Here they are T-Bone, here is what a month of no training and unlimited eating with No Ursobolic has done to me
Thanks, and yeah I'm honest hence the name, but I didn't wanna post those pics especially the love handle one, a little too honest for me lol
I should say fatter, not fat, if you look back in this log to my pic of 1995 that was fat, No I am just angry that I added the saddle bags and completely lost all my definition over the course of a month, when it is so hard to get it back. .......oh and I am usually smiling just not in my pics need to keep my hardcore image LOL
Indeed sir, workout tonight was again more intense than intended will post later. Feel the appetite suppression from the ursobolic already. Looking at my latest pics I guess not to bad since I haven't been able to work out properly for over two months and one month of unrestrained candy eating, only my abs and shoulders deserted me. My chest and especially my guns seem to have loyally stood by me
Totally honest answer....I am the Truth after all.....Severe depression....deep dark suicidal depression. Food was my escape, I was married to a woman I despised but did not want to lose the daughter I loved more than life. I thought about killing myself, but knew that would wreak havoc on my daughter and the rest of my family. So I used food as an escape from my life. I was working 6 days a week sometimes 12-14 hrs a day. I would eat two twelve inch meatball subs at lunch, I drank sometimes a gallon of Coca Cola a day I went through a case of corn chips and a cafeteria size can of nacho sauce every week. Its a miracle I wasn't larger. I was getting ready to go on a business trip and had to buy new pants, when I held up the trousers that now fit and looked at the width of them I thought to myself no f'in way am I going to be this big. I went on Atkins and lost 100 pounds in two months. I worked out tried to focus my depression into my workouts and it worked. Working out saved my life. I still suffer from depression. I used to be medicated for it and hated the flat feeling almost as much as depression. Now I use body building. Its the greatest cure for depression in the world I still get depressed but after a hard work out and a glance in the mirror of the results, life just isn't that bad. I know that was more of an answer than you were looking for, but hopefully it may help some one that has similar feelings. Regarding the suicidal thoughts remember this, there is nothing so bad that suicide is the solution, it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. There is absolutely nothing in life so horrible that we cannot overcome it...and that is the truth.
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Unfortunately this was a regular. I hope there is some recomp, I feel a lot stronger but then I always do when I gain weight. My legs especially have grown and feel stronger than before I know they are bigger cuz' even my loose jeans are tight in the thigh. As far as the carbs, I am trying to keep my metabolism high while I lose, so sometimes I add some carbs in the AM I figure that is the best time of day and what better day than leg day?
Yeah, that's in water and Yeah! I get hungry. Down 4 lbs since Monday, probably water weight,
Glad you are still kicking, I don't know about making you look weak, I saw your Sumo Dead lift vid, that looked pretty strong to me.yo man I am here
Glad to hear you have found a way to make your training less painful! I usually try to find ways to make training work for my body, be it grip, or bar positioning. You make me look so weak bro! Your workouts are BEAST!
keep killing it man!
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Glad you are still kicking, I don't know about making you look weak, I saw your Sumo Dead lift vid, that looked pretty strong to me.
I'll tell you what, why is it when people know you are dieting or at least trying to eat healthy they tempt you with all kinds of stuff. There was an entire desktop covered in panera bread pastries and I had to resist....but I did not want to, wanted to wade in and pig out
No one I work with works out much if any. I am pretty much a phenom at my work(that's not saying a lot
EXACTLY!! My favorite line is this "I could look like that if I wanted to." Really you'd rather have the beer belly. Lets be honest folks. Matt, I've I seen video of you working out and I know how I work out and there is no doubt that there is a healthy dose of pain involved. Then add the self denial that the dieting involves and I think it is a little more involved than "if I wanted to" though there is some "Truth" in that......you have to REALLY WANT TO!! I promise you my want and dedication will be evident and March 2nd at the Arnold ClassicMuch easier trying to make you fat and weak than trying to become strong and lean.
Most my friends understand that I do what I do because I love it. Not here though... temptation is everywhere and most of my co-workers (Japanese) cannot understand why I do what I do at all. I am always asked "Why do you need that much muscle?". I just tell them i'm strange. Dont' wanna be mean and ask them "Why do you need that much fat?" that's why.... hehe.
No cheat Dammit, cheating today just a littleHow'd the weekend go, Truth? Cheat or no cheat?
I could have done more, I felt so strong but my knees were grumbling a bit. That is the worst part about getting old. My muscles are strong as ever....but all the supporting structures, tendons ligaments and cartilage are not and they limit me, when I want to run they force me to stop
I don't know, joint force helps alot, elbow pain was un bearable before I started using that stuff. I think there is stem cell therapy that is experimental that is supposed to like totally reline your joints with fresh cartilage. If I could have my knees elbows and shoulders relined, I'd show you something, I would unleash the beast and really get huge
Sorry I missed this post before it was not my intention to ignore it. My diet grew out of the Atkins, I used to go really low carb, and a lean bulk diet I found somewhere. I at one time had checked all the macros, now I know roughly how much I lose on and at what point I start to gain. If I find myself getting hungry, I drop carbs and add fat. Under 20 grams of carbs a day, I can eat all the fat and protein I want and never gain an ounce. I suggest starting here
Thanks, I wish I felt like that every day, Damn that was good, better than anything outside sex
