Kat, you are a brave woman, a brave human being. Do not feel like you have failed, that's why this is called a journey. Sometimes we take detours in life, sometimes we go off track, but we always know we'll get there eventually.
This "health" journey, "weight loss" journey has got to be one of the most mind fuvking experience anyone will ever experience. Do I regret it? Every single effn day. Do I despise it? Every fcuking day. But do I believe in myself to give it one more try? Every damn freaking day.
When we were at our smallest, we were not happy. We picked at every single flaw we saw, comparing ourselves to everyone. I can tell you, I am heavier now, but my heart, mind, and soul are finally in synced with each other. I am finally at peace.
I use to say this all the effn time.. "Some day, someone will love everything I HATE about myself." That someone was me... I no longer hate myself, and I love everything about myself because i am no longer a prisoner to my thoughts.
This is not to say that I am still not a work in progress, I just don't hate my body any more.
Stay strong, Kat. This is a never ending struggle but you don't have to fight each battle. Love your body a little more every day... You got this!

love you!