Matthersby‘s mission: 50lbs by 2019. Slin,NPP,Dbol and lots more.

Ha. I stopped taking YK, your pick has no effect:D
Except maybe its the best made pizza I think I have ever seen.

It's a damn good looking pizza, that's for sure. I'd like to take credit for it's creation but credit must go to the interwebz.
 
I was hating admitting to knowing what it does, not being on...I wish..but same here, I cant just stash them either.
But I did have a few drinks so there was a little self gathering, lol. It has been cool seeing how hormones effect things again though, TRT is looking more interesting than I had first thought.

I will tell you that you will know when it’s time . You’ll be tired of low confidence, tired of shyt libido, and just tired in general. I used to need to go to bed super early, always felt a little under the weather, never had real energy, and then I got back on self administered and simply checked labs for what my previous doc had checked. Started with a little prop kickstart and within a week I was a different person. I’ll NEVER get off. My life has been better in more ways than I can put into words. I feel like conquering everything in my path, take great care of my woman, and get things done with very little rest needed.

Plus there’s just no way I was going to recover from cycling getting to be 40. My last real cycle in 2014-15 knocked me down almost 500 points. Took me outta the game quick. If I was going to get back to ped’s at all, I was going to have to cruise for good.
Just my .02, there’s more than enough resources to do it safely self admin, but if you can get a doc to sign off, even better. Sounds like you have a good career so I’d just consider jumping on when you feel you are ready. 100% your Choice I’ll never regret it, even if one day I am forced to go without, at least I’ll have these middle aged years with such an advantage.
 
Good to have you back sir

I've been following along and enjoying the comments but I guess my inactivity caused me to no longer get new post notifications.

Life's been a bit of a pisser lately so I haven't commented much in any threads as of late. Lots of quality posts in here, though!
 
I will tell you that you will know when it’s time . You’ll be tired of low confidence, tired of shyt libido, and just tired in general. I used to need to go to bed super early, always felt a little under the weather, never had real energy, and then I got back on self administered and simply checked labs for what my previous doc had checked. Started with a little prop kickstart and within a week I was a different person. I’ll NEVER get off. My life has been better in more ways than I can put into words. I feel like conquering everything in my path, take great care of my woman, and get things done with very little rest needed.

Plus there’s just no way I was going to recover from cycling getting to be 40. My last real cycle in 2014-15 knocked me down almost 500 points. Took me outta the game quick. If I was going to get back to ped’s at all, I was going to have to cruise for good.
Just my .02, there’s more than enough resources to do it safely self admin, but if you can get a doc to sign off, even better. Sounds like you have a good career so I’d just consider jumping on when you feel you are ready. 100% your Choice I’ll never regret it, even if one day I am forced to go without, at least I’ll have these middle aged years with such an advantage.

Ive been on for at least 7 years straight. I used to cycle on and off then said screw it, im just staying on..i feel great all the time..lol
 
I will tell you that you will know when it’s time . You’ll be tired of low confidence, tired of shyt libido, and just tired in general. I used to need to go to bed super early, always felt a little under the weather, never had real energy, and then I got back on self administered and simply checked labs for what my previous doc had checked. Started with a little prop kickstart and within a week I was a different person. I’ll NEVER get off. My life has been better in more ways than I can put into words. I feel like conquering everything in my path, take great care of my woman, and get things done with very little rest needed.

Plus there’s just no way I was going to recover from cycling getting to be 40. My last real cycle in 2014-15 knocked me down almost 500 points. Took me outta the game quick. If I was going to get back to ped’s at all, I was going to have to cruise for good.
Just my .02, there’s more than enough resources to do it safely self admin, but if you can get a doc to sign off, even better. Sounds like you have a good career so I’d just consider jumping on when you feel you are ready. 100% your Choice I’ll never regret it, even if one day I am forced to go without, at least I’ll have these middle aged years with such an advantage.

Thank you, nice perspective.
After my breakup and a little fun I decided to drop social and dating life till my boy was 18(next year). I only have one child and he will only be a child once so it was the time of life to enjoy that.
Now my career needs a change sooner than later also(50-80hr/w of toxic environment is getting old) so I need to go back to school to get an old man career.
You basically just said what I have been thinking and the only question would be.

