Thanks man I appreciate that. I tend to agree with you on pharmaceuticals. I've stayed away from them wherever I could, and this is why I don't want any sort of barbituate as well. I want to try to keep things as safe as possible. I've been at a point where anxiety causes ADHD type effects in me though, for a very long time now, and effects my whole life. I've made a conscious effort to cut down on caffeine the past year. Cut out energy drinks, and now cutting my coffee intake in half. But anyhow, back to the real guts of the log haha... I'm going to get far more active now. I had a great weekend with a new woman. Was a bit of a break from my dieting. I'm now back into a full on CKD plan. Will post more today about it. I'm dedicated to a few goals this summer, and I know it will be tough. I plan on leaning out drastically, while bringing up some lagging parts. Certain PED's will be in use. 1) CKD will be in effect - my best tool for recomping 2) aiming for visible abs this summer - giving myself 2 months 3) bringing up some extra size in chest and traps I will post more details later today and try to snap some pics. Going to be very dedicated to my goals now.