Hyde’s Strength Odyssey

Smart move, it is always good when you realize your intuition was right.
 
sammpedd88 said:
Yeah lots of orals are hard to find too.
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I hit my guy up to get my next cycle, I like having stuff on hand long enough before I start. But this time he told me what my next cycle is going to be lol. Test, NPP and winstrol it is lol, because that's what's in stock:)
 
Hyde said:
I see them for $50 on Amazon currently, and $30 for knockoffs. I don’t know that I would have bought one, but my wife did, so I use that over laying on something like the points of a hex db or a lacrosse ball (whenever I do use it, which is rare).
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having been married the 2 times, I have never bought any of these gadgets or a foam roller or lacrosse ball, yet Ive always been surrounded by them and had them available to use lol. I buy chalk and preWO, she buys foam rollers and yoga pants 😂
 
10/31/25
BW 238.2

3 min Assault Bike
McCleod Flyes
DB Incline

Widegrip Bench, Texas powerbar
45x10,5,12
95,135x15
170 2x25

SSB JM Press
65x8
155,175x10

Cable Vbar Tri Pressdown
50x8
80,100x3
120 2x10

Cable Curl
30x10
50 2x8

Feeling a bit tight & creaky this morning; lots of sore muscles & glycogen is lower, so just some high-rep Widegrip and heavy arms to get something useful in. Going to start the weekend carb up tonight, a day early, to accommodate family holiday ventures. My son seems very excited to share his candy with me ☺️

Happy Halloween AM! 🎃
 
Hyde said:
10/31/25
BW 238.2

3 min Assault Bike
McCleod Flyes
DB Incline

Widegrip Bench, Texas powerbar
45x10,5,12
95,135x15
170 2x25

SSB JM Press
65x8
155,175x10

Cable Vbar Tri Pressdown
50x8
80,100x3
120 2x10

Cable Curl
30x10
50 2x8

Feeling a bit tight & creaky this morning; lots of sore muscles & glycogen is lower, so just some high-rep Widegrip and heavy arms to get something useful in. Going to start the weekend carb up tonight, a day early, to accommodate family holiday ventures. My son seems very excited to share his candy with me ☺️

Happy Halloween AM! 🎃
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Enjoy that candy….show the little guy how it’s done.😎👍
 
Hyde said:
10/31/25
BW 238.2

3 min Assault Bike
McCleod Flyes
DB Incline

Widegrip Bench, Texas powerbar
45x10,5,12
95,135x15
170 2x25

SSB JM Press
65x8
155,175x10

Cable Vbar Tri Pressdown
50x8
80,100x3
120 2x10

Cable Curl
30x10
50 2x8

Feeling a bit tight & creaky this morning; lots of sore muscles & glycogen is lower, so just some high-rep Widegrip and heavy arms to get something useful in. Going to start the weekend carb up tonight, a day early, to accommodate family holiday ventures. My son seems very excited to share his candy with me ☺️

Happy Halloween AM! 🎃
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Looks like a good session! I don’t know if you are getting this cold front your way yet but the drop in temps had me feeling tight and creaky.


Happy Halloween hope it’s a blast for you and the family !! 🎃
 
Hyde said:
Boy I tell you what fellas, my hams were tight getting out of bed this morning! I had considered pulling a hard set of deficit deads after my regular work set, but I knew I’d cashed my paycheck & felt like I’d be beating a dead horse. Glad to get feedback this morning I was right not to add more.

The best dose is the right dose for you!
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Strained my right hamstring on Saturday at a charity football game, and now I’m hobbling around, so can’t say enough about how important that self-regulation is.
 
11/02/25

Foam Roll IT Bands
Scap Pushups
Cat Camel
Bird Dogs
Reverse Arm Circles
SL Glute Bridges
Band Pullaparts
RFE SS

Squat, Texas Squatbar
55x6
165,275,385x3
+Belt
430x3
468,501x1
435x8

Hacksquat
+heels & deadlift belt
110,220x3
310,330x10

Calf Raises on Hacksquat
310 2x10

Plate-loaded Leg Extensions
45,70,90x3
105,115x15

DB Walking Lunges
BWx8
30x8,12

Halloween went great, and getting all the pizza and candy a day early helped me be truly topped off for legs this week. Stronger on everything, and I was excited to find lunges felt definitively better than last time - very little pain. Great early morning training session.
 
