Ive been on since october 08 non-stop. After my first cycle ended and PCT was finished, i started to lose strength. Then my mass. The depression was rediculous and i vowed to never go through that again.
I already understand the link between higher test levels and early death in men, but who gives a sh*t?
When i look at elderly people, i ask myself why...Why are they still holding on? Whats the point. You're useless. Just a shell of what you were. F*ck that. I rather be exceptional while im here. Lifes too short to be average, IMO.
Ive had no ill effects thus far, aside from atrophy. Slight elevation in BP as well while using tren and orals. But other than that, good to go.
Ive essentially ceased hcg use as i feel my testicular size is pointless. Its cosmetic. A smaller sack just makes my Cack look that much larger.
The only downside i see is after each blast, i need a little bit more test to cruise on. 200/wk was fine once upon a time. It just seems the longer im on, the more T i need to feel "Normal"
Conclusion: this method has enabled me to keep 90% of my gains btwn cycles. im not competing so this is all vanity/ego.
The longest i can cruise is a month and a half before those vials start calling my name.
Psychological addiction? of course. But id rather spend my money on gym fees, gear, tanning beds instead of blowing money at bars or buying useless crap i'll never use.
