Restoring Rosie: AN calls in the full cavalry (and a few extras)

[Rosie Chee]

Day 48

Before I start: Finished up my bottle of NeoVar Recomped yesterday. Matt was kind enough to send me some Cre-02 samples, so I shall be using them for the next few days (until fresh supplies of NeoVar Recomped arrive), dosing at 3 caps 120 minutes pre-resistance training.

I took my first dose (3 caps) of Cre-02 at 0730 this morning.


0832 - HIIT Rollers:
a. 4 min in 39x17 @ 110 rpm @ 75-80% HRmax
b. 8 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy in 39x16 (HR 85-95% HRmax, rpm N/A)
c. 2 min in 39x17 @ 110 rpm (HR dropped back to 80% HRmax)
d. 10 min in 39x16 @ 90% HRmax @ 130 rpm
e. 1 min in 39x17 @ 110 rpm (HR dropped back to 80% HRmax)
Good session today. I got on the rollers in not so great a state of mind, and it was mindless spinning for the first 4 minutes. Efforts were ok, but nothing great; and HR rose very rapidly and stayed fairly high. Had a couple of minutes 'easy' afterwards. And then upped the gear and the cadence. To be honest, I didn't expect 130 rpm to be as easy as it was, considering how I had been feeling. However, it felt no different than the 110 rpm, and within 2-3 minutes my HR was back up at 90% HRmax, where it stayed until I changed the pace. I did a minute easy at the end of the session, to let my body 'ease out of' exercise...

0935 - Full-Body:
1. CG PU 4 x 10, 8, 8, 6 (3 min recovery)
2. LP - feet high 4 x 6 (1 min recovery)
3. Inc. DB BP 4 x 6 (1 min recovery)
Superset A (1 min recovery)
4. BB SP 4 x 6
5. Inc. DB RR 4 x 12
Triset A (1 min recovery)
6. Weighted Dips 4 x 10
7. Alt. DB HC 4 x 10
8. DB ZC 4 x 10
Superset B (30 sec recovery)
9. Weighted crunch 3 x 15
10. Knee-ins (on bench) 3 x 20
Walked into the gym pumped and ready for action! Started out with CG PU, since someone was using the LP. Managed reasonably well with an extra 4kg (i.e. 8.8lb), so not bad. I was doing them slow as well, which made it a little harder. But, an improvement...Over to the LP. Only 242.4kg (i.e. 532.84lb) today, for less reps than last time, but hamstrings were feeling it, and each set was trembling. Lower legs looked pretty good from what I could see, trying to breathe, LOL...To Inc. DB BP. Since they've replaced some of the DB, I went down a weight from what I WOULD normally have used (and also because arms were fatigued) and managed ok (just) with them...Supersetted BB SP and Inc. DB RR. Started at 40kg (i.e. 88lb), adding weight for the second set of BB SP, and then again for third, going back down a little for the last set. Used a 'middleground' weight (i.e. not as high as I would for 8-10 reps, but more than I would for 12-15 reps) for Inc. DB RR, and last set was pushing it...I wasn't initially going to do a triset for Arms, but it ended up as one. Dips done with an extra 17.5kg (i.e. 38.5lb), and on the last couple of reps on the last set I was going superslow trying to get them out. After 10 reps of the first set of Alt. DB HC I decided to change over to DB ZC for a further 10 reps (which made it a triset then on). Had to dropset the weight for the last 3 sets of DB HC...Finished off with an Abs superset...Great session. I felt good. No headaches, although a couple of times when I felt like I was going to fall over and had to steady myself...

1117 - Stretch 20 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0200-0600, so ~4 hours sleep. Now THAT is looking more like 'normal'. It took me ages to go to sleep last night (dosing RPM 3 hours before bed didn't help), though; I went to bed at 2300, and was up and down all night to the bathroom (guess that's what you get for drinking half a galleon of water in the hour before going to bed), and then was having trouble breathing IN bed. Anyways, sleep was deep. No dreams. Didn't get up until 0700, and was fairly with it this morning...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Still not really wanting to do anything much. Study needs to be done, and it's still waiting to be started. Right now I'm pretty blank...

Energy: Had it this morning. Kind of disappeared after the gym, though...

Motivation: There. Right now I want to hammer my body so that I can't feel the other pain...

Mood/Aggression: Nothing. Right now I couldn't give a sh*t about anything much...

Stress: High.

Libido: Not there at all.

Joints: Fine.

Endurance: Good.

Strength: Maintaining.

Quality of Training: Really excellent, today. BOTH sessions!

Pump and Vascularity: Pump ok in the gym...Vascularity not so great; but better after my shower post-gym...

Muscle Hardness/Density Upper body.

Body Composition and Look: Got told that my abs are looking better. Also, lower legs looked pretty good today in the gym (couldn't see any more, because I had on long boardies). Upper body continuing to come along; starting to like arms better.

Appetite: None. Maybe it's all the stress or depression? (Although, in the past when feeling like this, I would usually be binging >8000 cal/days). Still thirsty as anything, but no desire for food whatsoever, and I'm having to FORCE myself to eat (if I eat; otherwise I just have a protein shake), and it's taking ages to eat (when usually a meal takes me less than a few minutes to finish).

Overall Sense of Feeling: I die a little bit more each day...

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 49

Decided to wait 30 minutes before taking my 'first thing in the morning' supplement doses today, since otherwise it would be me having almost half a galleon of water in 30 minutes (and was too much yesterday). So, took everything (including Cre-02) at 0730.