I know it's different for everyone but when dialed in with the extra energy and focus do you notice any effect on compulsiveness in any way?
(years ago I tried Zoloft and found it made things worse in that respect, basically made OCD's worse)
 
I've been following along and enjoying the comments but I guess my inactivity caused me to no longer get new post notifications.

Life's been a bit of a pisser lately so I haven't commented much in any threads as of late. Lots of quality posts in here, though!

I think the site is wigging out a little with followed threads, I've had a few do that lately. In my own thread I get an email about a reply but it only shows in notifications if it's a quoted post.
 
Thank you, nice perspective.
After my breakup and a little fun I decided to drop social and dating life till my boy was 18(next year). I only have one child and he will only be a child once so it was the time of life to enjoy that.
Now my career needs a change sooner than later also(50-80hr/w of toxic environment is getting old) so I need to go back to school to get an old man career.
You basically just said what I have been thinking and the only question would be.

I know it's different for everyone but when dialed in with the extra energy and focus do you notice any effect on compulsiveness in any way?
(years ago I tried Zoloft and found it made things worse in that respect, basically made OCD's worse)

Umm..im not any more compulsive than i was before being on all the time. Maybe when it comes to sex...i take it whenever i can get it..luckily my lady loves it. But, before being on all the time, there were times i really didnt care about having sex.
 
Umm..im not any more compulsive than i was before being on all the time. Maybe when it comes to sex...i take it whenever i can get it..luckily my lady loves it. But, before being on all the time, there were times i really didnt care about having sex.
Be for i started trt and blasting and cruising i was the same way man now i feel like i did in my teens when it comes to sex anytime anywhere !
 
Thank you, nice perspective.
After my breakup and a little fun I decided to drop social and dating life till my boy was 18(next year). I only have one child and he will only be a child once so it was the time of life to enjoy that.
Now my career needs a change sooner than later also(50-80hr/w of toxic environment is getting old) so I need to go back to school to get an old man career.
You basically just said what I have been thinking and the only question would be.

I know it's different for everyone but when dialed in with the extra energy and focus do you notice any effect on compulsiveness in any way?
(years ago I tried Zoloft and found it made things worse in that respect, basically made OCD's worse)

Not on low dose test cruise. On 19-Nors or dht’s on a blast, absolutely..
 
Thanks guys, I appreciate your thoughts.

Just to clarify more, I’ve been blasting most of the last 6 months. On and off. I’m very used to the sides and what to expect. But my temper and compulsiveness is not always controlled perfectly. Knowing that when things come up, I’m able to reel it in most times. But it’s almost daily that I see something that typically would irritate me, and I ALMOST get violent or confrontational. Luckily I’m cognitive of why, and am able to stop myself. I have too much good in my life to catch an assault charge at the grocery store.
 
Just to clarify more, I’ve been blasting most of the last 6 months. On and off. I’m very used to the sides and what to expect. But my temper and compulsiveness is not always controlled perfectly. Knowing that when things come up, I’m able to reel it in most times. But it’s almost daily that I see something that typically would irritate me, and I ALMOST get violent or confrontational. Luckily I’m cognitive of why, and am able to stop myself. I have too much good in my life to catch an assault charge at the grocery store.

I am the exact same way. When buying a new phone the other day, it took a lot of self control not to drag the phone guy over the counter and choke slam him.
 
Just to clarify more, I’ve been blasting most of the last 6 months. On and off. I’m very used to the sides and what to expect. But my temper and compulsiveness is not always controlled perfectly. Knowing that when things come up, I’m able to reel it in most times. But it’s almost daily that I see something that typically would irritate me, and I ALMOST get violent or confrontational. Luckily I’m cognitive of why, and am able to stop myself. I have too much good in my life to catch an assault charge at the grocery store.

Too damn expensive to fight anymore
 
This is the exact reason I keep a disposable cbd vape pen with me at most times. After I stopped smoking weed I became very aggressive and confrontational, hitting a cbd vape does wonders.
 
This is the exact reason I keep a disposable cbd vape pen with me at most times. After I stopped smoking weed I became very aggressive and confrontational, hitting a cbd vape does wonders.

