Okay. I would like to point something out. So I gained 50lbs over halodrol pct DMZ pct. and Literally I look leaner than I have ever been. Probably because my muscles are bigger. But one thing I am not happy about is that My quads literally are about TEN times bigger than they were after I tore my ACL so I have stretch marks down my thighs pretty bad. but oh well.
My lifts have gotten somewhat ridiculous level strong that i was worried I would easily lose it all.
And jsut last shoulder day i was still doing good form lateral raises with 50lbs dumbells. I mean i never even ventured past 25lb dbells for lateral raises my first cycle and i didnt know my potential.
You really dont know what you can press until you try. I literally surprise myself because I got stuck in habit of always putting 95lbs on the barbell for curls and then I was raging off of trest and realized that I can do 135lbs with good form on curls for sets of five and after pushing that heavy weight the whole cycle i was able to do 10 reps now. I am glad i didnt stick around the same weights that Got so use to pushing and the mental barriers i set for myself.
I feel like that is a huge problem with most people. We set these barriers after working so hard to get to them. We think, "damn that was ****ing hard to reach It must be impossible to make more gains." Or " this is so ****ing heavy for me that its going to hard to be consistantly going up in weight." I mean I have a different training style than almost every single person I know.
I got to these weight where I would be able to do 10-15 reps with depending on diet. and would always stick to those and occasionally max out. I mean I have always been strong but nothing ridiculous. Like i would see "big guys pushing ridiculous dumb weight" like repping out 315 on bench and would think to myself damn Ill never be able to do that.
Like it feels crazy being that guy with some lifts now. The reason for the sentiment today is because of something that happened when lifting yesterday that reminded me when I first wanted to get as big and strong as possible.
I had 335 on the bar and just my brother that is pretty small spotting me. they asked if i need them to watch the sides of the bar. Then I said no and pressed it 4 times.
I never thought in my life I would be able to press 315 for 6 reps.
I mean I love bodybuilding and powerlifting. It is just the one thing you can only hold yourself accountable for. It teaches you so much. It teaches you scheduling and time partitioning. It teaches you mental toughness and self control. It makes you learn how to do something that you dont want to do even though you want the results.
I am not going to lie, My injury lit the biggest fire under my butt that I have ever experienced. Every day I go to the gym, wanting to be there or not and sometimes think to myself, "I dont feel like lifting, so i might just do lighter weight." then I look at that picture of me a year ago and ( ON cycle or OFF) i say **** that. I AM here and I am going to lift, and lift heavy.
I know that everyone has different things that work for them, like volume training or 5 sets of 5 or what not. I kind of have a weird style of training and do my own thing. I kind of lift everyday like doing a set for 12 where i really strained then deciding i want more, then going up in weight. Then deciding I want more than going up, then deciding i want more then going up.
That why sometime i have some weird logs where Ill do like 15 sets of one lift LOL.
The only thing I know That works for me Is lifting HEAVY A$$ WEIGHT.... I know that IF I AM pushing heavier and heavier weight ever lift period that My muscles are getting bigger and bigger to compensate.
And Im not gonna lie I AM addicted to the feeling of kicking up 100lbs dumbells and getting that OH **** thats heavy, im going to ****ing push it, feeling. Then dropping them and deciding you want more pain and weight.
It seriously takes a special kind of person to be into changing their body and an even more special person to chase bodybuilding and mass. You have to be psychotic and love pain and gain. You have to be able to manipulate your mind past what your body want (to stop, rest, eat bad food). Remember that feeling when you first started lifting, where you would push a new max and feel like the strongest man ever. Why not feel like that every time you lift? Feel like a ****ing monster every time you drop the weight after a set. Drop the bar after everyone just stared at you over head squat pushing 225 for sets of 10 when they thought it would have even been impressive if you just front squatted it.
I feel Like everyone On this website has that mentality and shares those characteristics, and we get along because of it. We are from all over the world and give each other motivation and notice each others hard work. I mean Even after Joining forever ago and saying this then, I am grateful for everything this website taught me.
I have met awesome guys and gals on this that I am actually super close with. &&
Dma378 for personally showing me the ropes on a lot of things and not getting annoyed at blowing up his inbox.
sorry for the rant guys. this probably is gonna be a lot stupider than I feel like it is as I type hahaha.
Like Ronnie said, "EVERYONE WANTS TO BE A BODYBUILDER, But AINT NOBODY WANT TO LIFT THIS HEAVY ASS WEIGHT. Ill lift it though."
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