0832 - HIIT Rollers:
a. 4 min in 39x17 @ 75-80% HRmax @ 120 rpm
b. 16 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy in 39x16 (HR 85-90% HRmax, rpm N/A)
c. 8 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy in 39x15 (HR 85-90% HRmax, rpm N/A)
d. 4 min in 39x16 @ 80-85% HRmax @ 116 rpm
WOW, is all I can say about this session. Started out pretty well. I felt fast from the first effort. After 8 efforts I was like "what the hell, keep going, do 8 more". After 8 more I was still on a high and feeling strong, so went down a gear and did 8 MORE! Aggression and something else kept me going, and by the end of the efforts not sure how much of the slick dripping off my face was sweat and how much were angry tears. Honestly, if it wasn't for the fact that my resistance session was in 40 minutes I would have kept going! I finished off with 4 minutes at a pace that a few days ago would have left me almost in shock. I could also feel my right shin 'pulling' just a little, but I put that down to simply doing more efforts than usual, and in a higher gear. THIS IS HOW ALL CARDIO SESSIONS SHOULD BE!!!

0932 - Chest (1 min recovery):
1. Flat BB BP 6 x 6
2. Inc. DB BP 5 x 8
3. P/U (feet on bench, hands on m/b) 4 x 10
4. Incline Barbell Bench Press (Inc. BB BP) 3 x 12
5. Cable Crossovers 2 x 15
Back to Body-Parts...For each exercise today, I decided on selecting a weight that I could complete all the 'assigned' sets and reps with...Started out with Flat BB BP. The weight I had on was actually what I would be struggling with on the last couple of reps of the last set of 4 x 6. You could say I was VERY stoked when I got to the end of the fourth set and was finding I had something STILL there (and I'd done all withOUT a spotter today, which is SOMETHING). So I did a couple more sets...Inc. DB BP. Weight was what I would do 4 x 8-10 with. Again, managed well, with wrists staying strong, and doing it alone (once DB in position)...To P/U. I could see my right upper arm trembling each time I went down. Good, though...Inc. BB BP. I haven't done this in a while (like DB better for Inc. BP), and the weight I put on was something I had done for 2-4 x 8-10 the last time I did it. Which meant that I was struggling badly on the last set, and my last few reps were to elbow flexion of 90 degrees (i.e. what is accepted as full range of motion), instead of the BB all the way to touching my chest (i.e. what I consider to be the full range of motion)...Finished with Cable Crossovers. REALLY feeling it in upper arms by the end of it (considering they were a little achy from the last few days' resistance sessions)...All in all, a very good session. And at only 36 minutes, the SHORTEST I've done in months. Great stuff...

1023 - Stretch 20 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2230-0630 (waking at 0600), so ~8 hours sleep. Easy to get to sleep last night; not long after going to bed I was out like a light (exhausted). A few random dreams, but not many. Stayed in bed until 0700.

Mental Alertness/Focus: Better. Starting the study today, if only getting a couple of hours done. Four more sleeps until my biggest exam of the last 3 years...

Energy: Actually, this has been AMAZING so far today!

Motivation: A little more positive.

Mood/Aggression: Ok...

Stress: High.

Libido: None.

Joints: Good.

Endurance: Excellent.

Strength: Improving.

Quality of Training: Excellent! I could have kept training for far longer today!...The last couple of days has seen an incredible improvement in the way my BODY is feeling during training. HIIT has been better. And as the week has gone on, my resistance sessions keep getting BETTER, too. I am wondering if the Cre-02 is kicking in earlier and contributing some to this, since it is dosed 60-min pre-cardio (and 120 min pre-gym)? Or maybe it's been because dosing RPM and Drive just BEFORE I get on the rollers, and they are having some effect? Or perhaps my body just needs something every day! Anyways, so far I am pleased with how training has been going :woohoo::woohoo::woohoo:

Pump and Vascularity: Pump there some...Vascularity pretty average in the gym; better after a shower...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Starting to feel it more, especially after 4 resistance sessions 4 days in a row.

Body Composition and Look: Anterior deltoid definition starting to become out more.

Appetite: None. Still...I forced myself to eat a HUGE meal last night, simply because I hadn't eaten anything except breakfast (and several protein shakes) all day for the last couple of days...Mouth has been dry as and thirst is through the roof (2 galleons of water a day and I'm in the bathroom like every 10-20 minutes; very annoying!)

Overall Sense of Feeling: "Que sera, sera."

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 50

0900 - Rollers:
60 min in 39x17 @ 65-75% HRmax @ 116-120 rpm
I didn't intend on this session being that long. I just got on the rollers, and quickly assumed autopilot, just because I wanted to do SOMETHING (and don't want any days off for a while). Body settled at a rhythm. Next thing you know 30 minutes was gone, and then 45. If I hadn't finished 1.5 litres of water by 46 minutes, then I probably would have kept going for another 30 minutes...

1050 - Stretch 21 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2230-0723 (waking at 0630 and 0700), so just under 9 hours sleep. No dreams. Just very deep and dark.

Mental Alertness/Focus: Not been there today. At ~1024 I suddenly got the wickedest migraine and fatigue, so much so that I went back to bed after stretching; and have recently taken some Panadol Rapid (I normally never use painkillers, as they never work), hoping that the migraine will go away; so that I can actually DO some study today (stress, stress, stress)...

Energy: None. Not since ~1024.

Motivation: So far no days off in the last 2 weeks; got to be SOME motivation in that!

Mood/Aggression: Very, very tired...Pretty quietly happy after that 9-hour conversation yesterday (yes, a new record; but we NEEDED it!)...Just need to get focussed for study (which right now I couldn't give a toss about; and with only a week left to go, not too great an attitude to be having)...

Stress: I cannot express how HIGH this is right now. It's so much that my wisdom teeth are coming up (making me feel like shite on top of everything)...

Libido: Yeah. Been high the last day and a half. Not so much now, though (too 'tired'...)

Joints: Good.

