seems like a few words, a smile, and intense eye contact.

I dont think i can ever go back to the way i was before. Not voluntarily

 

[Matthersby]

The steroids got me for sure. I mean of course i got sucked into the bodybuilding side of but man, the fucking confidence! The aggression and or assertiveness! The way women practically disrobe and spread from what just seems like a few words, a smile, and intense eye contact.

I dont think i can ever go back to the way i was before. Not voluntarily

Honestly. I wouldn’t either. My sobriety and overall successes seem to be hinged on both selflessness and bodybuilding. The discipline carries over to other areas of my life. If I’m not training or pursuing bodybuilding goals, every other area of my life suffers. I’m less of a partner, less of an employee, I don’t do anything as good or go as hard.
It helps keep me sober.
I need it for life like I need oxygen.
It does that much for me.

 

[Old Witch]

Right now it’s alittle love/hate with the steroids for me.

I’m having some sexual dysfunction lately, and it’s spotty too, so not exactly something I can diagnose easily. Taking proviron, cialis and methamphetamine together helps a lot, since I have no cabergoline, methamphetamine is the only dopamine receptor agonist I can procure at the moment for free.

I want some HCG though. Bad. Shots are huge, but I want huger. My wife will love that. She’s never been with a guy on steroids before in the first place, let alone that it’s ME, add hcg and her favorite part of sex is about to get even better.

Gotta give the lady what she wants....

 

[DaveyCrockett]

Right now it’s alittle love/hate with the steroids for me.

I’m having some sexual dysfunction lately, and it’s spotty too, so not exactly something I can diagnose easily. Taking proviron, cialis and methamphetamine together helps a lot, since I have no cabergoline, methamphetamine is the only dopamine receptor agonist I can procure at the moment for free.

I kicked the meth because i was shooting enough to send my bipolar disorder over the edge but i remember it having a weird sexual window with me.....at the beginnkng i was tweaking and not really about sex plus id have ED if i didnt take cialis or Viagra but a few hours later it was like i used a million IU of HCg lol.....balls full and fucking painful and me ready to **** the GF for hours.....

And then i realize shes asleep cuz ive been tweaking alone for so long

 

[Old Witch]

I’m waiting for her to get home from taking her mom around to run errands.

When she does... it’s on. She said before she left she’s worn out from the extra attention she’s been getting from me... but she still masturbated before she left. That’s my girl. It’s her way of taming the beast before she leaves, especially after sex. She’s extremely hypersexual and she does not get satisfied. At all. She has to either be fucked into a coma or immedately stop being touched the moment she finishes an orgasm in order to not just want it that much more.

I kicked the meth because i was shooting enough to send my bipolar disorder over the edge but i remember it having a weird sexual window with me.....at the beginnkng i was tweaking and not really about sex plus id have ED if i didnt take cialis or Viagra but a few hours later it was like i used a million IU of HCg lol.....balls full and fucking painful and me ready to **** the GF for hours.....

And then i realize shes asleep cuz ive been tweaking alone for so long

Yeah we don’t bang our **** over here. She likes the clouds... big sexy clouds... I don’t use it habitually. She’s been an off and on user for our entire relationship. Last couple of months she’s been using it daily. I’m paying close attention to her behavior and choices to keep her safe.

This stuff isn’t like the stuff I used to get back in the day, where you’d wanna rob your grandma for another hit. She wouldn’t be trustworthy on that brew.

Not. At. All. I know what she’s like on that old school ****. And it’s ugly.

I’d have to have her put into inpatient treatment and possibly psychiatric care if she got even one shard of **** that strong.

This stuff has zero euphoria as far as I can tell. I don’t get it. No spun out feeling at all. Just that long lasting energy and general feeling of good.

Also, she totally lets me smash when she’s sleeping. She just wakes up to cum and scream my name and then she drifts off back into dreamland until the next one.

Yes it’s consentual. I’m not a creepy rapist asshole. She actually, factually, likes being fucked in her sleep. It makes her dreams more fun she says and she wakes up totally refreshed in the morning. If I don’t.., she gets really bitchy right when she gets up.

So basically I have to **** her all day and night for the rest of forever.

Luckily, lately, she’s only sleeping every third night. So the nights she’s awake are a much , much, much more entertaining time.

