you know, I think we all just do the best we can with what we got at the time (be it knowledge or resources). I got a buddy recently diagnosed with cancer in his eye. docs wanted to take the eye, he said no, lets try treatment first. so he's in the middle of chemo and still about the most optimistic person you ever met. he's crushing it. he doesn't deny the pain he's in from the procedures just talks about how much stronger its making him.
Then I see a post from his baby momma, this weekend he was hit by a truck (he was on his ducati) in an apparent road rage situation where the truck decided to take him out. he ended up with a feeding tube in the ER all weekend, unable to talk, bleeding from the ear, swelling in the head etc. I mean bleak ****. is supposed to start with a speach therapist on friday but he's still not really 100% coherent yet. He stands up in his room and says get this stuff off me I gotta pee
I 100% think he's going to make a full and strong recovery and that this experience is just a part of his path I guess. I know people hate the word journey now days but it is what it is. I see this guy get kicked in the balls over and over again and he keeps bouncing back. He loves his daughter to the end of the world, loves his job, and is always fighting the good fight. (its still heart breaking to watch him suffer)
we just do... whatever we can do at the time with what we got. I was taking mental images in my head of my wife the other night cause I was thinking man if I lost my vision what would i miss seeing the most? Thats kinda how I see things with my boy too. I always think if my time is cut a little short at this point, what memories will he take from me? My guess is he'll remember that dad "loved" to lift, loved his Mariners, wore cowboy boots, talked a lot of ****, and loved boys weekends. There is probably some other things that he thinks too like bbq etc. but those are the things I think about... like if I die tomorrow, what does my boy get to keep from me I guess.