I need to look into this. For some reason even the chillest indica will make me wig out. I don’t know if it’s the BP drop or I can’t handle thc anymore but I still want the CBD and body high at least. Or even find a less psychoactive strain of indica. Sucks sometimes, can’t drink, can’t do pills, can’t even enjoy weed without wigging the fuk out...
 
I need to look into this. For some reason even the chillest indica will make me wig out. I don’t know if it’s the BP drop or I can’t handle thc anymore but I still want the CBD and body high at least. Or even find a less psychoactive strain of indica. Sucks sometimes, can’t drink, can’t do pills, can’t even enjoy weed without wigging the fuk out...

Yeah I hear ya. I stopped smoking about 2 months ago and have been 8 months sober from booze. For me cbd is super relaxing, great for a good nights sleep, I just miss thc sometimes haha
 
Just to clarify more, I’ve been blasting most of the last 6 months. On and off. I’m very used to the sides and what to expect. But my temper and compulsiveness is not always controlled perfectly. Knowing that when things come up, I’m able to reel it in most times. But it’s almost daily that I see something that typically would irritate me, and I ALMOST get violent or confrontational. Luckily I’m cognitive of why, and am able to stop myself. I have too much good in my life to catch an assault charge at the grocery store.

All the replies to this are so true. It's not the same world anymore, to many nanny laws.
Way to many new strains of idiot out too.
 
I need to look into this. For some reason even the chillest indica will make me wig out. I don’t know if it’s the BP drop or I can’t handle thc anymore but I still want the CBD and body high at least. Or even find a less psychoactive strain of indica. Sucks sometimes, can’t drink, can’t do pills, can’t even enjoy weed without wigging the fuk out...

That's sucky, after near 10 years off weed it took two weeks to force through that, it wasn't pleasant.
CBD only gives me slight calming but its the only thing that totally relaxes my mums damaged nerves.
 
That's sucky, after near 10 years off weed it took two weeks to force through that, it wasn't pleasant.
CBD only gives me slight calming but its the only thing that totally relaxes my mums damaged nerves.

Dude I wasn’t expecting to be as ****ed up as I was when I stopped smoking. The anxiety/depression/irritability was real. Almost ****ed up my 7 year relationship with my girl.
 
Dude I wasn’t expecting to be as ****ed up as I was when I stopped smoking. The anxiety/depression/irritability was real. Almost ****ed up my 7 year relationship with my girl.

That part took a few years to change when I quit back then but that was after smoking nearly 15 years.
 
Since we have a few weed connoisseurs here:

Is it just the amount of thc that’s in medical grade that’s making me wig out on it? I feel like I’m going to die on it and I get way dizzy too.
Or is it that I’m on cialis daily and it drops my BP too much and stresses me out?

Should I get a strain with low psychoactivity with just enough thc to activate the cbd so I can still get somewhat of a body high?
Or should I just resort to strong CBD only?
I want to use the stuff somehow but the last 3 times I’ve bought from the dispensary, the mellowest strains they have and I still thought I was going to die. My GF has 10 joints, won’t smoke alone, and I can’t drink with her so it would be great to be able to partake in something and get results other than stress
 
Just want to say also, this thread has been so much fun and an escape from daily bullshyt, with real talk and real life issues and not just: I Inclined 275 for 7 today. I love bodybuilding and I always will, but I come on here for more than just that.

My GF and I are renting her house out and buying a house together just a mile away and have been moving the last two days. My University I work for just had the busiest start of the year also so i worked 60 hours last week.
I should be able to post more in here after this weekend, it’s been a long ass week
 
Since we have a few weed connoisseurs here:

Is it just the amount of thc that’s in medical grade that’s making me wig out on it? I feel like I’m going to die on it and I get way dizzy too.
Or is it that I’m on cialis daily and it drops my BP too much and stresses me out?