I think it’s sleep night tonight. Pretty sure. The last few were not so...

 

[Old Witch]

I just need to stop grinding my teeth and I’m good....

 

[Old Witch]

I mean, unless there was reason to believe that kissing a mans wife and jamming your dick into her hand is appropriate (or somehow permitted) behavior its a fucking sexual assault. I mean i undwrstand you guys are kind of like swinger typw people but that does not mean that anyone has permission to **** her at any time. Dude deserved to get his teeth kicked in and look it happened and you dont even have to worry about an assault case. Damn right karma.

Oh yeah, it’s definitely a rape attempt. She is so unbelievably sexual that she doesn’t even see it like that. She thinks she missed a lot of flags that she normally would have seen that meant she was agreeing to and initiating a future sexual encounter. I disagree, but I do think she made some mistakes in communication with him. Usually it does not go down like this. Usually she makes her choice and asks me about it, I agree to it and she either brings him home and we double tap her all night or they do their thing while I have my own entertainment, or sometimes I just like to watch. Generally if that’s the case then the guy she brought home will get his fill and not be able to satisfy her, so then I take over and he jets. Sometimes they want another round, often times not. She’s a real animal and most guys would not even have a clue how to handle her.

This guy was a new guy she met at her sisters house (trap house) who was really good looking and pretty smart. But he was also a meth dealer, homeless, and a sneak thief.

He was a guy she did like and she flirted with him exactly once, just flashed her tits at him on the street a few days before he got grabby. The night after she did that, he asked when he could touch, she said she needed to talk to me, she talked to me about that but did not yet want to ask permission for sex because she wasn’t sure about him yet. I was pretty clear that I would have said no, which is not exactly common, because of exactly who he is and what house she met him at first. He is not even close to her level, regardless of how he might look (handsome, well hung, etc.) and she actually agreed.

What she didn’t catch was that when she told him that she needed to ask me first, he said he’d rather nobody know, and she changed the subject instead of asserting the rules as the only way there will ever be any physical contact between them. She does that kind of thing to me too and she thinks it means it’s her way or no way. But I’m sure he didn’t see it like that.

I left them alone together in my house exactly once, and he did not leave the couch across the room from her. I have cameras. That was the night he asked to touch. Other topics included meth, stealing, meth, and weed.

So, I’m sure he thought that if he made a move a couple days later and told her to shut up about it, she’d just give in. And that’s exactly the way she is. That’s definitely what would have happened if the circumstances were different. She’s a walking willing rape victim. So she didn’t expect him to even touch her, let alone kiss, let alone try to undress her... if I had not been home and she was not on the rag and her pants were not tied on like a life preserver...

Dude would have raped my wife and she would have thought she cheated on me at random with a guy she liked. Because once she’s in the moment she’s not thinking until something gets in the way of progress, then her mind snaps back into control. And this guy she really liked, so she pretty much thought she was into it until she realized the tampon and the actual situation at hand. I mean it really is goddamn crazy.

I’ve seen her basically castrate a guy because he did something similar when we first started this, years ago, before we were married, he made his move and pretty much had it in soft when the lights in her head kicked on and she kicked him off. Right in the junk. And it was bare. And she kicks hard. Really hard. I did not realize at the time she had not agreed to it so I was literally just sitting there about to watch her get raped. We definitely fought over that and ever since it’s been great, I know exactly what I’m doing now. I guess it was a good thing he wasn’t hard and sort of fumbled around for a second. That’s what brought her back into reality. And pissed her off.

She’s been actually raped dozens of times before she got with me.

It’s never happened again. It will never happen again. But it’s me who is the factor. Not her, she literally cannot say no to a stranger or new acquaintance because she is afraid they will just beat her bloody and rape her. It is not a fear she will ever lose. It’s for life. So I have to protect her.

And goddamn I can’t wait til she gets home. I just called her moms house and she’s there visiting while her dad disengages our cars emergency brake.

I guess it locked up again on the highway. Good thing she didn’t get into an accident. We’re sending the kids to their aunt tonight so we can get extra freaky. I’m not sure who or what she might bring home. Judging by the past week, I’m guessing it’s going to be a certain girl I told her she could bring home for us.

