Linguistics makes me sad. I wish I hadn't chosen it as a major. They already told me that they were getting rid of the damn program because too few students were enrolling for it. I can't develop the desire to learn about this crap. Creative writing seems appealing, but then again I can only take so many professors that climax after reading Fitzgerald. Why did I choose English in the first place? Oh yeah, to help me get into law school. Why law school? Because I went through high school watching Law and Order thinking I'd make a difference in the world. But why English? Cause English majors do well in the LSAT. But why? Because I'm told they understand it better. Do I really want to get into law school? Am I doing it because it will make my parents happy and possibly secure me a job in the future? Am I doing it because I cling on to those high school fantasies of being a lawyer? Will I even make a good lawyer? I thought I wanted to be in the FBI. That was the whole dual credit criminal justice was for, right? But then an FBI intern told us that no one really goes crazy over a CJ degree. That's why I thought I wanted to be a lawyer, right? Because, I'm no good in comp sci, accounting, biology, etc. But the FBI likes language majors, too! Yes, that's it. Let's do German. Let's learn German and make a BA out of it. That's it! I'd take Spanish, but I don't like Spanish. Though it would be useful considering where I am. But German, that's something else.
I need a shower.
I wish I had my own computer. Or a laptop.
I don't want to take my History of English final tomorrow. I'd rather cut my protein intake in half. I'm not prepared.
11:00 PM Time to wrap this up and cuddle with my baby.