addiction itself I don’t know tbh. I’ve always had an addictive personality (even from a young age), it’s to anything that plays on the reward system for sure (sports, gambling, sex, masturbation, drugs, booze, making sales, being recognised as the best at work etc). What I’ve never understood is why for me that’s a more powerful agent that for non addicts - is that part of a genetic make up?
I don’t know? I can’t put mine down to any childhood trauma tbh, decent upbringing, good school, middle class family. Yeah I went through some stuff in my teens like most people do in their lives, some of it pretty bad tbf but I was already an addict and I know none of it fuelled my addiction.
I never drank or took drugs to ‘escape reality’ like some say. I always had a mindset I didn’t want to waste any time on a reality that wasn’t as good as it could be I guess.
anyway bro, I’ve no idea what thread we are in but I’m fucking sure this wasn’t in the OP’s post