At least I hope so... because if it’s another dog I’m going to need another SD card. I mean.... we never do anything like that. What are you talking about? No, you are. No, you.

Just kidding.

 

[Old Witch]

When the dude gets out of the hospital, me and couple of hardcore meth head natives are gonna put him back in there.

 

[hairygrandpa]

 

[Matthersby]

I just need to stop grinding my teeth and I’m good....

Does it make me a bad person to want you to have a little meth here and there just for the conversation’s increased entertainment value?
I mean, if you’ve got a handle on it and all that...

 

[DaveyCrockett]

Does it make me a bad person to want you to have a little meth here and there just for the conversation’s increased entertainment value?
I mean, if you’ve got a handle on it and all that...

So i had a bunch of meth dreams night before last and when i got my new pins in the mail, the seller had mistakenly included a fuckload of 28g 1cc insulin syringes. Ive been wanting it ever since, off and on. If i could use it responsibly like Letrozole or my psych meds it would be amazing. No such luck. So i have a huge crush on a coworker and she invited me to lunch. I bought her lunch and spent the dope money that way. Some days are hard.

 

[Matthersby]

So i had a bunch of meth dreams night before last and when i got my new pins in the mail, the seller had mistakenly included a fuckload of 28g 1cc insulin syringes. Ive been wanting it ever since, off and on. If i could use it responsibly like Letrozole or my psych meds it would be amazing. No such luck. So i have a huge crush on a coworker and she invited me to lunch. I bought her lunch and spent the dope money that way. Some days are hard.

So maybe I don’t wish that. Just want everyone to be healthy and live their life the best way they can. Kind of a lame joke coming from an addict I guess..

 

[DaveyCrockett]

So maybe I don’t wish that. Just want everyone to be healthy and live their life the best way they can. Kind of a lame joke coming from an addict I guess..

Dont mind me im a buzzkill man. Lots of.people can do meth. I damn sure cant do it and bulk up to 195 lol

 

[Old Witch]

Does it make me a bad person to want you to have a little meth here and there just for the conversation’s increased entertainment value?
I mean, if you’ve got a handle on it and all that...

Well that first day I was pretty talkative. I smoked way too much. Way way way too much.

Now I’m good.

 

[Matthersby]

Well that first day I was pretty talkative. I smoked way too much. Way way way too much.

Now I’m good.

Glad you and the Mrs are doing good.

 

[hairygrandpa]

Well that first day I was pretty talkative. I smoked way too much. Way way way too much.

Now I’m good.

Well, I considered something like that....way,I mean WAY over the threshold of info...

 

[Rad83]

I’m starting my 297th Kratom taper today.
Wish me luck! This one’s the one! I can feel it!

Does Kratom have any benefits or is it something to avoid? I watched the Netflix doc. and it seems interesting. Tobacco shop near me has a whole bunch of capsule bottles next to the CBD oil which I really like...So it’s tempting to try it...

 

[Wobmarvel]

It’s funny, when I called the dude out over it in the first place he tried claiming she threw herself at him (even though she was on the rag which I of course knew all too well...) but she literally said, “Got something for me?” Which was asking about some weed the dude was supposed to get which was why he was even there, to sell it to us. And it wasn’t the first time he was asked. Yeah, idiot. Just because she’s a woman doesn’t mean every vague question is a sexual advance. Generally it means that she’s still asking about the same drug errand as the last two times she asked in as many hours.

Trust me, when my wife makes a sexual advance it’s pretty physical. She asked a question about weed, dude walked away without answering so she followed him and then he made a move, she stopped him, went inside, told me etc etc the whole thing lasted 20 seconds from the time she left our door to the time she came back to tell me he tried to make a move out in the yard.

She’s very responsive to physical contact so he got pretty far before she had a chance to make him stop. Take her by surprise with a kiss, pull your dick out, put her hand on it, lay her down, tug at her pants all in under five seconds and then she says...

“I’m wearing pants and a tampon”

She’s so cute. she actually said “I’m wearing pants and a tampon” to stop him, so he did and then called her a bitch.

As if pants would have stopped anything. Pants. “I’m wearing pants and a tampon.” Amazing self defense skills this woman....