Endurance: Excellent.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Good. More 'recovery' and just DOING SOMEthing.

Pump and Vascularity: Pump in arms after the rollers, which is weird...Vascularity fairly average today...

Muscle Hardness/Density: A lot of all over today...

Body Composition and Look: Soft, after all the carbohydrates yesterday...Chest is leaner, though...

Appetite: Not a lot today...Wasn't much yesterday, either. Although I DID end up going out and eating loads of pumpernickel bagels and half a litre of ice-cream...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Fatigued. Wishing I could fast-forward a week...

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 51

I did NOT take any Cre-02 today, as I wanted to 'compare' today's session with how I felt and performed yesterday and Saturday...


1138 - HIIT Rollers:
a. 4 min in 39x17 @ 75% HRmax @ 104 rpm
b. 8 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy in 39x16 (HR 80% HRmax, rpm N/A)
c. 2 min in 39x17 @ 114 rpm (HR dropped back to 75% HRmax)
d. 6 min in 39x16 @ 75-80% HRmax @ 114 rpm
e. 4 min in 39x15 @ 75-80% HRmax @ 110 rpm
Legs were a bit sluggish starting out. HR was not rising for some reason. Even during efforts and spinning hard out HR would just NOT go UP (too tired?) After a couple of 'easy' minutes at the end of my efforts, I decided to up the gear and cadence, and see what happened. After 6 minutes I upped the gear again, but cadence dropped back down, because of legs. Still, no HR increase. Interesting.

1202 - Stretch 25 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2115-1013 (waking at 0330, 0400, 0423, and 0834), so nearly 13 hours sleep!!! DAY-UM; that's a LOT of sleeping! Dreams all weird and distorted and all over the place. Absolutely shattered when I woke up and got up, and was very nearly going to have a day off from training today. Left piriformis is giving me some grief, especially when walking (but it'll pass soon enough)...

Mental Alertness/Focus: There (but not wanting to be). Taken some Panadol Rapid (since it worked after a couple of hours yesterday), but will need to take some more. Migraine has been replaced by fatigue, and not really wanting to be studying at all. Concentration and focus are blah, with me needing a break every 20 minutes; and my breaks being LONGER than the study sessions themselves (not cool, Rosie; not cool at all!)

Energy: Not really any. Just drained and flat and fatigued.

Motivation: For training, it is definitely there. For study, I just have to keep reminding myself that I only have 7 days left now (and even that's not ENOUGH for this particular paper)!

Mood/Aggression: Ok.

Stress: Higher than it's ever been, re study. So high that if I sit and realize how much work I actually have to LEARN (yep, you heard that right) and REMEMBER in the next 40 hours, then I sit back and stress some more, and don't end up being very productive at all. Working would be so much better right now (at least I LIKE that...)

Libido: Not a lot.

Joints: Good.

Endurance: Good.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Ok.

Pump and Vascularity: Not much pump...Vascularity most prominent in upper chest, delts, biceps, forearms, and hands. Some in legs (when they're not covered...)

Muscle Hardness/Density: Arms more, definitely...

Body Composition and Look: Getting there...

Appetite: Stress eating started happening a little yesterday afternoon (and was probably needed after a few days of eating little)...Not too much appetite now, though (I don't need all that food if I'm not training hard enough to use it)...Upped Slin to 4 caps today, and will keep dosing at that; dosing only 1-2 times daily henceforth...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Just very, very fatigued...Thinking ahead to next year, when my focus should be on my studies...

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 52

0919 - Rollers:
a. 2 min in 39x17 @ 50-55% HRmax @ 120 rpm
b. 6 min in 39x16 @ 65-70% HRmax @ 110 rpm
c. 6 min in 39x16 @ 70-75% HRmax @ 116 rpm
d. 6 min in 39x15 @ 75% HRmax @ 110 rpm
An ok session. HR wasn't going up too much today, like yesterday. Legs were ok with the 'high' cadence. Felt all right afterwards. It's definitely good to be doing something EVERY day!

1000 - Stretch 24 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2300-0758 (waking at 0330, 0400, and 0423), so nearly 9 hours sleep. Dreams fcuked up and weird. Not feel so great on waking. It's going to be a LOOOOOONG day (and night)...

Mental Alertness/Focus: I'm getting this out of the way before I start studying. And then the day will be pretty fcuked up re Hot-Rox Extreme and RPM, since I'll be dosing them every 6-8 hours (not together) in an attempt to STAY awake and be able to concentrate...

Energy: There. Small. But it's still early in the day, and I only need MENTAL energy today...

Motivation: Good.

Mood/Aggression: If you took away the study stress (yes, I know; I've only done it to myself!), then actually, my mood is in a VERY good place right now!

Stress: VERY, VERY, VERY HIGH (and then some...)

Libido: This has been up and down like a yo-yo the last few days...

Joints: Good.

Endurance: Good.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Good.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity is reasonable...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Upper body starting to. When I get leaner, I will get harder.

Body Composition and Look: Mostly chest and anterior delts at the moment.

Appetite: It comes and goes. The one thing I am noticing is extreme THIRST over the last week...Another note, no stomach upset on 4 caps of Slin, whereas there was on 3 caps (interesting...)

Overall Sense of Feeling: REALLY not cool about my Final tomorrow...Apart from that, head is in a really good space. It's amazing what love and support can do for a person...

 

[delsolrob]

dang girl, now these are some serious status updates!

 

[Force of Green]

Sorry I missed this for a few days.... I've been trying to read and catch up. My damn ADHD is kicking in worse than ever... All I can say is damn. Hahaha.

 

[Trauma1]

Hi Rosie.

Just dropping in to say hi and see how you're feeling. I have to catch up on the last few pages, but i hope all is well.