Hyde said:
11/02/25

Foam Roll IT Bands
Scap Pushups
Cat Camel
Bird Dogs
Reverse Arm Circles
SL Glute Bridges
Band Pullaparts
RFE SS

Squat, Texas Squatbar
55x6
165,275,385x3
+Belt
430x3
468,501x1
435x8

Hacksquat
+heels & deadlift belt
110,220x3
310,330x10

Calf Raises on Hacksquat
310 2x10

Plate-loaded Leg Extensions
45,70,90x3
105,115x15

DB Walking Lunges
BWx8
30x8,12

Halloween went great, and getting all the pizza and candy a day early helped me be truly topped off for legs this week. Stronger on everything, and I was excited to find lunges felt definitively better than last time - very little pain. Great early morning training session.
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Really good leg workout…..looks like that candy gave you a little supercharged boost.💪
 
Dustin07 said:
500lbs feeling pretty stable?
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Yeah it was smooth and I stayed in great position; could definitely have jumped up to 529 safely after if I was maxing out.

Got an email saying registration for Powerlifting United Nationals in May ‘26 opened this weekend, and my total in August at 242 was high enough to qualify me to go as either an Untested 242 or 275 (it’s even high enough to enter as a 308 or Superheavy, but obviously I’m not ever gaining that kind of weight intentionally). Not sure how I feel about going, but it’s always nice to be qualified.
 
Hyde said:
Yeah it was smooth and I stayed in great position; could definitely have jumped up to 529 safely after if I was maxing out.

Got an email saying registration for Powerlifting United Nationals in May ‘26 opened this weekend, and my total in August at 242 was high enough to qualify me to go as either an Untested 242 or 275 (it’s even high enough to enter as a 308 or Superheavy, but obviously I’m not ever gaining that kind of weight intentionally). Not sure how I feel about going, but it’s always nice to be qualified.
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PLU nats will be a fun one! Every PLU event thus far has exceeded any expectations I thought I had. Reffing, MC, vibe, everything!
Would you do a single event if you do register or just yeehaw it for full power?
 
Hyde said:
Yeah it was smooth and I stayed in great position; could definitely have jumped up to 529 safely after if I was maxing out.

Got an email saying registration for Powerlifting United Nationals in May ‘26 opened this weekend, and my total in August at 242 was high enough to qualify me to go as either an Untested 242 or 275 (it’s even high enough to enter as a 308 or Superheavy, but obviously I’m not ever gaining that kind of weight intentionally). Not sure how I feel about going, but it’s always nice to be qualified.
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That’s awesome….you know we’re in your corner if you go.💪😎👍
 
SkRaw85 said:
PLU nats will be a fun one! Every PLU event thus far has exceeded any expectations I thought I had. Reffing, MC, vibe, everything!
Would you do a single event if you do register or just yeehaw it for full power?
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I’m always Full Power, as long as my body allows - I have competed Bench Only and Deadlift Only once each, and both times felt like I was just waiting around all day wishing I could be doing all 3!

Done 3 meets with the American WRPF (PLU now) and they’ve all been great, same as the USPA always was in the Midwest, prior to a bunch of the promoters migrating to WRPF. Honestly, probably better, as the technology has improved over time - using Lifting Cast makes organizing all the lifter info really accessible and easy to read/follow. “Back in my day, you were lucky if the white & red lights worked at a meet.”
 
11/4/25
BW 241.6 postWO

2 min Assault Bike
Scap Pushups
Cat Camel
Bird Dogs
Band Warmup
Incline DB

Bench, Texas Powerbar
135x5
185x4
225,255x3
270x3,6,7

CG 3-Board
255x9

CG 2-Board
255x9

Very Low Incline DB Bench
70,90x6
100x15

DB Flies
45x10 slowww

KB Waiter’s Carries
18x1 trip/side to fail

Working on setting up closer to the rack so my self-unrack isn’t as dogshit. Still not fully staying in ideal shoulder position, but better than last week. I get to bump everything 5lbs next week; overall a pretty good day.

