I went to my doc last week for my "yearly" physical (last one was 5 years ago). What brought me in was I had ADD as a kid and wanted to talk about getting meds. Lately I have a major lack of focus, concentration, memory loss etc. (been off the add meds for at least 15 years. Also haven't been able to sleep for more than 3-4 hours a night. my libido has completely disappeared. I have no desire for sex at all which I contributed to the lack of sleep. Also been borderline depressed, have no motivation at home or work and extreme fatigue where no amount of caffeine + ephedrine help. My work performance is way down and I been calling off sick and taking extra days off. Short tempered and irritable even with my children (ages 2 and 4). I figured this was all just part of winter blues, working night shift for the past 10 years and I just finished up a pretty hefty cut. Brought my cals up and up'd my fat but doubt that can help my test levels much. My primary doc blames caffeine and said my levels are fine then gave me Vyvanse for ADD. I felt great on the legal speed for 3 days but now I feel nothing and I'm back to blah. Going to see the TRT doc tomorrow. I feel like the TRT doc is just gonna think I'm some gym rat seeking legal roids. I never even touched a PH. I feel like **** 24/7 and just wanna get back to normal. What can I expect from the TRT doc? Can my the weight loss be to blame for the test levels? or over training? I'm freaking lost and just wanna get back to normal...