Just wanted to touch base here and give you an update:
Saturday I was at home cleaning up and I got a phone call from a woman, and she invited me to come over and stay the night (booty call..), so I drove over an hour to get there (1.5 hrs..). Mind you I am very vulnerable I realized in the biggest way Saturday i.e. dont want to be alone and am craving affection, nothing quite like a womans touch you know..
On the way I was just feeling conflicted inside, and I remember one of the members here, maybe Dr.D saying to use this time to get close to God, and it was echoing in my mind during the drive..
So as I get into town, and am around 15 minutes away I got a phone call from a friend of mine and she asked me if I wanted to go to the movies to see Avatar, it was safe, non-fornicating, good ol fashion hanging out clean fun, so I drove back home another 1.5 hrs through the mountains all foggy and sometimes I could not see anything. I prayed that God bring me home safely!!
My friend who I will call Kay came over my place and we had tea together and talked about life and laughed a lot, she was here for close to 2 hours at my house, and we went to the movies for another 3 hours (2 hrs 45 minutes).
What a blessing in disguise that whole situation was!!
I am thankful to God for using my friend in such a way to bring back home, and I thank God for delivering me from evil, even though it was such a HUGE temptation.
All in all I will be having Christmas dinner at Kays family's house, and New years for sure.
She is a really good friend indeed its strictly platonic even though she is the most gorgeous woman I have laid eyes on, has a head on her shoulders, has ambition and drive, BUT unfortunately she is also my ex's good friend.. :-/
I just wanted to share this with you all, and letting you know it is a daily battle for me as I am still torn up inside emotionally and picking up the pieces of my life.
God Bless you all for your prayers and support. I pray for you all nightly, and if I cant remember you all by name I let God know its the brothers and sisters on the forum.. He knows who I am talking about

MK9