You are talking to me or @Brain5ick ?You’ve said it yourself but I’m pretty sure everything is in your head bro. Like you’re posting a new topic every other day about being scared of something yet your bloods are perfect and you even had doctors telling you your heart was fine. I think you need to work on those anxiety issues and perhaps gear is not meant for you. Or at least not blasting!
I was talking to OP obviously brotha although I know you mentionned having the same issues as him!You are talking to me or @Brain5ick ?
You see, i am mentally unstable. I want to do it but also dont want to do it at the same time. I want to look like an animal one more time, the next summer, now of course i am not going to use crazy dosages, gram or beyond.
But i do want to push my physique past natural limits one more time. I do have a feeling i will not use anymore after that, i sort of have my life's plan in my head, and i have "phases" i want to go through as i know that if i dont go through those phases, i would be asking what if and be obsessive about that in the future.
And of course i am anxious about it. But then again, statistically, two 4 month cycles SHOULD NOT shorten my life significantly, say more than a few years.
And then again, every day is a gamble so all of the plans for the future may be in vain, so might as well do something you want to experience.
You can kinda see my train of thought. I am trying to find a happy medium.
You know I'm always happy to help.I just figure it’s better to get looked at before just saying it’s in your head. Not freaking out, I just know that the one time I don’t address something weird is the time something could actually be wrong. My insurance is great so I don’t pay a cent for any of this. Might as well right? Nevertheless I am not going to stop my cycle, I’m enjoying it way too much! Only 5 more weeks of Deca and 6-7 more on test.