I’m really rooting for the MT2 to help you out and get you those boners you deserve...but don’t sleep Jinsun’s advice to take some time off. You’re in your early 20’s right? But you sound like you’ve run as much gear as the OG’s on here that are 50+...you’ve got a lot of life left to live bro.
I also think I remember you saying in the past that you didn’t really jerk off as a teenager, am I remembering that right? That makes me think that you could benefit from some sort of mental therapy. I’m not a urologist, but I think the desire to masturbate as a teenage boy is akin to an addict committing crimes to get their next hit. If you didn’t have a borderline uncontrollable urge to jerk off as a teenager, I think your ED/libido problems preceded your gear usage.
Man i am astonished at how much you remember about me.
23 yo currently amd yes that is true i never had an urge. You may be right about this low libido thing preceeding my gear usage. I had some libido in my teens but it dropped dramatically around age 17-18 from what i recall.
I also remember vividly being 16 and documenting how i didnt get a single boner for a month during summer vacation, thats when red flag appeared to me, but unfortunately i never went to the doc.
Also i believed masturbation was a waste of energy and didnt want my focus and drive in school and the gym to suffer. But true i never really wanted it.
Therapy wont help i think. I dont have anxiety and i feel comfortable when i am with a girl i have feelings for. I have no problems connecting with her, making out, cuddling etc. I just dont feel pressure building up down there and therefore stay limp.
I feel exactly the way i felt before puberty.
Fun fact; if i take a very low dose of aromasin off cycle, my libido skyrockets. Hpta upregulationis the cause.
250mcg dose failed to produce results. Next I will try, and i will probably regret this, 500mcg +. But if all i get are stomach cramps again, i am washing it down the toilet.