Well everyone, this may be my last log post. This is a full conclusion of my cycle and pct, if you're too lazy to read all of this, go to the end and I'll sum it up.
In the later half of February I decided to go on a six week steroid cycle of Epistane, or specifically RNP Havoc. First things first, it worked. It really worked. Epistane isn't weak or mild like I and many others believed. I got stretch marks from how fast I grew in some areas. I went from 269 to 284 in a couple of weeks with modest fat gains.
I now weigh 268 after dropping after dropping fat on a cut that I'm currently on to around 230. After cycle I lost a lot of stamina rep wise which I can only assume is due to a depletion of muscle glycogen. However, I have maintained and continue to maintain the size that I have gained through this cycle. My stamina is returning, and I'm losing fat to boot.
Now to the bad parts. During cycle, my entire mental state was destroyed. My A's and B's in school turned into D's and F's. My friends and family became worried and I became pretty depressed. The lethargy was awful. However, my symptoms were psychological for the majority of the cycle. In the beginning (first two weeks) my blood pressure spiked to 160/90 which was awful. I actually had major headaches and nosebleeds for about two weeks until the Bp just returned to normal out no where. It is now back to 122/79. My testicles dropped down in size like you wouldn't believe, and I didn't even notice until afterwards when they "bounced back".
After cycle, my mood and mental state returned to near normal, but I did experience minor gynecomastia.
For PCT I took nolvadex at 30/20/20/10/10 along with arimistane and D-Aspartic acid.
This is probably what those that skipped wanted to see.
My strength went from;
Pulldown: 190
Bench press: 315
Squat: n/a due to injury
Dead lift: 415
Single arm curl: 45
Pull-ups: 2
Chin-ups:6
To;
Pull down: 290
Bench press: 365
Squat: n/a
Dead lift: 475
Single arm curl: 65
Pull-ups: 16
Chin ups: 20
And now they are all give or take ten pounds depending on how I'm feeling that day, the same as they were on cycle.
My back is much wider now, and my arms albeit still small have gotten larger. I think that the whole notion that you will always get smaller post cycle is a bit of a subjective rule. I wasn't at my genetic potential like many users are. Far from it I now suspect. I think that if you are well below your genetic potential, it's entirely possible to keep on size and build even more after cycle.
TL;DR - Epistane is a hell of a drug, get it before it's illegal with this new PH bill. But do not do this if you are not ready to suffer for six weeks mentally and physically. be prepared to spend a lot of money on pct and such. Eat like there's no food left on earth, and grow.
Thanks guys, specifically Mystere who has been the most active on this log in terms of advice and occasional judgement. You've all been great.
It's been a ride to remember
