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The whole suboxone thing is fukt in my book. Trade one addiction for another (but it’s opioid free!). Fukk that. My buddy was a badass wrestler in high school, always taking state and every meet he was in. Strongest little fukker pound for pound I’ve ever met. He was like a raging leprechaun. He started getting into meth and then the whole downward spiral, eventually banging that into his blood. Finally got shut down after who knows how long of a bender and into the hospital he went. Suboxone prescription ensued. Now he eats those sublingual strips all day, rarely speaks and barely ever leaves his house. All he cares about is that new sub high. Guy used to be hilarious at every word he spoke. Now just fukking dead. Tragic really, he would have had all school paid for and doing what he was born to do. It’s really gotta be cold turkey when it comes to this ****. All or nothing, do or die.
Anyways, rant over. The concept of it just pisses me off and stirs up old memories.
 
Smont said:
I've gone through legit alcohol withdrawals. Twice. I've had plenty of friends go through heroine and pill withdrawals.

When I last quit drinking my best friend blocked my number because he didn't want me around him cus he was partying himself too much. He would call once a week for the first 2 weeks just to ask if I'm still going strong. Even now when I invite him to go do **** with me he won't drink even tho it don't bother me in the slightest any more. Thats a good friend.
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Oh, you've never come off H. Gotcha.

I'm not gonna keep going back and forth with you. Think what you want IDGAF
 
SkRaw85 said:
The whole suboxone thing is fukt in my book. Trade one addiction for another (but it’s opioid free!). Fukk that. My buddy was a badass wrestler in high school, always taking state and every meet he was in. Strongest little fukker pound for pound I’ve ever met. He was like a raging leprechaun. He started getting into meth and then the whole downward spiral, eventually banging that into his blood. Finally got shut down after who knows how long of a bender and into the hospital he went. Suboxone prescription ensued. Now he eats those sublingual strips all day, rarely speaks and barely ever leaves his house. All he cares about is that new sub high. Guy used to be hilarious at every word he spoke. Now just fukking dead. Tragic really, he would have had all school paid for and doing what he was born to do. It’s really gotta be cold turkey when it comes to this ****. All or nothing, do or die.
Anyways, rant over. The concept of it just pisses me off and stirs up old memories.
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I totally get that. But if much rather see someone on a pure drug manufactured in a laboratory than some **** somebody cut with God knows how much phentanyl that might kill them the next time they bang it.

And I've been on suboxone before. I felt normal, not really high. Not the same experience that you're talking about
 
RickyBlobby said:
Oh, you've never come off H. Gotcha.

I'm not gonna keep going back and forth with you. Think what you want IDGAF
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No I havnt. You can say whatever you want. My opinion is just my opinion but if my opinion is bothering you this much then maybe you got something to think about. I will see my way out of your thread. If you don't want to hear my opinions then don't quote me and I won't get alerts about your thread and I will be out of your hair.
 
Smont said:
I've gone through legit alcohol withdrawals. Twice. I've had plenty of friends go through heroine and pill withdrawals.

When I last quit drinking my best friend blocked my number because he didn't want me around him cus he was partying himself too much. He would call once a week for the first 2 weeks just to ask if I'm still going strong. Even now when I invite him to go do **** with me he won't drink even tho it don't bother me in the slightest any more. Thats a good friend.
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I totally get where you’re coming from on this. But people that care about you don’t always have the stomach to watch you suffer.
My own sister, same time period back in 09, had to drive me to the ER, and I told her I couldn’t go unless I got another drink, I cried and showed her how I could hold my hands out straight, and I would leave the ER the minute she left if she didn’t just let me have a quick pint of vodka. She buckled and let me sit in her car and chug a Gatorade with 9 shots in it. She got in a huge fight with her husband for doing this, and our Mom hung up on her when she told her.
I see both sides to this, but sometimes people’s gut reactions are just to help you out of your misery and THEN help get you on the right track. I’ve seen it happen with tough love, and also with weak, enabling love. It ultimately is on the addict, but respectfully, everyone has their ways of trying to help, and it’s hard for me to say which is a **** move and which isn’t because it’s a very complicated disease.
I see your point, and hopefully you see mine to some degree. Ideally, you have probably the better way long term. I’m just saying their is always some grey area
 
Smont said:
No I havnt. You can say whatever you want. My opinion is just my opinion but if my opinion is bothering you this much then maybe you got something to think about. I will see my way out of your thread. If you don't want to hear my opinions then don't quote me and I won't get alerts about your thread and I will be out of your hair.
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Your opinion is welcome but dont disrespect me. Peace
 
RickyBlobby said:
And I've been on suboxone before. I felt normal, not really high. Not the same experience that you're talking about
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Same. You’re in heaven for like 2 days and then..... no high at all. Unless you crank up another 8mg. Or shoot it if you’re stupid enough(which I of course was)
But it is NOT the drug for people wanting to get high still. Just a crutch to not get dopesick. And from what I’ve seen an experienced, you need to get off it as fast as you got on it. My ex wife took 8 fucking years to taper off that crap. Even when you taper down to 0.5 mg, you’re still looking at 3 weeks of feeling like death, which would have only been 5 days if you could get through the initial withdrawals. Worth it for some, worse for others.
I’m glad it exists though, even methadone, with what’s out there now, it’s safer jus to keep people on it and taper them off so they aren’t getting **** on the streets and hustling, stealing, shooting overdosed Fent, whatever the case may be.
 
