Sounds tough but the hardest part of coming back from something like that is taking the first steps and you're 40lbs down which is a great accomplishment so you're well on the way there. Little steps at a time and you'll be fine
I think Im going to stop tracking after summer and just make sure Im getting in enough protein. If I can be more intuitive with it I think that would be better for me.
It really has helped me a lot. I did it that way for years before the accident and I had gotten better results by not keeping up with exact numbers. I'm not saying that is the best method for everyone, but for me, I think I was overthinking it and stressing it too much, and I was sticking to a plan rather than listening to my body. Plus, I was depriving myself to where when I would screw up, I would really screw up if that makes sense.
Now, I'm going for eating better, eating small meals throughout the day and making sure I get enough protein, but not overthinking it and if my body says eat, I eat. I think that listening to my body, at least for me personally based on my own experience, is going to be a key for me trying to get back in shape.
I know I could likely maybe do better being super strict, but I also know I'm also more likely to get discouraged and just fall off and say screw it and eat like crap for extended periods because of being mad at myself for messing up at all - whereas now, if I screw up, its like - oh well, I'll get back to it tomorrow.
Like funny story about today - I cannot eat fast food because I'm allergic to soy protein and gluten, but the gluten allergy didn't come on until 2011 so could eat it for all my life until then. I hated McDonalds but I loved the characters they had when I was a kid - and I'm still a big kid at heart. Grimace, the big purple character, I have liked since I was a kid and collect Grimace things with him on there - and yesterday was his birthday and McDonald's did a special Grimace milkshake. It used to be that I would have not let myself get one, then wound up obsessing about it and thinking about it - whereas now, I'm like screw it, I sent my graphic artist who wanted try one across town to pick some up. She spilled out half of it on the way back unfortunately; I helped her clean her floorboard out, tried it and it is awesome, like a blueberry vanilla flavor - so screw it, she's on the way back across town now to buy me another one haha. That's an example of something I used to would either have not let myself try and obsessed over it or would have tried and beat myself up over it - whereas now, I'm like screw it, I'll drink it post workout later with my protein shake and not worry about it. That mindset may not help physical appearance, but it definitely helps me stick with it mentally.
And btw.... if you like blueberry or mixed berry, not trying to jack your or anyone else's diet up, but it was pretty fantastic haha.