 

[Hank Vangut]

i'm dropping in to say hi as well. :wave:
although i can't catch up on all 14 pgs i've missed, from the last few reports you've posted i'd say you might be the most detailed logger i've ever seen.

 

[Rosie Chee]

dang girl, now these are some serious status updates!

Thanks, bud. Just being as detailed and objective as possible

Sorry I missed this for a few days.... I've been trying to read and catch up. My damn ADHD is kicking in worse than ever... All I can say is damn. Hahaha.

Hi Rosie.

Just dropping in to say hi and see how you're feeling. I have to catch up on the last few pages, but i hope all is well.

All good, Kyle and John. Take your time.

As for how I'm feeling, John, yeah better than I was (as you'll see as you read along). Mostly it's just stress now for my Final tomorrow (and yes, can't seem to do more than 15-20 minutes study at a time before I need a break; and still got at least 12 more hours of LEARNING to do from now).

i'm dropping in to say hi as well. :wave:
although i can't catch up on all 14 pgs i've missed, from the last few reports you've posted i'd say you might be the most detailed logger i've ever seen.

Thank you. I'm nothing but detail (ok, so part b*tch, too )

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 53

So, today is this week's Day Off, because of my exam this morning, and then feeling too heavy and uncomfortable for pm training (after all the ice-cream and bagels that I've been munching on post-exam...)


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0150-0610 (waking at 0230, 0330, and 0400), so ~4.3 hours sleep. I closed my eyes for a few seconds at ~0145 (because I was starting to fade fast, despite all the RPM or Hot-Rox Extreme dosage every 2-3 hours), and the next thing you know I'm passed out, and struggling to get UP ay 0610!

Mental Alertness/Focus: I was sooo NOT there today. There were a few things that I did not cover for my exam, and briefly glanced over. And surprise surprise (NOT), they were what the majority of the exam were on! After 2 hours I ended up walking out, very frustrated (never done that before; normally I am there until the end (and I know my stuff), writing furiously). Anyways, I should pass (fingers crossed); I only want a pass for this paper (not a good attitude, I know; but I haven't done the work for this paper, so can't expect miracles). Been blobbing with food and DVDs all afternoon...

Energy: None, really. And definitely don't feel like much after all that ice-cream (I know, spank; back on track with diet!)

Motivation: For training, yes (it's been about the ONLY thing (aside from AN stuff) lately).

Mood/Aggression: A lot more relieved and 'deflated' after my exam (only one more to go: practical for Musculoskeletal Rehabilitation, which I actually enjoy and an area (strapper/masseur/sports medic/physio for rugby union) I work in)...Happy with you (not with me, but learning to be less harsh on myself and accept my failings, and just working on them)...

Stress: A whole lot less than it has been...Minimal for the next Final...A little creeping in about the way my body is feeling (and looking (to me) lately...)

Libido: There.

Joints: Good.

Endurance: N/A.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: N/A.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity has been awesome (the added heat of the day is adding to it, too), and it's most prominent in the late afternoons/evenings (love it, though...)

Muscle Hardness/Density: Good.

Body Composition and Look: Chest is looking a whole lot leaner (and breasts somewhat less full than they were)...Rest of me feels soft and heavy, today (that's how it gets when I DON'T get my am exercise in and eat as I am...)

Appetite: There, in the pm. Been craving all the food that I have INtolerance/s to! Still thirsty as anything; it's been 2 galleons the last few days, and even then I'm STILL thirsty at the end of the day!!!...Upped Slin to 5 caps for my second dosage today (no nausea or stomach upsets); will be dosing it at 4-5 caps from now on...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Looking forward to getting diet and training back on track. This week is looking to be only 2-3 resistance sessions (instead of 4). From next week I'm also going to change my training programme/routine up, since I'll have all the time in the world (and, working in a gym, can fit clients in and around MY schedule, and train pretty much when I like). The next 6 weeks are going to be GOOD...And working more on AN promotion over here in NZ, too...

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 54

0930 - HIIT Rollers:
a. 4 min in 39x17 @ 55% HRmax @ 100 rpm
b. 8 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy in 39x16 (HR 80-85% HRmax, rpm, N/A)
c. 2 min in 39x16 @ 94 rpm (HR dropped back to 75% HRmax)
d. 10 min in 39x16 @ 75-80% HRmax @ 108 rpm
Body wasn't really wanting to be doing this, even though my HEAD was. From the get go there was a twinge in my inferiomedial right knee, and only seemed to 'ease' when cadence was higher and smoother (i.e. no on and off, like when efforts/resting). HR would NOT go up, really, and when it did, did not stay high for long. Got very hot, very fast; drinking lots of water. Feeling better once I'd done it. But, probably in the bottom two HIIT Rollers' sessions ever...

0955 - Stretch 20 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2300-0800 (waking at 0630 and 0723), so ~9 hours sleep. Dreaming. Felt ok when I got up...

Mental Alertness/Focus: I've been doing everything BUT study today (but that's ok; the weekend is enough time for the next Final), and once it's over going to be able to dig into work more...

Energy: There was a moment ~1300 when I felt like I was going to pass out, but been ok aside from that. Lay out in the sun for 40 minutes not so long ago (yep, more time for that too, once study stress is over; so I'll be nice and golden when I come over), and it actually seems to 'drain' energy away. Good, though...

Motivation: Good. There.

Mood/Aggression: No aggression. Some frustration. Mostly high spirits...

Stress: Only at a 5 on a scale of 0-10 (10 being so stressed it's unbelievable, which is where I was 2 days ago).

Libido: THERE. This tiger wants to play NOW!

Joints: The niggle in my right knee is the first joint 'pain' that I have felt in a while. I definitely notice the difference when using and when not using OsteoSport (AND Osteobolin-C), in as little as 2-3 days (ran out of OsteoSport 4 days ago, and Osteobolin-C takes about 2-3 days to 'kick in').