Added 100mg EQ yesterday atop my 300 test. Nothing wild, but it’s been 10 weeks since the meet - time to creep doses up to aid some off-season growth.
 
Hyde said:
Got an email saying registration for Powerlifting United Nationals in May ‘26 opened this weekend, and my total in August at 242 was high enough to qualify me to go as either an Untested 242 or 275 (it’s even high enough to enter as a 308 or Superheavy, but obviously I’m not ever gaining that kind of weight intentionally). Not sure how I feel about going, but it’s always nice to be qualified.
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thats awesome due, what was your weight at 405 last time, like 272? and you made that run in about 2 months, I wonder where you could get your bench to by May...
 
Dustin07 said:
thats awesome due, what was your weight at 405 last time, like 272? and you made that run in about 2 months, I wonder where you could get your bench to by May...
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Yeah 272lbs on the morning of 405, 270 that week. Took me 5.5 weeks to rebound, coming off a low point of 243 that was 6 weeks after benching 396 in comp weighing in 268.

It hasn’t been going well this entire year thanks to shoulder and pec issues; it’s pretty bad for ~240lbs for me. Can probably bench 325 any given day based on numbers. But squat and deads are very solid right now, & honestly that’s way more important for a PR total.
 
but even injuries aside it does sorta match what you've always told me about weight gain having the greatest carry over to bench of the three lifts. I'm always shocked when I see dudes who say they're repping 315 at like 160lbs bw and their ankles look like they'd snap under a 315 squat. They could be lying but I've just seen so many smaller guys claim to have these big 3 wheel+ benches.
 
Dustin07 said:
but even injuries aside it does sorta match what you've always told me about weight gain having the greatest carry over to bench of the three lifts. I'm always shocked when I see dudes who say they're repping 315 at like 160lbs bw and their ankles look like they'd snap under a 315 squat. They could be lying but I've just seen so many smaller guys claim to have these big 3 wheel+ benches.
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Well you have to remember I have longer arms and leverage matters immensely - if I had particularly short arms, I’d be a 455 bencher and 585 deadlifter, instead of 405/630 bests. The Push/Pull total is a pretty good metric for overall strength because of that inverse relationship.

And it’s pretty well-established that bench-only guys are often a full weightclass lighter than their Full Powerlifting counterparts, because they don’t carry the same amount of lower body & core muscle relative to their upper mass. Most train their legs to varying degrees, but there’s just a discrepancy in total mass compared to someone squatting & pulling heavy often. So if you get a lean little 165 guy with short arms, a big arch, and disproportionate development in his upper body vs legs (which is standard for gym bros anyway), it’s very plausible to be outbenching a more moderately leveraged & height 198lb guy.

But if that 165 gains a bunch of weight, he will get even stronger.
 
11/5/25
BW 238.6

BB RDLs
Glute Bridges

Deadlift, Texas powerbar
155x5
265,287,331,375x3
+belt
424x3
469x3,9

GM, Giant Cambered Bar
85,195x3
327,338x8

Plate-loaded Lying Leg Curl
45,90x3
125 2x10

Lat Pulldown
60x12
120x8
180x3
200 2x10

HS CSR
180,270x3
330x10,8

Deadlift is starting to take off! I think I might have cracked my code for what I need to drive progress with it right now: low total volume AND lower %1RM, but taken to a high intensity. Then backfill volume with some additional hinge work.

6 more lbs, 1 more rep, and decidedly easier than last week! Snagged a bottle of Amentoflavone on a clearance sale last week, so I put 40mg in preWO today. This stuff always made me acutely stronger when I used it over a decade ago in Komodo Katana, and it sure didn’t disappoint tonight! Felt stronger on everything, but it’s not only that - it’s like your muscles just contract harder.
 

