So where do I begin. I had a really rough day.
2 months ago my dog was diagnosed with cancer. The vet said based on the tests it was 75% likely but she couldn’t say if it was absolutely cancer not if it was slow or fast.
The past few weeks he was doing really great and we began thinking that perhaps it was something else bc he’s way better now then he was back then. So we brought him in early this morning for those additional tests, one was an ultrasound. The look on the vets face said it all. I started crying. Turns out he has cancer, it’s slow but he has it in his liver, pancreas and stomach. He also has dementia which does explain the staring at the wall thing he’s been doing for a while. She wanted to put him down then and there. None of us agreed to that bc he’s eating well, he still walks well, albeit with a compensation for his hip issues. But he still responds to us and looks to be in good spirits.
Idk. I don’t want him to suffer but as selfish as it sounds I am definitely not ready bc I really don’t think he is either, you should’ve seen him begging for food tonight, that’s been his thing since he was a pup 14.5 years ago. He still wants cuddles and normal dog stuff, hell he just stuck his nose up the cats butt this evening, so we’re gonna wait a bit, don’t know how long, but I guess we’ll know.
I went in thinking hope and got the opposite.
We got home about 9 am. I decided I’d go out and work but I did a store at the end of my street which was my easiest and was saving it for the end. Anyhow my mind wasn’t on work so I went home and went to bed. Woke up around 330 feeling refreshed physically and mentally but obviously emotionally I needed the distraction of a good lift. I really needed all that sleep and today was gonna be a shorter day anyhow so the day didn’t push me back much at all.
Took 1 scoop rainbow candy in an 8 oz glass that wasn’t filled completely so say 7-7.25 oz. flavor was in my preference diluted yet still got the flavor like In the 16 oz for 2 scoops. Did the same for the Vasoblitz and pretty much same thing as with a 16 oz glass for it too
The focus was there but nowhere’s near as laser locked as usual with the 2 scoops but it was fine, and never caught myself drifting in thought during the session, definitely kept me engaged.
Energy was there but I never really felt any sort of kicking in. It was just there, if that makes any sense. I have to say that this method worked fine. I felt no drop off in any category. Really the only difference was the noticeable kick in and the awareness of it there pretty much the entirety of a session. The enhanced focus of the 2 scoops will be missed but I’ll prob use this method more than the 2 scoops bc there isn’t really a drop off imo outside of what I mentioned and reserve the 2 scoops for legs or any day I just feel I need that extra push.
Of course the pumps were just as good as usual. In fact they were approaching the too pumped category for a bit today, late were pronouncedly engorged.
Pre workout I had a loaded ham and cheese sandwich with a shake.
Workout
Wide grip Pulldown 3x20. 85,100,100
Db bent over row 4x15. 45 lbs
1 arm Db Row 5x12 60 lbs
Db shrugs. 6x10. 75x3,70,65,60
Ss
Cable high row 4x15. 3@85,1@70
1 arm straight arm Pulldown 4x15. 15x3,10x1
Ss
Hypers 3x20. 185
Plate rear fly. 3x20. 10’s
Feet on the ground single arm seated row 30x30 each