I'll say this, you've come a long way from where you started, I don't know your weight but you were clearly way bigger at one point, a huge weight loss, don't let anyone take that away from you.
I joined this site I believe at the same time as you, although I wasn't new to gear I did a cycle next to yours and I still remember I used to talk and check up on you how yours went, I was just on test and a little winstrol while you did anadrol, var and test. You're the one I remember mostly from the time I joined. Not only did you lose a lot of weight but you were in wars risking your life and that's not something most people can say. I like to see myself as a nice person or as
hairygrandpa once called me *the voice of reasoning*, (not sure about that) but I do try to be. A reasonable person that wants the best for people and comes to a conclusion without offending the person.
I would have taken a different approach then what happened today or I would stay out of it which is the nice way to go but not always the reasonable.
I think you are a little delusional and not because you're stupid but because you refuse to acknowledge the problem. I don't have any problem with you working out and going your own way but I think when steroids are involved it's imperative to make the best out of it. You have a protocol that you made yourself with macros and I'm a firm believer not everything works for everyone but you're not following your own protocol. You're supposed to have high fat low carb but you end up eating more carbs and less protein.
So even if your protocol works you're not following it.
I think we're all here together and we try to help eachother. I don't agree or like how this whole thing played out but I also don't want to see you go backwards especially when you spend money and arguably risk your health on gear.
I'm not gonna sit and tell you how you should look to be happy, nobody should and if they do **** them. What I do think is that you want to see a change and make the best out of it to get the best results for YOU!. I'm not gonna speak for others here but I'm really rooting for you and you shouldn't feel bad about critique and I'm positive that after all you've been through you can do this.
Lastly I wanna say that I made a post earlier that I respect everyone here and I really do like a lot of people but I never came here to make friends. You don't have to like everyone and if this post is in any way offensive feel free to tell me. Even people you don't like may give good criticism.
Sometimes I tell my fiance I added fat because her family tends to feed me a bit too much, she always says no! You look good. I know she'd never tell me anything else and to be honest, i do eat too clean (I'm boring to hang with). I believe you when you say the pictures aren't completely fair, and I do see that you've gotten a bit leaner but you can do better and I'm sure most here agree when I say we're in this together, that's why you have probably 50 regulars following you.