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Hyde said:
11/5/25
BW 238.6

BB RDLs
Glute Bridges

Deadlift, Texas powerbar
155x5
265,287,331,375x3
+belt
424x3
469x3,9

GM, Giant Cambered Bar
85,195x3
327,338x8

Plate-loaded Lying Leg Curl
45,90x3
125 2x10

Lat Pulldown
60x12
120x8
180x3
200 2x10

HS CSR
180,270x3
330x10,8

Deadlift is starting to take off! I think I might have cracked my code for what I need to drive progress with it right now: low total volume AND lower %1RM, but taken to a high intensity. Then backfill volume with some additional hinge work.

6 more lbs, 1 more rep, and decidedly easier than last week! Snagged a bottle of Amentoflavone on a clearance sale last week, so I put 40mg in preWO today. This stuff always made me acutely stronger when I used it over a decade ago in Komodo Katana, and it sure didn’t disappoint tonight! Felt stronger on everything, but it’s not only that - it’s like your muscles just contract harder.
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Man, now that’s some pulls….469 x 9 at 238 BW, impressive. That already equates to over 600 or at least in that neighborhood. I think your body’s gonna convince you to do that meet, as strong as you’re already sitting at. You may be setting PRs all around leading up to it.😎
 
gphagan1 said:
Man, now that’s some pulls….469 x 9 at 238 BW, impressive. That already equates to over 600 or at least in that neighborhood. I think your body’s gonna convince you to do that meet, as strong as you’re already sitting at. You may be setting PRs all around leading up to it.😎
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Well that Nationals is 6 months away, so I’m not looking that far out right now. Just focusing on training week to week at the moment, hopefully adding some strength and size slowly & sustainably. I want to keep my HDL up for a while & make the food and training drive the progress with minimal PED use. Then when the base is big enough, step on the gas to reach new heights. But I need a bigger foundation of strength first.
 
SkRaw85 said:
Man that’s also some hefty GMs. Especially on the giant swingy bar!
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I definitely don’t let it swing out all the way; I moreso use it for comfort & because it forces me to ensure my lats stay locked into my brace hard. If you don’t, it will come forward and penalize you big time. If I stay locked in, it feels a lot like an RDL as far as leverage and how the hamstring tensions.
 
Wife pulled 355 today; heaviest deadlift she’s done since the Arnold in 2020, nearly a year before my son was born. 15 days out from World’s!

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she is also not a large woman, I don't know what she's weighing now but I feel like you said she weighed in around 165 or something previously. I've seen very few, maybe zero, women pull that much IRL regardless of weight. I think TOP female crossfit games competitors are around that, with avgs being 330 to a very very best of 425. Long story short > your wife is like... seemingly elite strong for female standards?
 
Dustin07 said:
she is also not a large woman, I don't know what she's weighing now but I feel like you said she weighed in around 165 or something previously. I've seen very few, maybe zero, women pull that much IRL regardless of weight. I think TOP female crossfit games competitors are around that, with avgs being 330 to a very very best of 425. Long story short > your wife is like... seemingly elite strong for female standards?
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She weighed 155.8lbs upon waking today. I was yelling at her she’s gotta up the calories. When she competes as an open pro like the last 2 comps she did (America’s Strongest Woman and Masters Nationals) she has to weigh under 140.8, but as a Master at world’s it’s just over/under 160. So she’s too light right now.

Yes, she is objectively elite as a strength athlete. Her static strength is also her greatest weakness really in strongman, especially the deadlift - we just try not to zero the deadlift events. But the things she can do with carries, loading, pressing odd objects, drags are legitimately international elite for her weightclass. She can do weighted chin-ups, climb ropes, and pull trucks, and she’s held an ATWR previously in the circus DB.
 
11/7/25

3 min Assault Bike
Scap Pushups
Cat Camel
Bird Dogs
Band Warmup
Serratus & Rotator Activations
DB Bench

Widegrip Bench, Texas powerbar
45,95,135x15
175,180x25

SSB JM Press
65x8
155x5
205 2x8

Cable Vbar Tri Pressdown
50x8
100x3
130 2x8

Cable Curl
30,40,40x10

Second week in a row I’ve felt terrible on this day after my main movement (Fridays), which is the easiest day of training by far but I just have zero gas left in the tank it seems. I was already planning on switching to carbs permanently to start gaining some weight, but this really cemented the decision. By this last day weekly I am just depleted with no stamina to endure real training, so it’s time to get back to high carb lower fat.
 