Luckily, she wears athletic pants with the drawstrings tied tightly and tucked in. Those pants were never coming off for anyone but her. And she was not at all a willing participant. So, tell your wives to tie their pants. It could save their ass, literally. Saved my wife’s. She’s very petite (5’7” 105lbs) and pretty much extremely defenseless and rapeable.

But, you know, I was also about to walk out there when it all stopped, so, you know, had it gone literally one second further I’d have caught it and totally fucked up his brain case for life. He actually ran away as I opened the door and she was telling me what just happened in the less than 20 seconds she had been gone. I mean it was seriously fast. Scary fast really. I guess he didn’t know I was home, and really really didn’t know I was coming outside pretty much right after her.

This stuff is just mental... I spent yesterday morning going with my five year olds nursery class to a park to have a go on the swings and see some animals.

I think your life is more likely to get made into a movie lol.

 

[hairygrandpa]

This stuff is just mental... I spent yesterday morning going with my five year olds nursery class to a park to have a go on the swings and see some animals.

I think your life is more likely to get made into a movie lol.

I agree. I mean, I had my fair share in life....maybe worthy of a a short novel -or two. But THAT, is a bit out of my league.

 

[Old Witch]

Well, I considered something like that....way,I mean WAY over the threshold of info...

No. It was the perfect amount of information.

 

[Old Witch]

Today is arm day all day. Gonna dig a ditch.

Last night was apparently not sleep night.

So I’ll need a grave to lie down in soon.

Meals are protein shakes with water, timed Gatorade with coconut oil and olive oil.

And Metamucil.

That’s all I can stomach at this point. So I’m just chugging shakes all day.

Gotta be responsible and hit my macros.

My wife says she might let us sleep today. I think she’s punishing me for joining in her vice.

The last time we slept was Monday night. It’s saturday. How time flies when you’re having fun.

 

[Jeremyk1]

This stuff is just mental... I spent yesterday morning going with my five year olds nursery class to a park to have a go on the swings and see some animals.

I think your life is more likely to get made into a movie lol.

At least you’re still... swinging...

 

[CroLifter]

Today is arm day all day. Gonna dig a ditch.

Last night was apparently not sleep night.

So I’ll need a grave to lie down in soon.

Meals are protein shakes with water, timed Gatorade with coconut oil and olive oil.

And Metamucil.

That’s all I can stomach at this point. So I’m just chugging shakes all day.

Gotta be responsible and hit my macros.

My wife says she might let us sleep today. I think she’s punishing me for joining in her vice.

The last time we slept was Monday night. It’s saturday. How time flies when you’re having fun.

As soon as I read the first two sentences in this post i absolutely knew that the word "grave" was coming next, without even glancing. Srs.

 

[Old Witch]

On the plus side, I got a chemical burn in my eye this morning.

My wife is seriously reconsidering her own usage let alone my joining in from time to time.

 

[hairygrandpa]

On the plus side, I got a chemical burn in my eye this morning.

My wife is seriously reconsidering her own usage let alone my joining in from time to time.

Its called "anal-lube" for a reason -not "eye-lube".

 

[DaveyCrockett]

Glad you and the Mrs are doing good.

Its called "anal-lube" for a reason -not "eye-lube".

wrong browneye

 

[Old Witch]

Binge is over. Crashed together good last night. She’s still crashed. I can tell it’s gonna be a hard one. She probably won’t wake up until midnight or maybe even tomorrow morning.

I’m awake and super depressed, of course. Obviously I know why. That’s a side effect of coming off after five days on. And I want to be with her but can’t. She’d let me bang her in her sleep (and she would be glad that I did) but I’m feeling more sentimental than that.

It’s going to be a long long time before I do that **** again. If ever. It was fun at first, then, not so fun. Just like last time, sixteen years ago. Except the drug is different now. No euphoria, way too much energy. Huge emotional instability, for me. I had to keep myself grounded using her as my rock. When I see her I’m just happy and everything is perfect.

I’m glad I did it though. It showed me a lot of what I was doing wrong in my life up to then. I’ve already begun turning that around. I was a lazy stoner bodybuilder... I want to be a functional adult.

I almost ruined my entire life, then through a week long drug binge was able to fully grasp and deal with everything that had happened up to that point.

I had been an asshole for a long time, and neglected my family for my own pleasures, then I started ignoring my wife to browse Facebook, then I quit Facebook and it was this forum taking my time up. Now I’m only using my tablet when she’s gone or asleep and she’s no longer thinking of leaving.