Endurance: Good.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Not so great, for HIIT.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity is definitely more noticeable ~1-2 hours post-carbohydrates and/or training (and, getting warmer, that adding to it); be nice to see what it's like when I'm lean again...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Upper body.

Body Composition and Look: After all the ice-cream (yeah, not sure what's up with that; I'm not usually an ice-cream fan) and cheating yesterday, I was NOT bloated or retaining water today at all (notice more of a difference when taking 5 caps of Slin, as opposed to 3 caps; and a small difference when dosing Slin alone and not with NeoVar Recomped).

Appetite: There. Back. And healthy...Using 5 caps of Slin now, 20-30 min pre-meal (high carbohydrate)...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Smiles, today

 

[Force of Green]

0930 - HIIT Rollers:
a. 4 min in 39x17 @ 55% HRmax @ 100 rpm
b. 8 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy in 39x16 (HR 80-85% HRmax, rpm, N/A)
c. 2 min in 39x16 @ 94 rpm (HR dropped back to 75% HRmax)
d. 10 min in 39x16 @ 75-80% HRmax @ 108 rpm
Body wasn't really wanting to be doing this, even though my HEAD was. From the get go there was a twinge in my inferiomedial right knee, and only seemed to 'ease' when cadence was higher and smoother (i.e. no on and off, like when efforts/resting). HR would NOT go up, really, and when it did, did not stay high for long. Got very hot, very fast; drinking lots of water. Feeling better once I'd done it. But, probably in the bottom two HIIT Rollers' sessions ever...

0955 - Stretch 20 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2300-0800 (waking at 0630 and 0723), so ~9 hours sleep. Dreaming. Felt ok when I got up...

Mental Alertness/Focus: I've been doing everything BUT study today (but that's ok; the weekend is enough time for the next Final), and once it's over going to be able to dig into work more...

Energy: There was a moment ~1300 when I felt like I was going to pass out, but been ok aside from that. Lay out in the sun for 40 minutes not so long ago (yep, more time for that too, once study stress is over; so I'll be nice and golden when I come over), and it actually seems to 'drain' energy away. Good, though...

Motivation: Good. There.

Mood/Aggression: No aggression. Some frustration. Mostly high spirits...

Stress: Only at a 5 on a scale of 0-10 (10 being so stressed it's unbelievable, which is where I was 2 days ago).

Libido: THERE. This tiger wants to play NOW!

Joints: The niggle in my right knee is the first joint 'pain' that I have felt in a while. I definitely notice the difference when using and when not using OsteoSport (AND Osteobolin-C), in as little as 2-3 days (ran out of OsteoSport 4 days ago, and Osteobolin-C takes about 2-3 days to 'kick in').

Endurance: Good.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Not so great, for HIIT.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity is definitely more noticeable ~1-2 hours post-carbohydrates and/or training (and, getting warmer, that adding to it); be nice to see what it's like when I'm lean again...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Upper body.

Body Composition and Look: After all the ice-cream (yeah, not sure what's up with that; I'm not usually an ice-cream fan) and cheating yesterday, I was NOT bloated or retaining water today at all (notice more of a difference when taking 5 caps of Slin, as opposed to 3 caps; and a small difference when dosing Slin alone and not with NeoVar Recomped).

Appetite: There. Back. And healthy...Using 5 caps of Slin now, 20-30 min pre-meal (high carbohydrate)...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Smiles, today

At night when you sleep, do you dream?

 

[Rosie Chee]

At night when you sleep, do you dream?

Yes, I do. About 80% (when I don't is usually when I am so physically exhausted, and in that kind of sleep I won't wake to anything until my body is ready) of the time. (It IS mentioned in my posts ). I remember most of what I dream, too. And when I was little I was able to start a thought off before I fell asleep and then continue with it through my dreams (I have a VERY good imagination). Um, yeah, rambling...

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 55

1000 - 5.5km Run:
So, yeah, decided to go for a run today; see how the body felt. First km was ok at 4.3 minutes. Second was a little slower at 4.4 minutes, but, almost getting back to 'normal'. At ~16 minutes lateral left knee started hurting quite badly, and by 20 minutes I was favouring it quite a lot. Got a quite bad stitch in my left side, and a sharp pain in my right chest at the 21-minute mark, which slowed me down some more. Anyways, each km slowed by 0.1 min/km, with my last 1.5km slowing right back to 5.15 min/km pace (not cool). I was just glad for it to be over. Slow run, but not as slow as they have been. And gives me SOME idea of what I'm at at the moment.

1041 - Stretch 24 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2330-0800 (waking at 0630 and 0723), so ~8.5 hours sleep. Not very good sleep last night; very restless: I was itchy all the time (explained later), and kept waking up on and off. Didn't dream. It was 0850 before I got out of bed, too...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Good. Study this afternoon.

Energy: Ok. Did my run. Should probably do a resistance session, but not (also explained later).

Motivation: Good.

Mood/Aggression: I'm only aggressive and pissed off because of my skin irritating me; I want to climb out of it, honestly...

Stress: A little.

Libido: Some. Easily rises...

Joints: Just lateral left knee during run.

Endurance: Good.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Ok.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity 'normal'...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Glutes and legs.

Body Composition and Look: Upper body leaning...My body is actually covered in red rashes and welts from all the scratching (explained later), which is NOT cool at all...Aside from that, all the binging has not caused any weight gain at all, which is interesting...