Hyde said:
She weighed 155.8lbs upon waking today. I was yelling at her she’s gotta up the calories. When she competes as an open pro like the last 2 comps she did (America’s Strongest Woman and Masters Nationals) she has to weigh under 140.8, but as a Master at world’s it’s just over/under 160. So she’s too light right now.

Yes, she is objectively elite as a strength athlete. Her static strength is also her greatest weakness really in strongman, especially the deadlift - we just try not to zero the deadlift events. But the things she can do with carries, loading, pressing odd objects, drags are legitimately international elite for her weightclass. She can do weighted chin-ups, climb ropes, and pull trucks, and she’s held an ATWR previously in the circus DB.
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I remember when you posted that picture of her circus DB lift, that was crazy. Ha, I actually showed that to guys here at work, and buddies at the gym.💪
 
Hyde said:
She weighed 155.8lbs upon waking today. I was yelling at her she’s gotta up the calories. When she competes as an open pro like the last 2 comps she did (America’s Strongest Woman and Masters Nationals) she has to weigh under 140.8, but as a Master at world’s it’s just over/under 160. So she’s too light right now.
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crazy impressive. I also forgot she's 10 years older than you too, right? she's raising the bar for your own expectations in a decade lol
 
Dustin07 said:
crazy impressive. I also forgot she's 10 years older than you too, right? she's raising the bar for your own expectations in a decade lol
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7 years older, but she has a few years less lifting experience.

I have seen Nick Best do amazing things at 50, so I think it comes down to genetics and grit 🤷‍♂️
 
Some great training, congrats you your lovely wife on her lift. Solid decision bringing carbs back in if hurting your training.
 
Jimbabwe said:
And pharmaceutical enhancement lol
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You know, I don’t really believe that at all anymore. I mean of course you’re going to need HRT+ kind of protocols in the picture to keep recovering enough to maintain any kind of progress in later training years, but…everyone does this, yet they don’t set the records he has or still lifting at the level he does.

There was a good Table Talk with Paul Leonard on where he recounts competing at Junior Nationals against Steve Dennison (now president of the USPA) & Nick Best decades ago. And Paul discussed in depth all his doses later on when he was in law enforcement, how he got around the red tape. And they were like 1,700mg/wk peak doses, enough to be enough for many. But neither he nor Steve are still competing - and they were all putting up very serious numbers even as Juniors.

MrKleen73 said:
Some great training, congrats you your lovely wife on her lift. Solid decision bringing carbs back in if hurting your training.
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Yeah especially if I want to truly grow, having insulin up over the day just makes sense.

But I will say, I finished last meet prep at 245 with some obvious low back fat, and getting down to 238-240 this last 8-9 weeks on the Anabolic Diet they’ve shrunk very significantly. So it seems like the improvement in insulin sensitivity over time really helped strip the fat from the right places. Moreso than the low amount of weightloss would suggest. I can also see my quads and hams better.
 
Hyde said:
You know, I don’t really believe that at all anymore. I mean of course you’re going to need HRT+ kind of protocols in the picture to keep recovering enough to maintain any kind of progress in later training years, but…everyone does this, yet they don’t set the records he has or still lifting at the level he does.

There was a good Table Talk with Paul Leonard on where he recounts competing at Junior Nationals against Steve Dennison (now president of the USPA) & Nick Best decades ago. And Paul discussed in depth all his doses later on when he was in law enforcement, how he got around the red tape. And they were like 1,700mg/wk peak doses, enough to be enough for many. But neither he nor Steve are still competing - and they were all putting up very serious numbers even as Juniors.


Yeah especially if I want to truly grow, having insulin up over the day just makes sense.

But I will say, I finished last meet prep at 245 with some obvious low back fat, and getting down to 238-240 this last 8-9 weeks on the Anabolic Diet they’ve shrunk very significantly. So it seems like the improvement in insulin sensitivity over time really helped strip the fat from the right places. Moreso than the low amount of weightloss would suggest. I can also see my quads and hams better.
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I just mean you don’t get to be Nick Best without it, at any age. There’s also a strong genetic component when it comes to how those top guys respond to that stuff too.

