Brother you are doing everything right. Give the diet a chance. You should start seeing some sort of results in the next week or two.
Gluten free diet is tuff. Especially finding all the proper food to be able to eat.
I can do gluten-free if that's what I legitimately need to do. I honestly don't have a problem with that. What is hard for me is just doing it based on the assumption that it's highly likely I have a gluten intolerance/allergy, but not knowing
for sure. I don't put a lot of faith into those type of things, anymore, because I've seen so many things medically that I've felt 100% were what was wrong with me turn out to not be the case (reverse T3, sleep apnea, etc.).
Is gluten intolerance tied to all of this? Maybe; maybe not. What I feel right now, though, is that there is a tumor somewhere in my body that is creating excess cortisol and excess prolactin, both of which are hindering any type of positive movement forward. I believe strongly about the cortisol issue as the oversaturation of the body with cortisol would explain the downregulation of thyroid receptors and the reason that dosing 100mcg of T3 daily for 10 weeks did nothing to me in terms of weight loss. It explains the numbers looking great, but nothing else happening. It would explain why for over a year that I've been on thyroid hormone of some sort that nothing has changed aside from things getting worse.
Maybe that's all that it is and as soon as it's resolved it will fix things. However, that quote from Chris Kesser about an unhealthy gut being able to derive more calories from the same meal in comparison to a healthy gut strikes me as very worthwhile. A long time ago, I mentioned to my dad that I wondered if there was some way that what I was eating wasn't actually being digested and was somehow just being dumped into my body as fat stores. I knew how crazy it sounded and I dismissed it, but this would lend some merit to that thought. When I was 15, I went over an entire week without having a bowel movement when I was on vacation (stupid bathroom phobia that started when I was really young). I went an entire weekend on a Chrysalis retreat not much later after that where I did the exact same thing. And neither time it wasn't because I didn't feel like I had to; it was quite the contrary. I just held it because of my weird phobia (which I'm now over, btw). But I always wondered/asked if holding it for long periods like that could cause problems. Everyone always said no. I'm wondering, now.
I'm in a better mood, at the moment (because I'm drinking Focus XT, so I'm tasting candy and getting caffeine), but who knows how long that'll last. I'll likely start dosing some tyrosine that I have stashed away in hopes that it will increase dopamine levels and help with the feelings as well as combat the prolactin a bit until my doctor sees me. You better believe I'll be there Monday with my letter, asking him to just sign off on the scan. A friend of mine mentioned a pet-scan (could be spelling that wrong), and I'm honestly more inclined to want that, now, in case it's not in the abdominal and it's in the chest or on my thyroid. I know I've got a sharp pain in my abdomen when I bend over, though.
Being fat sucks. lol
I laugh about it, but it seriously just tears me up inside. I just remembered, today, thinking back about my thoughts on getting married. I had a discussion where I said a vow my wife and I would have for each other is never to get fat or out of shape; that it would be a grounds not necessarily for divorce, but it was important enough that neither of us would do it. I said that I'd never let myself go or get fat, so she would have to do the same for me, because that's what I needed from a wife. Now, here I am...fat. Now don't read into that as me saying if my wife had a medical condition like mine that I'd want a divorce; no chance. I won't marry a woman until I know I'd love her with every ounce of me and that we were meant for each other. But if she just got lazy and let herself go, I'd be angry and hurt. But I wouldn't expect anyone to accept me for this, either. Physical bodies aren't everything; I won't date a woman unless she has the values I want, but even if she has them, I wouldn't date her if I weren't attracted to her -- and I'm attracted to a woman in shape. It stems deeper than that, though. Being in shape gives off the image that you care about yourself and that you enjoy things that are part of a healthy life in all aspects -- I'm attracted to that. I need someone who has a healthy relationship with Christ (soul), a healthy relationship toward learning and knowledge (mind) and a healthy relationship with fitness and nutrition (body). Even though I have those same things right now, you wouldn't know it or think it when looking at me. I'm not thinking less of myself, but I'm being realistic in that I wouldn't expect someone who I'm attracted to, to be attracted to me in my current condition.
That just went sideways from what I intended this post for, but apparently it was on my mind and needed said.
good luck with your doctors visit. Did you do a body detox.
