Bro I just barely took 0.2mg liquid Prami last night.
I need to be using that every time I ****. especially since I run 19nors year round. It was high level porn quality. I’m 10x more interested in getting her off in her ass, getting her squirting, cumming over and over, giving way more head. Way more filth, and I’m rock hard, doesn’t subside for anything. Nothing beats 10mg cialis 1/4 milligram Prami. Rock star
Dude... it’s so weird... I want and don’t want all at once. I more want to want, really. Like I just want to cum, which I can barely do at this point. But I want to get freaky too.. but I kind of don’t... but I know she wants me to do things I haven’t done in a long time... and I want to but only sort of. It’s like, the interest is only half there, and the half that’s there is only there because I think it ought to be.
I know that if I went and picked up some 20 year old I’d rip her in half and be glad to do it... but I’m having some trouble getting in that mood for my wife, even though I want to be in that mood for her. And then she’s asexual half the time so usually she’s not even receptive to it anyway.
It’s literally only right around her cycle that she gets massively horny and cock obsessed, and we get pretty crazy. This time around she’s especially horny and I’m especially wanting to be with her vs another woman but my GODDAMN COCK DOESNT WORK RIGHT.
I’m on 20mg cialis right now, I took 100mg proviron today, and even smoked meth.. and I still can’t cum with a hard dick.
It’s total Deca dick, and just like when I was in high school before ever trying gear. It’s hard, gets going, about to bust, it goes limp and numb and I lose my fucking mind.
Once I hit about 25 or 26 that had stopped, and instead I just came way too fast for my liking. Five minutes of sex and I’d bust, but I’d stay hard so round two or three could happen. What sucked is we were going through a lot of trouble and her sex drive was basically gone so those extra rounds didn’t happen. Instead I’d wait a month for my once-only sex and it would last less than five minutes and I’d be left wishing for a longer time.
Then last year, I got back on prohormones etc and that sort of became reality, I could bust whenever I wanted or hold it forever if I wanted.
Then, I started taking the mk677 and DHB. It immediately ruined my ability to orgasm and it has not come back except for a short two day span where I had a perfect estrogen level.
No matter how I time my Adex or don’t even use it, same results. It’s got to be prolactin and testicular atrophy together playing a role.
So to help at least a little, I’m dropping literally everything that fucks with it and raising the doses on everything that makes it work.
Until I get some prami or caber.
At this point I’m trying to get my wife to understand why a monogamous relationship is just probably better overall, since the sex between us is always better than sex with others involved anyway...
To her sex is just a thing you do for fun. And I’m mostly the same. But we’re not so young anymore anyway and I actually do care what people think of us now. And it’s (promiscuity) just not something I’ve wanted anymore for a long time, and she never wanted it at all really.
Trying to explain to a woman that it doesn’t matter what the actual agreements and reasons are, that basically any guy who sees her as available will see me as inferior, is like pulling teeth. She understands the concept. Just doesn’t understand why that is the case, and thinks it’s a stupid sentiment.
But, she also always portrays herself as monogamous around my friends, so she must understand at least somewhat. To my buddies I’m the only one who can go and do whatever I want. In reality we both could, she just rarely ever wanted.
Hard to explain but suffice it to say that we both want to be exclusively monogamous, but we also both would have a hard time refusing someone attractive who made a move, and she doesn’t trust herself as much as I trust myself. So we’re just discussing all of that and such, reasons, feelings, worries, etc.
Like I said though, I need some hcg and some prolactin antagonist / dopamine receptor agonist. Really bad.
Even with a dick that barely works I **** like a comic book hero. Totally unstoppable. I don’t care if I can’t feel it as long as I know she can.
So it goes without saying that I proved to her already that I can devour her just like I used to. I’d just like to be able to cum too. She likes that.