Crazy story! I don’t doubt that some of what I’m experiencing is in my head, but I’m not sure about all of it. I’m becoming more open to the idea though too. I’m open to anything that’ll make this go away.
Regarding ZMA, I’ve read some stuff recently that aspartate can be toxic. Any thoughts on that?
I use it all the time and don't know of any issues. I honestly think the "ZMA" formula can be a little overblown. Magnesium itself provides the benefits. Zing Glycinate is cheap enough too and you could get a 3 month supply for like 20 bucks. I personally use Gut Health before bed also, so I've been thinking of just getting the Mag Glycinate and taking it with Gut Health which has Zinc in it anyway.
It sucks that it won't seem to go away for you. I will share another, probably uninteresting, story about myself.
When I was a teenager I LIVED for playing the guitar. I walked around my house with it around my shoulders 24/7. I practically slept with it. Thing was, I wish I knew how to actually learn and practice at that time because I would have been much better, but I was just wasting time. And when I played in school bands, bands with friends, etc. - there was always this sense of competition about it. Like was I as good as the other guitarist? Could I amaze everyone? It's funny but it kind of, without my realizing it, took all the fun out of playing. I was playing for everyone else and stopped playing because I liked playing. It wasn't about what I wanted to do anymore, it was about what I thought other people thought I should be doing.
At any rate, I got through college and played less and less until I was in the real world. Then I stopped playing entirely. After about 10 years I went and grabbed my guitar and would pick it up and try to play - but I just sucked. I couldn't do anything anymore. So, in disappointment I would put the guitar away and it would sit for a while...until I came back maybe 6 months or a year later and did the same thing - played for 10 minutes and got disappointed and gave up.
Then one day, I decided - I used to love playing. I don't care if I am good or not anymore. No one has to hear me. I decided to hang my guitar on the wall in my home office, where I spend a lot of time making phone calls and working on the computer, etc. And it was right there where I could grab it all the time. Sometimes I would need a 5 minute break from making calls or need time to think about a business strategy, etc. and I would just pick it up and play.
After a few months of just having it around again and not putting pressure on it, I actually started getting my fingers working again. I could kind of sort of play. Over the last couple years I've gained a lot back. And I haven't even tried. It's just been in my down time. And rather than being a competition or something else to stress about, it actually has become the therapy.
Sometimes, you just gotta have 5 minute breaks where you do something, just for yourself.
Not saying this even pertains to this situation, because frankly I don't know you except on here and I barely see the situation - but regardless, this is a lesson I've learned over the past couple years that I think has had a profound impact on me. It's one of those small habits that had a bigger impact than I ever imagined.