Appetite: Back...Going to have to be VERY STRICT from now on...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Not good at all. For one, I am sooo itchy it's not funny. Initially I thought that it was just a reaction from lying out in the sun yesterday for 40 minutes, since, although I DON'T burn, I have become rather sensitive to it in the last 2 years, for some reason. Then I thought that it was possibly all the 'bites' I get; this time of year the mosquitoes and other nasties come out, and for some reason, no matter WHAT I do, they ALWAYS bite me (I don't even have to be outside at night for a minute and I'm bitten so badly I want to scream!) Then this morning I realized that this exact same thing happened early last year: when I was eating 4-8 magnums (i.e. similar to a Memphis Meltdown ice-cream on a stick) daily over a 2-week period; which I have pretty much done over the last 2 weeks. It could also be because of the higher dosage of Slin (since the itchiness and bumps/rash have only appeared since yesterday, when I upped my dose to 5 caps per dosing).


Right, so, I WON'T be doing any resistance training this week (although I probably should after all the binging). I was looking through my training diary, and realized that I've only had 2 weeks (week 15: 7-13 April, and week 32: 4-10 August) OFF training (and by that I mean NO training whatsoever) this year. They're also the ONLY weeks I've had off RESISTANCE training in the last 46 weeks. So, decided to may as well make THIS week a week off resistance training, and 'prepare' myself for the gruelling training schedule that I plan on starting on Monday (once Finals are over, and everything should be able to return as it was pre-August).

 

[Force of Green]

1000 - 5.5km Run:
So, yeah, decided to go for a run today; see how the body felt. First km was ok at 4.3 minutes. Second was a little slower at 4.4 minutes, but, almost getting back to 'normal'. At ~16 minutes lateral left knee started hurting quite badly, and by 20 minutes I was favouring it quite a lot. Got a quite bad stitch in my left side, and a sharp pain in my right chest at the 21-minute mark, which slowed me down some more. Anyways, each km slowed by 0.1 min/km, with my last 1.5km slowing right back to 5.15 min/km pace (not cool). I was just glad for it to be over. Slow run, but not as slow as they have been. And gives me SOME idea of what I'm at at the moment.

1041 - Stretch 24 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2330-0800 (waking at 0630 and 0723), so ~8.5 hours sleep. Not very good sleep last night; very restless: I was itchy all the time (explained later), and kept waking up on and off. Didn't dream. It was 0850 before I got out of bed, too...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Good. Study this afternoon.

Energy: Ok. Did my run. Should probably do a resistance session, but not (also explained later).

Motivation: Good.

Mood/Aggression: I'm only aggressive and pissed off because of my skin irritating me; I want to climb out of it, honestly...

Stress: A little.

Libido: Some. Easily rises...

Joints: Just lateral left knee during run.

Endurance: Good.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Ok.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity 'normal'...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Glutes and legs.

Body Composition and Look: Upper body leaning...My body is actually covered in red rashes and welts from all the scratching (explained later), which is NOT cool at all...

Appetite: Back...Going to have to be VERY STRICT from now on...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Not good at all. For one, I am sooo itchy it's not funny. Initially I thought that it was just a reaction from lying out in the sun yesterday for 40 minutes, since, although I DON'T burn, I have become rather sensitive to it in the last 2 years, for some reason. Then I thought that it was possibly all the 'bites' I get; this time of year the mosquitoes and other nasties come out, and for some reason, no matter WHAT I do, they ALWAYS bite me (I don't even have to be outside at night for a minute and I'm bitten so badly I want to scream!) However, this morning I realized that this exact same thing happened early last year: when I was eating 4-8 magnums (i.e. similar to a Memphis Meltdown ice-cream on a stick) daily over a 2-week period; which I have pretty much done over the last 2 weeks. So, I'm thinking it's more of an allergy than anything, and well, has made me decide to stop eating ice-cream (not that I should be eating it anyway) for a loooong time...Aside from that, all the binging has not caused any weight gain at all, which is interesting...


Right, so, I WON'T be doing any resistance training this week (although I probably should after all the binging). I was looking through my training diary, and realized that I've only had 2 weeks (week 15: 7-13 April, and week 32: 4-10 August) OFF training (and by that I mean NO training whatsoever) this year. They're also the ONLY weeks I've had off RESISTANCE training in the last 46 weeks. So, decided to may as well make THIS week a week off resistance training, and 'prepare' myself for the gruelling training schedule that I plan on starting on Monday (once Finals are over, and everything should be able to return as it was pre-August).

To hell with itchiness! The sun is your best friend!

IIIiiiii.... just wanna soak up the sunnnnnn....

 

[Rosie Chee]

To hell with itchiness! The sun is your best friend!

IIIiiiii.... just wanna soak up the sunnnnnn....

Sometimes, LOL. Although I love it, it sometimes gets so hot (although you mightn't call the temperatures here 'hot') I just feel like passing out (like yesterday mid-afternoon).

But, yeah, itchy is a mix of a heap of all those things, probably. I was leaning more towards the Slin, and then thought "nah, it wouldn't be that"; but now, I'm thinking that it is (since I was dosing 5 caps 2-3 times daily for a couple of days; IDIOT, I know), combined with all the sun.

And I WILL be soaking up the sun once study is over! Make the most of it before I come over!