I'm an open fukking book stay out this thread if you dont like drama lol
 
RickyBlobby said:
I'm an open fukking book stay out this thread if you dont like drama lol
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Well, it’s just: let’s discuss, not attack.
My discussion comes from a place of concern and comradery. So I would like to see you well, not make you feel like **** about yourself.
The internet is too full of that, and I love AM because we want to see our bro’s do well and build them up, nothing else.
 
RickyBlobby said:
I totally get that. But if much rather see someone on a pure drug manufactured in a laboratory than some **** somebody cut with God knows how much phentanyl that might kill them the next time they bang it.
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When they reattached my bicep the nurse told me they were putting a good dose of phentanyl in the IV since I wasn’t going to be put fully under for the surgery.

I woke up 75 minutes later without a care in the world after being out cold. When the nurse asked what clothes I had brought I made sure to tell her it had a funny cat eating ramen on it. She didn’t laugh nearly as much as I did.
 
Hyde said:
When they reattached my bicep the nurse told me they were putting a good dose of phentanyl in the IV since I wasn’t going to be put fully under for the surgery.

I woke up 75 minutes later without a care in the world after being out cold. When the nurse asked what clothes I had brought I made sure to tell her it had a funny cat eating ramen on it. She didn’t laugh nearly as much as I did.
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The old junkie in me thinks fentanyl sounds amazeballs. And then I realize I lost a marriage, 100k, and an RN career just to Oxy and I come right back to reality again.
Can’t believe they are giving that in the ER.
This one time, in the ER, this lady came in with migraine or something. Nothing too terrible, and she said before you give me anything, I’m sensitive to opiates. So the Doc said Ok we will just give you 0.5 dillaudid.
They pushed it in her IV and she immediately stopped breathing. Like stopped completely. Had to give her a little Epi and some O2. It was nuts seeing what an overdose looks like right in front of me.
 
Suboxone got me off a 6 year dope habit. Took it for 2 years tapered off still worst withdrawal ever it lasted about a month wasn’t as intense as cold turkey but a whole month of the flu and fatigue sucked. Haven’t touched it in 8 years.
 
Matthersby said:
The old junkie in me thinks fentanyl sounds amazeballs. And then I realize I lost a marriage, 100k, and an RN career just to Oxy and I come right back to reality again.
Can’t believe they are giving that in the ER.
This one time, in the ER, this lady came in with migraine or something. Nothing too terrible, and she said before you give me anything, I’m sensitive to opiates. So the Doc said Ok we will just give you 0.5 dillaudid.
They pushed it in her IV and she immediately stopped breathing. Like stopped completely. Had to give her a little Epi and some O2. It was nuts seeing what an overdose looks like right in front of me.
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:LOL: Well then, we will just give you .5mg hydromorphone. Kinda reminds me of after i lost my arm and foot. i was prescribed 30mg of oral morphine with like 5mg oxycodones. Insurance wouldnt pay for morphine so the lady prescribing meds gave me 30mg methadone a day plus oxycodone... I thought that was great until i abused it... and then the W/D.
 
Cmseabee24 said:
Suboxone got me off a 6 year dope habit. Took it for 2 years tapered off still worst withdrawal ever it lasted about a month wasn’t as intense as cold turkey but a whole month of the flu and fatigue sucked. Haven’t touched it in 8 years.
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Kicked 75 daily methadone in rehab 10 years ago. Not even aspirin or sleep aids. I’d been on it, subs and oxy for 18 months.
Didn’t sleep even 5 mins 8 nights straight.
Took weeks before I could do any activity without needing to sit down and rub my legs every 15 minutes.
I almost feel like it’s better the shitty way, since neither of us have gone back to hard opiates
 
Matthersby said:
The old junkie in me thinks fentanyl sounds amazeballs. And then I realize I lost a marriage, 100k, and an RN career just to Oxy and I come right back to reality again.
Can’t believe they are giving that in the ER.
This one time, in the ER, this lady came in with migraine or something. Nothing too terrible, and she said before you give me anything, I’m sensitive to opiates. So the Doc said Ok we will just give you 0.5 dillaudid.
They pushed it in her IV and she immediately stopped breathing. Like stopped completely. Had to give her a little Epi and some O2. It was nuts seeing what an overdose looks like right in front of me.
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This was in a surgery center I had to pay thousands up front, so not like an ER where you can just waltz in and deal with fees after treatment.

