Pls message me. I hate to hear you suffer and there are so many ways to heal that drs won't tell you and even the most extensive research won't find. I've been through everything But surgery and they've wanted to since I was 19 yrs old (31 at end of mo). Now you've had it done, and that's actually a good thing. Now let's get you off those heavy meds- and yes it can be done. Was on dilaudid 4mg as much as I wanted, perc 10's, morphine 100, flexerill, soma, etc etc etc. Now I use neurontin/ gabapentin (nerve "blocking" agent) and Zanaflex/tizanidine (actual muscle relaxant) and that works better than damn near any of those pain meds. And pls try l-theanine at high doses + gaba instead of your Valium. Basically duplicating the same exact mechanism and may find you like it more. And I have days of this info. Hmu anytime. I'm not AM A lot, but I will hopefully see it in my email. Been following out of empathy. Hang tough soldier, you can make it!
Ps- oh snap- totally forgot Kratom!