DemonDevster
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So i am currently a university student second year **** ton of work. My mum has had cancer on and off for 10 years currently im 23 to give you an idea of how it kinda ****ed with me (very draining).
Mum got given basically a death sentence she has been told by doctors she has weeks maybe at a push months left to live (cancer became immune to chemo). Girl friend has been a fridge when it comes to sex so im double stressed the **** out.
Feeling sick most days and even sicker when i visit my mum as everytime i see her she is more rapidly degenerating physically looking worst and worst due to the cancer having infected her liver as well as spread through her whole body. I am starting to dread visiting her as it physically hurts to see this.
Just got back with my gf after going on a break as i need her as support as my real dad is a dead beat mofo who lives in america and just does week and drink every day.
Training in maybe 3 times a week max as i have been getting increased anxiety for social situations due to the my mum degrading state as well as stress from lack of sex plus work from uni dod have a job as well but they stabbed me in the back so i had to quit.
(Also grandad died last year the same day mum announced her death sentence this year so shook af)
3 options which should i take.
Option 1 (dont want todo) take rest of year off uni high likely hood of depression. Stay with support gf. Go on holidays in exotic places to help clear my mind maybe take up yoga or something zen
Option 2. Bin off support gf. Get on steroid cycle just test as that made me more of a rough edge aka less emotion and less prone to emotional feelings. Keep at uni visit mum when possible take my stress out by getting new destroy her emotionally due to what im going through effecting her so much
Option 3 bin off support gf. concentrate on uni maybe adderal it for abit. Burn 2 ends of the candle for abit to relieve stress keep only gyming 3 times a week. Find another way to relieve stress.
Option 4 you give me an idea as i am lost and mentally crippled from 10 years of watching my mum finally loose to cancer
So i am currently a university student second year **** ton of work. My mum has had cancer on and off for 10 years currently im 23 to give you an idea of how it kinda ****ed with me (very draining).
Mum got given basically a death sentence she has been told by doctors she has weeks maybe at a push months left to live (cancer became immune to chemo). Girl friend has been a fridge when it comes to sex so im double stressed the **** out.
Feeling sick most days and even sicker when i visit my mum as everytime i see her she is more rapidly degenerating physically looking worst and worst due to the cancer having infected her liver as well as spread through her whole body. I am starting to dread visiting her as it physically hurts to see this.
Just got back with my gf after going on a break as i need her as support as my real dad is a dead beat mofo who lives in america and just does week and drink every day.
Training in maybe 3 times a week max as i have been getting increased anxiety for social situations due to the my mum degrading state as well as stress from lack of sex plus work from uni dod have a job as well but they stabbed me in the back so i had to quit.
(Also grandad died last year the same day mum announced her death sentence this year so shook af)
3 options which should i take.
Option 1 (dont want todo) take rest of year off uni high likely hood of depression. Stay with support gf. Go on holidays in exotic places to help clear my mind maybe take up yoga or something zen
Option 2. Bin off support gf. Get on steroid cycle just test as that made me more of a rough edge aka less emotion and less prone to emotional feelings. Keep at uni visit mum when possible take my stress out by getting new destroy her emotionally due to what im going through effecting her so much
Option 3 bin off support gf. concentrate on uni maybe adderal it for abit. Burn 2 ends of the candle for abit to relieve stress keep only gyming 3 times a week. Find another way to relieve stress.
Option 4 you give me an idea as i am lost and mentally crippled from 10 years of watching my mum finally loose to cancer