So I go into the bar, and ask for a six pack.
The bartender says, that'll be 5.50 and every good friend you have.
I say, I'll take it.
I go get a case of beer, and the cashier says, that'll be 14.00 and your marriage.
I say, I'll take it.
I go to the liquor store , and ask for a bottle of tequila.
The cashier says, that'll be 20 bucks and your license to practice *******, I say, I'll take it.
Why wouldn't I? Alcohol was more important than anything in my life.
So I thought I would stop drinking, and boy **** didn't get better. I was white knuckled in sobriety. Unable to interact with people without something in my system. Relapsing over and over, because I was going to meetings, but not doing any work.
Today, I am in recovery, not sobriety. I am willing to work the steps(the only thing that works for me). I mean meetings are temporary, fellowship is temporary,.. without action, I am dead.
Slowly, I've built myself up, I go in front of the board next month to see if I can get my license back. Great if I do,.. if not, I'm okay. It's all part of God's plan for me.
Thanks for letting me share!