The best bodybuilders, power lifters, strongmen, etc. in the world don’t often use the same doses as some guys I know that will never have a shot at that level of competition, but part of that is just that those top guys respond better to the compounds than other people, so they didn’t ever need as much in the first place for the same results.

Unfortunately, the strongest secret sauce to this stuff is always going to be picking the right parents lol
 
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11/9/25
BW 242.0

3 min Assault Bike
Scap Pushups
Cat Camel
Bird Dogs
Side-Plank Activations
Foam Roll IT Bands
Reverse Arm Circles
Band Pullaparts
SL Glute Bridges

Squat, Duffalobar
55x6,3
165,275,385x3
+Belt
451x3
485,507x1
441x8

Hacksquat
+heels & deadlift belt
110,220x3
340x10
350x12

Calf Raises on Hacksquat
330x10,8

Plate-loaded Leg Extensions
45,90x3
125 2x12

DB Walking Lunges
BWx8
35x8,11

Another great leg day, this one better than last week’s even. Added load to everything and overall felt stronger.
 
Hyde said:
11/9/25
BW 242.0

3 min Assault Bike
Scap Pushups
Cat Camel
Bird Dogs
Side-Plank Activations
Foam Roll IT Bands
Reverse Arm Circles
Band Pullaparts
SL Glute Bridges

Squat, Duffalobar
55x6,3
165,275,385x3
+Belt
451x3
485,507x1
441x8

Hacksquat
+heels & deadlift belt
110,220x3
340x10
350x12

Calf Raises on Hacksquat
330x10,8

Plate-loaded Leg Extensions
45,90x3
125 2x12

DB Walking Lunges
BWx8
35x8,11

Another great leg day, this one better than last week’s even. Added load to everything and overall felt stronger.
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I’m glad everything is holding up physically and you’re making great progress!
 
Took my son to go visit my Dad on Saturday, who’s been in the hospital this last week again recovering from Sepsis (which he developed since he’s been laid up from the blood clot in his leg he was hospitalized with 6 weeks ago). He looked way better, they had him back on regular food, they had stepped him down to the regular hospital floor care, & he was very much with it mentally - it was a really nice visit that we both enjoyed a lot. All signs indicated he was recovering & possibly leaving soon.

Then yesterday getting home from the park with my boy, my sister called saying he had just flatlined from a heart attack. They did CPR to revive him, breaking some ribs, but his BP and O2 were very low. It was his wish not to be put on a ventilator/life support, so I drove back down to meet all my siblings at the ICU to say our goodbyes. He held on long enough to see us all there (I live a couple hours away), before the morphine for his ribs relaxed him into a harsh sleep. He passed 3-4 hours later, with me and my littlest sister present until the end.

He was 3 days away from 76 years old. He had not lived a healthy life by any measure. He had went into congestive heart failure almost 5 years ago from COVID, as well as living with 2 large aortic aneurysms for years that could have burst any time, so it really is remarkable he lived such a long full life. I’m so glad for all he taught me & all the times we shared together, and thankful I have no regrets in our relationship. His #1 priority was his kids, and he died peacefully surrounded by them after sharing that love one last time.
 
Hyde said:
Took my son to go visit my Dad on Saturday, who’s been in the hospital this last week again recovering from Sepsis (which he developed since he’s been laid up from the blood clot in his leg he was hospitalized with 6 weeks ago). He looked way better, they had him back on regular food, they had stepped him down to the regular hospital floor care, & he was very much with it mentally - it was a really nice visit that we both enjoyed a lot. All signs indicated he was recovering & possibly leaving soon.

Then yesterday getting home from the park with my boy, my sister called saying he had just flatlined from a heart attack. They did CPR to revive him, breaking some ribs, but his BP and O2 were very low. It was his wish not to be put on a ventilator/life support, so I drove back down to meet all my siblings at the ICU to say our goodbyes. He held on long enough to see us all there (I live a couple hours away), before the morphine for his ribs relaxed him into a harsh sleep. He passed 3-4 hours later, with me and my littlest sister present until the end.