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 56

1153 - HIIT Rollers:
a. 4 min in 39x16 @ 55% HRmax @ 110 rpm
b. 16 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy in 39x16 (HR: first 8 efforts - 80% HRmax, last 8 efforts - 80-85% HRmax; rpm N/A)
c. 16 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy in 39x15 (HR: first 8 efforts - 85-90% HRmax, last 8 efforts - 85% HRmax; rpm N/A)
d. 1 min in 39x16 @ 80 rpm (HR dropped back to 65% HRmax)
This was the most AWESOME session today! Started out ok, for a 'warm-up', and because not sure how the exercise and heat would make my skin react (i.e. increase irritation, etc.) HR didn't rise very much. Decided on HIIT, since only done 2 sessions so far this week. Although I was spinning as fast as I could and gasping for air, HR would NOT go up, and it seemed EASY! DAMN! After 8 efforts I decided NOT to stop and keep going for another 8. HR started to creep up a little then. But still, the efforts were easy. No pains or aches in knees or hips either. Went down a gear, to increase the intensity, and decided to aim for another 8 efforts. DAMN! Once I'd done 24 efforts, the peak HR reached started DEcreasing with each consecutive effort (odd). After 32 efforts I was drenched and dripping with sweat, smiling like an idiot, and wanting to KEEP GOING and see what I could do! THAT was the BEST HIIT Rollers EVER!!! And during it all, there was no itchiness or irritation; my mind was too concentrated on trying to get my HR through the roof (which didn't happen), and make each effort better than the last. A great way to finish off the week (training-wise)!

1219 - Stretch 20 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2330-1035 (waking at 0340, 0620, 0723, and 0800), so ~10.5 hours sleep. Like last night, VERY BROKEN and not good at all. Constant itching (I got told in the morning that I probably didn't stop the whole night, even when I was asleep!) Dreaming, too (when you start dreaming about exams and study, you know you'll be glad when study is OVER; one more day!) Not great at all...

Mental Alertness/Focus: There. Once I got up and training was over. I did a block of almost 2 hours of study (amazing how time flies when you're actually INTERESTED in the subject!); and am going to try for an all-nighter (fingers crossed that I don't fall asleep, like I have every other time (except for twice) this year that I have attempted all-nighters).

Energy: HIIT was AMAZING! Been bouncing around like the energizer bunny the rest of the day!

Motivation: Good. I have 6 weeks to get into what I consider great shape. I know that I CAN do it!

Mood/Aggression: Aggression at the constant irritation of my skin...Apart from that, mood is in an INTERESTING place...

Stress: High. But not from study. All this irritation and rashes/bumps.

Libido: Funny enough, there. Some.

Joints: No worries.

Endurance: Excellent.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Excellent. Raising the bar. I don't know where it came from, considering the last few days. But, no complaints; that's how ALL HIIT Rollers sessions should be!

Pump and Vascularity: No pump, really...Vascularity average...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Glutes and legs, especially on rollers' days.

Body Composition and Look: Upper midsection ok. So is chest...I'm covered in rashes, bumps, welts, and gouges (from my nails). Funny thing is, the bumps and rashes come and go, and 'move' from place to place over the course of a day. Most of the time it looks worse from the welts my nails have scored all over, from the constant scratching (NOT cool; hope they don't leave scars). Having to stay OUT of the sun to stop it exacerbating it all...

Appetite: Ok. When I really get into study I tend to forget about eating until late at night...Stopping using Slin for now...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Just frustration at myself, for stupid and preventable mistakes. Honestly, I want to submerge my entire body in ice (but icing irritated areas burns me), so that it stops the itchiness. Not wanting to be wearing anything (decency dictates otherwise), because it irritates my skin...Aside from that, relieved that study is almost over...Looking forward to beginning preparing to move and finalize travel plans...

 

[crader]

Benedryl?

 

[Rosie Chee]

Changes to Training

Ok, so managed to complete a full rotation of Body-Parts (as outlined in post #1). Now, since study is over (after my last Final tomorrow morning), it's time to change my training programme yet again. It will look a little different to what it has been. I REALLY want to shock my body, and see what it can handle (and hoping that it won't take long to get back into 0330 rising for am training. So, without further ado:


Cardio

Cardio is to be done either boxing, cycling, rowing, running, or skipping.

HIIT
3 x 20 min sessions per week (Monday, Wednesday, Friday)

Steady-State
3-4 x 20+ min sessions per week (Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, Sunday)

Double Cardio
3-4 x 20-30 min sessions per week (whatever day I feel like, but it will be done pm)


Resistance Training

4-5 sessions per week. Once again doing Body-Part Splits (excluding Legs), and adding in 1-2 Full-Body sessions. The aim is for 5 sessions per week, but it's fine if I only 4 get done. I haven't assigned resistance sessions to a particular day of the week; instead they will be done in the order Day 1 to Day 4/5 each week, with recovery days between sessions as my body sees fit.

Day 1 - Shoulders
Day 2 - Back/Chest
Day 3 - Full-Body*
Day 4 - Arms
Day 5 - Full-Body*

* One of the Full-Body sessions will be high rep.

 

[Rosie Chee]

Changes to Supplementation

Just a few changes:


ESSENTIALS

Creatine
NeoVar Recomped: 2 caps 30 min pre-gym, and 2 caps immediately post-gym, (on NON-gym days - 2 caps immediately post-cardio, and 2 caps 20 min pre-high-carbohydrate-meal later in the day); sometimes 4 caps last thing at night.

Protein Powder/BCAA's
Pro4: 40g (contains 30g protein per 40g) with breakfast (i.e. meal 1), 20-40g with meal 2, 20-40g with meal 4. (Note that it also contains L-Glutamine).

Good Fats
Flax Original: 1-2 tsps with breakfast.

Vitamins/Minerals
Activate Sport Multivitamin: 4 caps post-breakfast.
Super Calcium Complex: 1 cap post-breakfast.


OTHER

Osteobolin-C: 3 caps first thing in the morning, 3 caps 30 min pre-gym, 2 caps immediately post-gym, and 2 caps last thing at night (on NON-gym days - 3 caps first thing in the morning, 3 caps pre-cardio, 2 caps post-dinner, and 2 caps last thing at night).

RPM: 2 caps 80 min pre-gym (NOT using on NON-gym days).

Drive: 2 caps 80 min pre-gym, and 2 caps mid-afternoon (NOT using on NON-gym days).

