So I said I would do PCT but instead I kept pinning myself, hoping that eventually the prop would do something. I considered the possibility that maybe this could be enanthate that's dosed at 100mg/mL.
Well it's now day 3 of week 5 and there's no changes. I continue to be horny, and in the past few days a couple more pimples have popped up. My weight continues to be stagnant, my strength continues to be stagnant, and i still do not notice any changes in my lifting at the gym. The pumps that once felt so good now feel pretty normal. At this point it's hard to tell i'm on anything despite being on day 38 of test prop at 100mg ed.
I refuse to believe that I needed to eat more food, when i was eating food in such an excess that I gained more fat than muscle. I likewise refuse to believe that, after just over 3 years of weightlifting, I have reached my genetic limit and 700mg ew of testosterone won't let me budge. I refuse to believe that the testosterone I got from two different sources were both bunk (especially when this **** is making me so goddamn horny). I refuse to believe that everybody responds to all steroids, because most oral steroids do not elicit effects anywhere near their normal magnitude for me. And as testosterone is a steroid, I do not believe it elicits effects properly for me either.
I don't know how some people say they get an ON feeling and mental effects like being aggressive or driven, and I don't know how people gain more than 10 pounds off of test. I don't know understand the bloat because it just hasn't happened, i don't understand the test flu because that never happened, i don't understand "prop pain" cuz that **** is weak as hell. I don't understand how we tell everybody to use 100mg eod when twice that is, IMO weak as hell.
I have thought to reason this out and my experience with Epi is a perfect parallel and I haven't heard many comments on it, other than being told that it's not going to cause weight gain like SD. Well no ****, but no gains AT ALL in 4 weeks?
Anyway... I'm giving up on test. I don't see how it should be the base of EVERY cycle because the libido improvement is the only improvement I've noticed, and to be honest it's as much of a problem as a benefit. In terms of muscle and strength building, test doesn't have **** on oral steroids. It seems the difference is test gains are supposed to be more "keepable" but if there's no gains to keep... you see my logic. Orals have caused increases that I highly doubt any testosterone dose could achieve.
I would be pinning this **** at 2g a week if my body could handle that many injections but i don't see how it could be worth it. I'm out. I want to try tren because I have hope that high doses of trenbolone will WORK, but my verdict for this log is that Testosterone is like most other orals i've tried, it just doesn't work as well on me as it seems to on everybody else.
I had to let it out, cuz i'm tired of being told that test works for everyone, that my stuff is bunk, that I expected too much or that i don't know how to eat. I think this is a failure of the compound. I want people that read this log to know that there are people who don't make significant gains on testosterone. I want them to know that I genuinely tried as hard as I could to make gains and that i extended the duration repeatedly hoping for them.
If there's ever anyone like me that doesn't respond properly to steroids, I want to talk to you in private messages. The more I think about the situation, the more confused and frustrated I become. It pretty much plagues me constantly, promising little hope for advancing my bodybuilding stats. So i'd love to talk it out.