I almost don’t want to keep using steroids. The idea seems crazy to me now.

But that’s just drug withdrawal induced depression talking.

I just want my family. Life is perfect, except for the parts that are my responsibility. I’m changing that.

 

[Old Witch]

I think I’m going to take a nap. I did some cleaning up around the house and she’s crashed. I never like being awake if she isn’t. She’s sort of my everything. And since I’m depressed, it seems like I should just go with it.

 

[Old Witch]

Showered and refreshed. She’s definitely gonna be sleeping til morning. She’s done as long as 36 hours in bed sleeping.

She hasnt been at it like this very long. Two months maybe three.

I didn’t actually realize how much she smoked daily til I joined in.

I don’t know when she started using it every day, she built up to it. but I know when she asked me if she could own a pipe for it. I wish I hadn’t let her. She’s very strong willed, used to only do it once or twice a year if it was around and free. Now it’s around and free all day long. Give somebody a ride to the store and they toss you a little bag of it. Let them use your phone, little shard of it... pack of cigs for a little bag ...

Whatever happened to weed? Doesn’t anybody smoke weed anymore?

By the way, that whole binge was a blur. I don’t remember half of what happened.

 

[Old Witch]

I literally have nobody to talk to right now. Kids are in bed. Waiting for my training partner to come over.

Yeah, didn’t you guys forget we have three kids? You did.

That’s why I have to fix this. That’s why I did this. To fix it.

 

[SkRaw85]

Showered and refreshed. She’s definitely gonna be sleeping til morning. She’s done as long as 36 hours in bed sleeping.

She hasnt been at it like this very long. Two months maybe three.

I didn’t actually realize how much she smoked daily til I joined in.

I don’t know when she started using it every day, she built up to it. but I know when she asked me if she could own a pipe for it. I wish I hadn’t let her. She’s very strong willed, used to only do it once or twice a year if it was around and free. Now it’s around and free all day long. Give somebody a ride to the store and they toss you a little bag of it. Let them use your phone, little shard of it... pack of cigs for a little bag ...

Whatever happened to weed? Doesn’t anybody smoke weed anymore?

By the way, that whole binge was a blur. I don’t remember half of what happened.

Yes... and I think you should be smoking a ton of weed right now and sleeping to match. Go easy man, save reflection for when you wake up.

 

[Old Witch]

I’m rested and weeded. I know what I need to do. This is not going to be an easy road.

 

[Old Witch]

Been cleaning up the house for awhile now. Maybe when she gets up she won’t feel like there’s so much to do today and she won’t want to use it today. Maybe.

I put way too much pressure on her to do everything in our life together and I did very little to help.

I was no partner to her. That’s why she felt she needed this.

 

[Old Witch]

Well. She quit.

For now.


Giant piles of food tonight. I’m starving. Been starving. Had to taper up the diet after crashing my metabolism last week.

On the bright side I lost 3” off my waist in five days.

I’m back to a 31.

 

[jrock645]

31, nice!

 

[Old Witch]

So... after last week my usual evening 5mg dextroamphetamine dose basically does nothing. Which sucks because that was a good source of monster libido and energy.

So... uh... I had to upgrade a little anyway.

Oh well. If you can’t beat em...


Training is becoming interesting. Hopefully I don’t Rich Piana myself.

 

[Old Witch]

I’m going to be really lean and muscular very soon now with this rocket fuel.

Hopefully the steroids are staving off muscle loss. Seems to be. Arms are same size after glycogen reloading, waist got smaller.

 

[Old Witch]

So this is a bit of a new life experience. Never used anythingstronger than addys and Vys for a boost. Crystal was always just meant as a fun time. Not really a tool for me.

But I did it to myself so... after taking about 45mg of vyvanse yesterday and nodding off to sleep in the middle of a blowjob. And later while masturbating... I pretty much knew my brain needed the stronger brew now.

Training is awesome though. The ergogenic power when mixed with steroids is unreal. I’m hitting 8 reps with 3 rep weight.

 

[Old Witch]

Also, the cycle as it stands now is test only 900mg/wk with anastrozole 0.25 mg on pin day (MWF). Working good so far. Dick works great now.