He was 3 days away from 76 years old. He had not lived a healthy life by any measure. He had went into congestive heart failure almost 5 years ago from COVID, as well as living with 2 large aortic aneurysms for years that could have burst any time, so it really is remarkable he lived such a long full life. I’m so glad for all he taught me & all the times we shared together, and thankful I have no regrets in our relationship. His #1 priority was his kids, and he died peacefully surrounded by them after sharing that love one last time.
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I am so sorry for the loss of your Father. Glad you and your little boy had a good visit before he passed, and that you and your siblings were able to be with him. Will definitely keep you and your family in my prayers.🙏
 
**** dude, I'm sorry to hear about pops and I'm grateful you all had the chance to be there with him in the end. when grandpa or dad go it's a patriarchal promotion you really just don't want but your family is fortunate to have you there to help along the way now. my heart aches for you bro-
 
Hyde said:
Took my son to go visit my Dad on Saturday, who’s been in the hospital this last week again recovering from Sepsis (which he developed since he’s been laid up from the blood clot in his leg he was hospitalized with 6 weeks ago). He looked way better, they had him back on regular food, they had stepped him down to the regular hospital floor care, & he was very much with it mentally - it was a really nice visit that we both enjoyed a lot. All signs indicated he was recovering & possibly leaving soon.

Then yesterday getting home from the park with my boy, my sister called saying he had just flatlined from a heart attack. They did CPR to revive him, breaking some ribs, but his BP and O2 were very low. It was his wish not to be put on a ventilator/life support, so I drove back down to meet all my siblings at the ICU to say our goodbyes. He held on long enough to see us all there (I live a couple hours away), before the morphine for his ribs relaxed him into a harsh sleep. He passed 3-4 hours later, with me and my littlest sister present until the end.

He was 3 days away from 76 years old. He had not lived a healthy life by any measure. He had went into congestive heart failure almost 5 years ago from COVID, as well as living with 2 large aortic aneurysms for years that could have burst any time, so it really is remarkable he lived such a long full life. I’m so glad for all he taught me & all the times we shared together, and thankful I have no regrets in our relationship. His #1 priority was his kids, and he died peacefully surrounded by them after sharing that love one last time.
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I’m so sorry for your loss. The time you got to spend with him being in good spirits and being able to share a conversation, with your son there, will be one of your most cherished memories. Prayers to you and your family.
 
Hyde said:
Took my son to go visit my Dad on Saturday, who’s been in the hospital this last week again recovering from Sepsis (which he developed since he’s been laid up from the blood clot in his leg he was hospitalized with 6 weeks ago). He looked way better, they had him back on regular food, they had stepped him down to the regular hospital floor care, & he was very much with it mentally - it was a really nice visit that we both enjoyed a lot. All signs indicated he was recovering & possibly leaving soon.

Then yesterday getting home from the park with my boy, my sister called saying he had just flatlined from a heart attack. They did CPR to revive him, breaking some ribs, but his BP and O2 were very low. It was his wish not to be put on a ventilator/life support, so I drove back down to meet all my siblings at the ICU to say our goodbyes. He held on long enough to see us all there (I live a couple hours away), before the morphine for his ribs relaxed him into a harsh sleep. He passed 3-4 hours later, with me and my littlest sister present until the end.

He was 3 days away from 76 years old. He had not lived a healthy life by any measure. He had went into congestive heart failure almost 5 years ago from COVID, as well as living with 2 large aortic aneurysms for years that could have burst any time, so it really is remarkable he lived such a long full life. I’m so glad for all he taught me & all the times we shared together, and thankful I have no regrets in our relationship. His #1 priority was his kids, and he died peacefully surrounded by them after sharing that love one last time.
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Wow man I’m so sorry to hear that. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. That reminds me of how small my problems are, thank you for sharing that.

