Aaaaaand this is the red flag you should be focusing on. Forget using gear or not, forget bodybuilding - we’re now talking about you talking about marrying a woman you met at the beginning of college who would threaten your freedom to selfishly control your relationship.She knows the cop and the cop knows her and she told the cop I was her boyfriend. Didnt show my face but he can see her snapchat story and Instagram story, so he knows my face now. I feel as if it’s a threat and the cop will act on it if she tells him
Is that what you really want in this life?
Or do you want someone who will be at your shows screaming your name, who will suck your dick after an exhausting leg day with no expectations, who understands when you’re in prep & will stay home with you instead of dragging you to a party, so you can get up for training rested in the morning?
This lifestyle can be extremely selfish at the competitive level. You must have someone on board.