That would be pretty bad indeed, strong stuff.
 
Matthersby said:
Kicked 75 daily methadone in rehab 10 years ago. Not even aspirin or sleep aids. I’d been on it, subs and oxy for 18 months.
Didn’t sleep even 5 mins 8 nights straight.
Took weeks before I could do any activity without needing to sit down and rub my legs every 15 minutes.
I almost feel like it’s better the shitty way, since neither of us have gone back to hard opiates
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Yeah that and I watch my best friend OD in my apartment kept using for another couple days then decided I didn’t want that to be me. I was on 24mg a day for 6 months then tapered myself off very slowly. Cut dosage in half all the way to 1 mg. I didn’t think at all I’d get sick. But IDGAF cause in the end it worked out. Although once I was in military I started drinking heavy. Almost died my BAC was .48 and I’d been drinking a gallon to a gallon and a half of whiskey a day for 4 years. Got 6 months now so **** whoever said your trading one addiction for another. If your on this forum you probably are addicted to the gym. Which everyone has addictions it’s just finding a healthy one and trying to balance it. If I don’t go to the gym now and absolutely destroy my body I get irritable and anxious.
 
Joshinator said:
Were you running an AI? Or SERM? Or anti-prolactin?

Any issues there with e2, or prolactin that you could tell at 10mgs a day?




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Yes I was running into gyno issues. On 25mg I needed 4mg of letro a day which is ridiculous. Unless its underdosed
 
Cmseabee24 said:
Yeah that and I watch my best friend OD in my apartment kept using for another couple days then decided I didn’t want that to be me. I was on 24mg a day for 6 months then tapered myself off very slowly. Cut dosage in half all the way to 1 mg. I didn’t think at all I’d get sick. But IDGAF cause in the end it worked out. Although once I was in military I started drinking heavy. Almost died my BAC was .48 and I’d been drinking a gallon to a gallon and a half of whiskey a day for 4 years. Got 6 months now so **** whoever said your trading one addiction for another. If your on this forum you probably are addicted to the gym. Which everyone has addictions it’s just finding a healthy one and trying to balance it. If I don’t go to the gym now and absolutely destroy my body I get irritable and anxious.
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I’m ok with this addiction. I’ll keep it.
That other life I had, don’t ever want it back.
 
Matthersby said:
I’m ok with this addiction. I’ll keep it.
That other life I had, don’t ever want it back.
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Yeah I'm hooked on clonipins pretty good. Only 1mg a day, I've ran out a couple times and my nerves get real bad but it's nothing like kratom where I feel like I cant function or hard opiates where I wanna put a bullet in my head
 
RickyBlobby said:
Yeah I'm hooked on clonipins pretty good. Only 1mg a day, I've ran out a couple times and my nerves get real bad but it's nothing like kratom where I feel like I cant function or hard opiates where I wanna put a bullet in my head
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Gotta be careful if you ever cold turkey those. Xanax and Ativan are even worse.
You can have a straight seizure and die if you’re on a solid daily dose and have been on for some time.
I would probably get back on Valium if a doc prescribed me, but my anxiety is not too terrible these days, I can function pretty well
 
Matthersby said:
Gotta be careful if you ever cold turkey those. Xanax and Ativan are even worse.
You can have a straight seizure and die if you’re on a solid daily dose and have been on for some time.
I would probably get back on Valium if a doc prescribed me, but my anxiety is not too terrible these days, I can function pretty well
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I was on Xanax, and Valium from the VA. Quit Cold Turkey when they told me they where putting me on methadone
 
RickyBlobby said:
Homies. OMFG. Old girl had that good good.

It's taking alot to treat her like a simp.

Ole girl in rehab 42 days clean from meth. ****. My ex wife's friend. Best sex ever.

Chemistry is unreal. I think I found me a main B. 10/10.

I cant let her know that tho. This **** is crazy but I can not fall into a serious relationship RN. Shes number 1 of 20. But 100 percent down for me.

It's actually kinda fun lol. This is gettin really good. Fukk bein married. For real. As far as my life is concerned.
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Have you told us about this girl?
Cause the other one was in rehab for H, and the other that confessed her love on FB, neither of those are her?
 
Matthersby said:
Have you told us about this girl?
Cause the other one was in rehab for H, and the other that confessed her love on FB, neither of those are her?
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This is the girl in rehab for meth. She has her head on straight.