I’m glad you and your son got to see him one last time and he was surrounded by loved ones
 
Hyde said:
Took my son to go visit my Dad on Saturday, who’s been in the hospital this last week again recovering from Sepsis (which he developed since he’s been laid up from the blood clot in his leg he was hospitalized with 6 weeks ago). He looked way better, they had him back on regular food, they had stepped him down to the regular hospital floor care, & he was very much with it mentally - it was a really nice visit that we both enjoyed a lot. All signs indicated he was recovering & possibly leaving soon.

Then yesterday getting home from the park with my boy, my sister called saying he had just flatlined from a heart attack. They did CPR to revive him, breaking some ribs, but his BP and O2 were very low. It was his wish not to be put on a ventilator/life support, so I drove back down to meet all my siblings at the ICU to say our goodbyes. He held on long enough to see us all there (I live a couple hours away), before the morphine for his ribs relaxed him into a harsh sleep. He passed 3-4 hours later, with me and my littlest sister present until the end.

He was 3 days away from 76 years old. He had not lived a healthy life by any measure. He had went into congestive heart failure almost 5 years ago from COVID, as well as living with 2 large aortic aneurysms for years that could have burst any time, so it really is remarkable he lived such a long full life. I’m so glad for all he taught me & all the times we shared together, and thankful I have no regrets in our relationship. His #1 priority was his kids, and he died peacefully surrounded by them after sharing that love one last time.
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Sorry to hear that man 😢

Glad you got to be there with all the siblings at the end. Prayers for you and all the family bud 🙏🏻
 
Sorry to hear this brother. Nothing we say will make it any easier, but I am glad that it sounds like you all got some good quality time in right before he passed. Always hard to lose someone you love, and certainly a parent. And depending what you believe, he held on to be able to have your whole family with him right before he went and was then able to finally let go peacefully. Will be thinking of you and your loved ones...
 
So sorry for your loss, but I love that you had the chance to be with him when he passed. My biggest regret is not having the chance to say goodbye, or even touch my Dad the last several months of his life with how they handled COVID. Getting the chance to say your goodbyes at least allowed a level of closure for you that many do not get a chance to experience. So remember to be grateful for that at least. I am happy your son got to have a good last memory of him and there visit together.

If you ever just need to talk, feel free to reach out.
 
Hyde said:
Took my son to go visit my Dad on Saturday, who’s been in the hospital this last week again recovering from Sepsis (which he developed since he’s been laid up from the blood clot in his leg he was hospitalized with 6 weeks ago). He looked way better, they had him back on regular food, they had stepped him down to the regular hospital floor care, & he was very much with it mentally - it was a really nice visit that we both enjoyed a lot. All signs indicated he was recovering & possibly leaving soon.

Then yesterday getting home from the park with my boy, my sister called saying he had just flatlined from a heart attack. They did CPR to revive him, breaking some ribs, but his BP and O2 were very low. It was his wish not to be put on a ventilator/life support, so I drove back down to meet all my siblings at the ICU to say our goodbyes. He held on long enough to see us all there (I live a couple hours away), before the morphine for his ribs relaxed him into a harsh sleep. He passed 3-4 hours later, with me and my littlest sister present until the end.

He was 3 days away from 76 years old. He had not lived a healthy life by any measure. He had went into congestive heart failure almost 5 years ago from COVID, as well as living with 2 large aortic aneurysms for years that could have burst any time, so it really is remarkable he lived such a long full life. I’m so glad for all he taught me & all the times we shared together, and thankful I have no regrets in our relationship. His #1 priority was his kids, and he died peacefully surrounded by them after sharing that love one last time.
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I'm sorry dude, I truly am. Id give you a hug if I could. My parents, aunts, uncles and many close family friends are all in there 70's now and I dread the idea of all the phone calls il be receiving over the next several years. Unfortunately my father is probably the least healthy in that group, several health issues and instead of trying to fix it, he chooses to drink, smoke and skip out on his appointments and therapy. I'm constantly struggling to not be angry at him because I know his time is short. I'm glad you got to say goodbye with no regrets, I hope I will be able to do the same. Knowing some of your life story, and some about where you are now as a man and with your family, I'd bet your dad was very proud of you. Make sure your little man knows how much you love him and don't let him forget Grandpa either. Family is #1, always.
 
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