Well if Supersoldier is going to subscribe...
Let's see, where do I begin? Well, I took most everyone's advice and sent her a "so long" message the other day. I basically told her what everyone here has said, that this isn't fair to me, blah blah blah. And, as I expected, she responded. It seems some people only respond to ultimatums
. Anyway, she wrote back telling me all the things I wanted her to say from the start, that she was just scared and wanted time to herself that
didn't include talking to me or dealing with the situation. In my reply, I told her that I assumed most of that, but she had written in her blog that she wanted to talk and continue to be friends like we had been up until that point. So in my reply I laid everything on the table, telling her that I was over most of it, and it wasn't as serious as she had built it up in her mind, both things a little untrue. She read it and didn't reply.
So I took a shower and remembered something. Some friends had mentioned to me that they wanted to go to the Galleria in Birmingham that weekend. I knew that she works there (because she told me), and I also knew that she was coming home to Birmingham that weekend (also because she told me). By "that weekend" I mean the weekend that
just ended. So she read that message too but didn't reply.
Fast forward a few days, and we're at the Galleria. If any of you have ever been there you know that it is absolutely
crawling with beautiful women. That's beside the point, but if any of you guys have ever thought about visiting the largest mall in Alabama, you would do well to check it out
Anyway, we're there walking around, doing this and that, and we eventually make our way to American Eagle where she works. And of course, she's not there. Damnit. My friend asked some guy that works there if she was coming in that day (Saturday), and he said he didn't know. We walked around some more, blah blah blah, and my friend Jay and I were walking by AE again on our way to meet my other friend at Macy's. I popped in and asked a different guy if he knew if she was working that day. He said she wasn't.
So on we go to Macy's where my friend and I wait while my other friend tries on the whole store. While waiting I said, "what the hell, I'll call her. I've got nothing to lose." So I called her from my friend's phone because mine is crap. To my surprise, she answered. She seemed somewhat surprised when she heard that it was me, but I don't really know why because she doesn't know anyone except me in the 334 area code, which is the number I called from. So we talked for a few minutes. It was casual conversation where she didn't act strange or in a rush to get off the phone. It was just normal. She explained to me (without my asking) why she didn't come home that weekend, then I let her go.
Later that night - Saturday night - I sent her a message on Myspace. It was short and to the point. I told her it was good to talk to her, and I hoped she would have a good weekend. She read it and didn't reply. Granted, it wasn't a reply-necessary message, but it would've been nice.
So I made a decision this morning. I decided to remove her from my friends list, remove all my comments from her profile, and remove her subscription to my blog. I don't know why I did that because she won't notice for a few reasons.
1. She gets on Myspace for a total of 30 seconds every day, whereas she used to spend hours there.
2. I'm not in her top 8, and she has 467 friends. How would she notice that I'm gone?
I didn't want to do it, and I don't really know why I did, but whatever. I got tired of seeing her leave comments on people's profiles while ignoring my messages. So, I guess that's the end of it. Now you guys can rejoice that I finally did what you wanted. I hope somebody is happy about the whole thing.
Sorry to waste your time with the subscription, Supersoldier.
I am today. So anyway she completely stopped talking to me (after she told me she loved me), and I was devistated. I was completely obsessed (which I can say now, but back then I was "in love"). I Still wrote her a lot, gave her some, kept some. Called every couple weeks, nothing. Finally her mom got involved, and was half nice, but told me to leave her alone or there would be consequences. 
BUT I've walked away with a lesson that you can't tell a woman your feelings until the RIGHT TIME and it's a ONE SHOT DEAL and it has to be when the same things are on her mind, otherwise you lose your standing in her eyes. Sometimes we talk, but I know it could never be the same again. Once a girls interest levels drops below a certain level, you will never be as attractive in her eyes again and if she does come back to you, chances are it will be short-lived (your a backup plan).