I literally woke up after my alarm went off for 5 hrs. Good thing I'm pretty much my own FN boss. Jeezus
 
Hyde said:
She wants your birthday present bad bro

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I think she liked her present lol. Shes already calling me pet names and **** though. Not cool I dont need a clinger. But man that shyte was good I ain't gonna lie. I wanna keep her around.


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Wobmarvel said:
A milf with no kids? I'm not sure that's scientifically possible.
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What would I do without cynical bastards like you to keep me in check. Lol
 
Jeremyk1 said:
Sounds like you’d be hooking up with MILFs who don’t have kids. 🤷‍♂️
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Kiss my ass MF lol
I guess I need to stop posting **** whil I'm on Neptune
 
Dude I have been away for a while but I can definitely empathize with you. Decided to leave my wife after seven years in April. House, kid, dogs, everything gone. Like you I have felt so much better since making the decision.

Already met a pretty awesome new woman, she knows about all the stuff I use to help me me compete and she doesn’t care. Kinda put things on hold while I figure out some issues I have right now, but things are a little complicated because I knocked her up. Whoops.

Also did a cycle after the break up that was amazing which I wanted to share. Ran Test E, DHB, Tren A, and finished with Var. I got strong and fucking juicy by the end of that. Ran the Var and Ace for the last 8 weeks. Ran the test and DHB a total of 12 weeks. Wanted to go 16-20 since I have virtually no sides from DHB, but even pinning three times a week and diluting it with other oils still got some knots in my glutes by the end.

Good luck with the cycle bro.
 
Hyde said:
Hope you’re living well homie
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Man you guys are great friends, even though I never met yall. Kinda heartwarming.

Lots of crazy **** to talk about...

Cliffs

- told h town about the other girl. Her attitude changed completely, started liking all fb posts, sending bikini selfies, etc. Ended up calling police on me before days end. And then called the x
Cops on the cops that showed up to investigate

- the relationship with my 3d's friend is going great, perfect actually. She is cool with not falling in love for quite a while.
I'm obviously very popular amongst the whole sober living female dorm, seeing a possible 7 way in the future lol.

- found out that ex's friend, current lover, was eith a black guy for 6 years before me. First and only black guy. Showed me a pic, big mandingo MF prolly 6'6" 300lb.

At first I was a little disturbed but now I feel pretty accomplished that I can still knock it out the park after her being used to the BBC. The chemistry is crazy with us. Really digging the whole thing

- got molested by black girl at corner store, she agreed to give me head on the side of the ice machines lol.

Oh and dont mind sharing pics of H girl now.

Will elaborate more later.

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I’m wondering how one gets approached by a woman at a corner store that will offer to felate them for free, no strings attached. That’s a special kind of special
 
Once her jaws are clenched shut, the extortion begins: "Mimme ur waffep!" (translation: Gimme your wallet!)
 
Hyde said:
I’m wondering how one gets approached by a woman at a corner store that will offer to felate them for free, no strings attached. That’s a special kind of special
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It was just a magical time and place. No other way to explain it lol.
 
Codybenz said:
Explain the calling the cops story? That wasn’t a deal breaker?
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Basically I told her that I was talking to another chick. Well she thought she already had me wrapped obviously.

So I said we need to talk face to face because all this text bs is not giving me a warm fuzzy feeling. She said ok so I headed to her house, parked outside and texted her I was there.

Next thing I know the cops are there grilling me with questions. I explained everything and they went to the house to verify the story. At which she called the police on the officers there.

Yeah, blocked that hoe from social media and everything. Sad bc I was really looking forward to tapping that.
 
Hyde said:
I’m wondering how one gets approached by a woman at a corner store that will offer to felate them for free, no strings attached. That’s a special kind of special
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I was in the store buying some Joe's last night and there were 3 black girls in there. One of them was like GOT DAMN THATS A FINE MUTHAFUCKA AND I DONT LIKE WHITE BOYS. SHE SAID LEMME FEEL YA DICK. I WAS LIKE I AINT NO FAGGOT GO FOR IT SHE DID. And then I turned to the old dude behind me grinning ear to ear and I said betcha I can have this hoe suckin my dick by the ice machine in 2 min. I told her....you know I dont like teases you gotta finish that. She said where at I said by the ice machine

She was like bet. So we walked outside and I was lik I was playin my girl in the truck I gotta bounce

The people in the store looked like they just saw a magic trick lol
 
Honestly when you posted pics of H girl. I was waiting on pics of my brothers ex-wife. But, apparently she is back in jail again
 
DemntedCowboy said:
Honestly when you posted pics of H girl. I was waiting on pics of my brothers ex-wife. But, apparently she is back in jail again
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Now something tells me that woman has not taken time in her life to identify her chief priorities
 
Hyde said:
Now something tells me that woman has not taken time in her life to identify her chief priorities
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You are quite astute my friend
 
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