You will.
And with risking sounding preachy and cliche,
I am such a better person now. I know my flaws, and I work them adamantly and tediously.
I’ve never been this good of a partner or father, EVER. My key, since I am a TRUE alcoholic, is practicing as much selflessness as I can ever day. Never saying no and going out of my way for anyone( on here, friends, family, anyone that needs it) and I find so much more joy in that than the indulgence of just trying to numb everything and get my fun on. I’ve never been closer with my kids, I’ve been able to lend an ear on here or do a favor for someone hurting, my family can always rely on me for literally anything they could ever ask for.
My fun comes in the form of completing my goals, work goals, gym goals, and the one selfish goal I do have, competing in March. Which has just shown me more dedication and disciplined that’s translated to other areas of my life.
I have found it to actually be one of my life’s greatest blessings that I don’t drink anymore.
Ya, I’ll take some Kratom or an adderal. But seriously why, is so I can have more energy to play with my kids when I’m tired, to outperform at work, and to have the energy when I get home to cook dinner and clean it up so my gf can focus on her final 4 courses of her bachelors that are absolutely killing her. I hardly find that recreational use. I won’t use anything that’s going to check me out or make me a shitty partner or father.