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Sorry for disappearing on everyone, it just got to be a negative feedback loop. Being too depressed to really do what is needed, then having to explain why I wasn't doing what I needed to do in order to reach my goals was just making me more ashamed that I wasn't doing what was needed. So it was just creating a cycle that kept making me feel worse. It is hard to have the humility as a man to just say this is just too much for me right now. So rather than doing that, I fell into isolating myself.
As someone that has struggled with depression most of my life, and even moreso in the last 5 years, I can definitely relate to what you wrote here so much. I'm like that with so many aspects of life - I'll know I need to do something, be too depressed to do it, then get mad at myself for not doing it which activates the anxiety, then its a crippling combination of depression and anxiety and can't focus on anything or get anything done at all, so the cycle repeats.
I do a lot of volunteer work in my personal life, and a big part of that is with people that have mental health struggles, and you're absolutely right, its hard for a lot of people to be able to admit to others, or even to themselves that sometimes things are just too much and they need help - whether that help is a break, counseling, just being able to open up, or whatever helps.