Should I get a strain with low psychoactivity with just enough thc to activate the cbd so I can still get somewhat of a body high?
Or should I just resort to strong CBD only?
I want to use the stuff somehow but the last 3 times I’ve bought from the dispensary, the mellowest strains they have and I still thought I was going to die. My GF has 10 joints, won’t smoke alone, and I can’t drink with her so it would be great to be able to partake in something and get results other than stress

I’d try cbd vape(hits instantly) and some form of tincture/edibles. The gummy bears are so good but take a while to kick in. I ate too many of them once and I was knocked the **** out. Maybe try a combo of weed/cbd, the cbd will take away some of the high.
 
Since we have a few weed connoisseurs here:

Is it just the amount of thc that’s in medical grade that’s making me wig out on it? I feel like I’m going to die on it and I get way dizzy too.
Or is it that I’m on cialis daily and it drops my BP too much and stresses me out?

Should I get a strain with low psychoactivity with just enough thc to activate the cbd so I can still get somewhat of a body high?
Or should I just resort to strong CBD only?
I want to use the stuff somehow but the last 3 times I’ve bought from the dispensary, the mellowest strains they have and I still thought I was going to die. My GF has 10 joints, won’t smoke alone, and I can’t drink with her so it would be great to be able to partake in something and get results other than stress

I stopped smoking weed around 13 years ago. Used to smoke a lot but unlike every other recreational drug and alcohol I didn’t used to constantly want more and more. I got stoned and chilled till i wasn’t as stoned then blazed again.

Are you finishing a joint each time it’s rolled? My standard was to have 2 or 3 pulls and just leave it for a bit, then go back to it.......rather than just blazing a full joint and then it hitting you just taking much longer and allowing it to build slowly always meant I never had issues with weed. That very nature of it I always felt was suited to being smoked in that way as well....
 
I stopped smoking weed around 13 years ago. Used to smoke a lot but unlike every other recreational drug and alcohol I didn’t used to constantly want more and more. I got stoned and chilled till i wasn’t as stoned then blazed again.

Are you finishing a joint each time it’s rolled? My standard was to have 2 or 3 pulls and just leave it for a bit, then go back to it.......rather than just blazing a full joint and then it hitting you just taking much longer and allowing it to build slowly always meant I never had issues with weed. That very nature of it I always felt was suited to being smoked in that way as well....

Im out of this one boys. The last i smoked was college...****1ty mexican dirt weed with seeds exploding out of the bowl. We used to smoke and watch The Wall..the pink floyd movie...damn im old.
 
Since we have a few weed connoisseurs here:

Is it just the amount of thc that’s in medical grade that’s making me wig out on it? I feel like I’m going to die on it and I get way dizzy too.
Or is it that I’m on cialis daily and it drops my BP too much and stresses me out?

Should I get a strain with low psychoactivity with just enough thc to activate the cbd so I can still get somewhat of a body high?
Or should I just resort to strong CBD only?
I want to use the stuff somehow but the last 3 times I’ve bought from the dispensary, the mellowest strains they have and I still thought I was going to die. My GF has 10 joints, won’t smoke alone, and I can’t drink with her so it would be great to be able to partake in something and get results other than stress

Far from connoisseur but as said try vaping and edibles, they are a little different to smoking so you might not get that wigging out.
I found the strain white dominia was very psychoactive but had awesome clarity and nearly no anxiety.
Stims with THC seems to heighten any of the negatives imo too.
CBD could knock something out of the THC that screws with you, you could try blending oils to vape and see if you can find a sweet spot. Takes time though, you only get one try a day really.
 
Im out of this one boys. The last i smoked was college...****1ty mexican dirt weed with seeds exploding out of the bowl. We used to smoke and watch The Wall..the pink floyd movie...damn im old.

Holy **** that brings back memories.
 
I stopped smoking weed around 13 years ago. Used to smoke a lot but unlike every other recreational drug and alcohol I didn’t used to constantly want more and more. I got stoned and chilled till i wasn’t as stoned then blazed again.

Are you finishing a joint each time it’s rolled? My standard was to have 2 or 3 pulls and just leave it for a bit, then go back to it.......rather than just blazing a full joint and then it hitting you just taking much longer and allowing it to build slowly always meant I never had issues with weed. That very nature of it I always felt was suited to being smoked in that way as well....

A couple of these, 2 pulls and I’m out of my mind. It’s nuts.
 
