Why dont you mess with tren?
Pretty much every reason for it.
1. Anxiety
2. I’m old. And what’s worse, I am a total bitch if I get less than 6-7 hours sleep. It doesn’t work for me.
3. TREST, not Tren, soaks both my pillows every night and my half of the sheets. If you think my girlfriend is all cool and supportive with a competition obsessed athlete that’s always abandoning her to run off and train, sometimes to feed the kids dinner and clean up the house by herself. Well, she’s not.
She believes in me, and me excelling in other areas of our life as a partner gives her just enough understanding and acceptance of all the illegal orders showing up in the mail, my time in this forum, the side effects, and all the bullshit that comes with being with a steroid user.... But I CANNOT sweat anymore than I already do in bed. She will leave if I start sweating onto her side of the bed.
4. Probably the most important. I strongly feel, guys with shitty temperaments do quite well with Tren to a degree( not actual psychopaths) reason being is they are quite used to anger and confrontation more often and have means of suppressing it and can handle it pretty well. Weird theory I know.
I, however am extremely mild mannered. I have two modes; total pushover and violent.
Violent only shows up once every 5 years or so and usually comes about from someone messing w my kids or my girl, or my family. Or they do something super rude and disrespectful way beyond normal stuff.
So I basically am a pushover 99.9% of the time, I’ll stand up for myself but I’m very calm and polite about it.
One time on just some test/Trest Ace/Dbol - all low doses and know for feel-good not super over the top aggressive behaviors: a guy purposely didn’t stop in a crosswalk all shitty and Punkassy like he would hit me. So I stopped and turned toward him and he kept pulling up and stopped right before me, stuck his head out the window and said some shitty ghetto bullshit like “dumb mythafuckin cracker betta step aside when I driving at you” and he rolled his window and sped off, I walked in the store, pissed, looked out the window and he didn’t leave he pulled around and parked in the back. I snuck out another entrance in a rage and got to my car, grabbed my pistol out of the door and started trotting over to him at an angle he wouldn’t see. Well, 2 car lengths away I cocked my arm back so when I got to the window I could smash it with the full magazine or stock. He caught me on the rear view and peeled out the spot and bailed outta there. I went to put my gun back in the car and started thinking, ‘I was just going to smash someone’s window of their car and point a gun in their face because they “disrespected me” and didn’t slow down In a crosswalk? I started really thinking about catching an assault charge on gear because I’m so lousy at confrontation. Most people think I’m a pussy since they never see me really go back and forth or say aggressive things or have a heated argument. I’m not a talker. If ****’s going south I just go right to violence if I know it’s already going there. This is all because I can’t seem to be comfortable in uncomfortable situations.
But with gear it only amplifies my inability to have minor confrontations and jumps from me minding my own business to assault. Which is not a fun charge in Arizona or anywhere and could potentially restrict my right to own firearms. That’s a big deal to me. The ONLY other time I pointed a gun toward someone was when a tweaker was reaching for my door handle when I had both my boys in car seats in the back. Just tapped it against the window and calmly asked him to move away. The whole grocery store was psychotic rage that could have ruined my life with criminal charges.
It’s not too hard with my stressful life to keep my **** together with the drugs I use. It certainly would be a lot harder though with Tren.
So short answer: can’t have any worse night sweat than I already do, sleep is too important, I don’t trust that my very distant threshold for violence would be uncomfortably closer. I have too much to risk. Plus the gf can handle my temperament now since I cut her a lot of slack for her feistyness, but we would be a shitshow if I had a shorter fuse, I’d say stuff that we couldn’t repair probably.
It’s just too dark of a drug for me. They all make me a little angrier and more irritable. But that one is on its own level.