Far from connoisseur but as said try vaping and edibles, they are a little different to smoking so you might not get that wigging out.
I found the strain white dominia was very psychoactive but had awesome clarity and nearly no anxiety.
Stims with THC seems to heighten any of the negatives imo too.
CBD could knock something out of the THC that screws with you, you could try blending oils to vape and see if you can find a sweet spot. Takes time though, you only get one try a day really.

This is good info, I need to find a sweet spot of just a smidge of vape cannabis and some CBD oil. I will give this try.
 
Just want to say also, this thread has been so much fun and an escape from daily bullshyt, with real talk and real life issues and not just: I Inclined 275 for 7 today. I love bodybuilding and I always will, but I come on here for more than just that.

My GF and I are renting her house out and buying a house together just a mile away and have been moving the last two days. My University I work for just had the busiest start of the year also so i worked 60 hours last week.
I should be able to post more in here after this weekend, it’s been a long ass week

Wait did you actually incline 275x7??

And yeah I feel you; I always listen to the Gear’d Up podcast because when they do talk bodybuilding they are very straightforward, but it’s mainly just guys who are all bodybuilders talking real life.

That podcast is gold.
 
Just want to say also, this thread has been so much fun and an escape from daily bullshyt, with real talk and real life issues and not just: I Inclined 275 for 7 today. I love bodybuilding and I always will, but I come on here for more than just that.

My GF and I are renting her house out and buying a house together just a mile away and have been moving the last two days. My University I work for just had the busiest start of the year also so i worked 60 hours last week.
I should be able to post more in here after this weekend, it’s been a long ass week

This has been my therapy, my insurance decided they didn’t want to pay for me to continue seeing my therapist, so you meatheads are my therapists now haha
 
This has been my therapy, my insurance decided they didn’t want to pay for me to continue seeing my therapist, so you meatheads are my therapists now haha

It also beats talking to compleat morons all the time also.
 
Wait did you actually incline 275x7??

And yeah I feel you; I always listen to the Gear’d Up podcast because when they do talk bodybuilding they are very straightforward, but it’s mainly just guys who are all bodybuilders talking real life.

That podcast is gold.

275 for 7...not too shabby for your body weight. That will go way up as you get bigger. Keep at it my friend
 
Wait did you actually incline 275x7??

And yeah I feel you; I always listen to the Gear’d Up podcast because when they do talk bodybuilding they are very straightforward, but it’s mainly just guys who are all bodybuilders talking real life.

That podcast is gold.

2016 I could incline not too far off from my flat. It was 275x4 but I’ve hit 335x4 on my first test cycle ever on flat bench. I typically don’t even know what my 1RM is... I should say, I’ve never been super strong nor really tried to be all that strong. But I’ve always loved bodybuilding and physique training, and there’s always a point where you have to shift your training to strength emphasis to get that extra size. Which I’m learning now as I struggle to move any decent amount of weight and desperately want size.

Plus I hate most people, especially at the gym, and I want to walk past them all to the further end of the weights, and with a look of pity, arrogance and some disgust, pick up only 100lb dumbbells and up, while they struggle with 60x3 and then high five each other with their thong style tank tops and their massive beats headphones and yoga pants and man-buns.
Confused ass bytch kids that they are these days.

Sounds like a great podcast. I’ll check it out..
 
Well, I'm going to the store to get some chips and dip. Fcuk a "cut". I'll need some emotional support in the morning as well. :]
 
Well, I'm going to the store to get some chips and dip. Fcuk a "cut". I'll need some emotional support in the morning as well. :]

Today is Father's Day, I have all the emotional support I need.
Spring Cleaning.
Wild Turkey.
Mcdonalds.
Son to guilt trip all day.
 
Today is Father's Day, I have all the emotional support I need.
Spring Cleaning.
Wild Turkey.
Mcdonalds.
Son to guilt trip all day.

I had Burger King already. And I don't even Like it. I blame the Lager.
 
I had Burger King already. And I don't even Like it. I blame the Lager.

Some days you just gotta take the good with the bad. My ex gave me the Turkey for Father's Day, and I don't really like her, doesn't mean I'm not drinking it though.
 
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