Poseidon: 5g first thing in the morning, 5g 30 min pre-gym, and 5g last thing at night (on NON-gym days - 5g first thing in the morning, and 5g last thing at night).

IGF-2: 3 caps first thing in the morning, and 3 caps last thing at night.

Lipotrophin-PM: 2 caps first thing in the morning, and 2 caps last thing at night.

Lean Xtreme: 1 cap first thing in the morning, 1 cap 30 min pre-gym, and 1 cap last thing at night (on NON-gym days - 1 cap first thing in the morning, 1 cap 4 hours post-dose-1, and 1 cap last thing at night).

Hot-Rox Extreme: 3-4 caps first thing in the morning, and 1 cap 45 min pre-lunch.

Vitamin B5: 5 grams first thing in the morning, and 5 grams immediately post-cardio.

 

[Rosie Chee]

Benedryl?

For the irritation/itchiness?

 

[Force of Green]

The avatars are unbeatable. LOL

 

[Rosie Chee]

The avatars are unbeatable. LOL

:cheers:

 

[Chub]

Just a few changes:


ESSENTIALS

Creatine
NeoVar Recomped: 2 caps 30 min pre-gym, and 2 caps immediately post-gym, (on NON-gym days - 2 caps immediately post-cardio, and 2 caps 20 min pre-high-carbohydrate-meal later in the day); sometimes 4 caps last thing at night.

i was thinking about trying NeoVar in the new year. Would i dose the same as this, but maybe 3 caps instead of 2?

 

[crader]

For the irritation/itchiness?

I know it can help with the itching feeling, that is if you can stand Benedryl. Sometimes it gives me a weird sensation of
being tired yet wide awake. If its a hive like reaction it might help.

 

[Rosie Chee]

i was thinking about trying NeoVar in the new year. Would i dose the same as this, but maybe 3 caps instead of 2?

Yes, you would dse at 3 caps twice daily.

You could dose the same as me (but that the way I do it, for me).

I would recommend that you dose:
Dose 1 - 3 caps immediatley post-gym (and eat a meal with ~50g carbohydrate in 15-20 min later)
Dose 2 - 3 caps 15-min pre-meal (containing ~50g carbohydrate) either earlier or later in the day

I know it can help with the itching feeling, that is if you can stand Benedryl. Sometimes it gives me a weird sensation of
being tired yet wide awake. If its a hive like reaction it might help.

The being tired, yet wide awake. Know that, for sure. The itchiness has been worse at nights, from ~1900 on, decreasing some from ~0800. Tes, hive-like reaction, but the bumps and rash and redness comes and goes (i.e. will be there at night and not furing the day, etc.) And scratching ust exacerbates the reaction/bumps. Weird (but then again, ALL of it is) :frustrate

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 57

Today was this week's Day Off, considering how I was feeling...


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0050-0450 (waking at 0130 and 0200), so ~4 hours sleep. Closed my eyes and was asleep after I'd only done half the study required. Panic set in at 0500, and was struggling to stay awake...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Not too alert, really. I was shaking before my exam, but settled down in it. I honestly felt like I was going to pass out at one point; and when I got home, just watched DVDs mindlessly, before falling asleep, waking, and watching more...

Energy: Just nervous energy not good for a lot, today.

Motivation: GRRRRRRR, DAMNIT, girl, get your fcuking act together and get into shape!!!

Mood/Aggression: Relieved (finally) after last Final. Too tired to feel anything else much (except disappointment in myself for the bad diet over the last couple of weeks...)

Stress: On a scale of 0-10 (10 being the most extreme stress ever), a 1 (now).

Libido: Not really much of one there when I'm itchy, though...

Joints: Fine.

Endurance: N/A.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: N/A.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity poor...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Not really noticed, today...

Body Composition and Look: The redness comes and goes, and my back looks like I've been whipped from the furious scoring of my nails...Not bloated this morning. Possibly tomorrow, though...

Appetite: None. Until tonight. And even then, I didn't really have one. I just ate for the sake of eating; and couldn't be bothered cooking, so it was pizza and fries (no ice-cream this time). Actually feel a little 'heavy' 3 hours later. And have been feeling like I have something stuck in my throat for the last 2 hours...

Overall Sense of Feeling: The itching and irritation is the main b*tch right now...Study is now OFFICIALLY OVER AND COMPLETE!!!...Time to start abusing that body like there's no tomorrow!!!

 

[crader]

As much as I hate to say it. I might consider seeing the DR and getting prednisone to stop it. I hate the prednisone for the bloating and anger issues but you have to be miserable.

Oatmeal baths might help a tiny bit, at least you can read and study in the tub and relax

Hope you get that sorted out soon it has to be awful. I need to pull myself in check before March diet wise. I have ate like total **** since Oct 2nd. Damage has not been too bad but it will be soon.

 

[Rosie Chee]

As much as I hate to say it. I might consider seeing the DR and getting prednisone to stop it. I hate the prednisone for the bloating and anger issues but you have to be miserable.

Just seeing how long I can go before I look at something medical for it (and hope it's not too much longer!) It's making me pretty aggressive/angry enough all by itself...

Oatmeal baths might help a tiny bit, at least you can read and study in the tub and relax

Ok. Thanks for that. I'll give it a shot.

Hope you get that sorted out soon it has to be awful. I need to pull myself in check before March diet wise. I have ate like total **** since Oct 2nd. Damage has not been too bad but it will be soon.

Yeah, my diet has not been very good since August (well, pretty much ALL year, if I'm honest), and especially over exams/final assignments. Not too much damage done, I guess. But, yeah, need to get back inot shape. But I only have until December 28 (should have started sooner; some things you CAN'T leave to the last minute!) :fruatrate All good, though; it will be hard, but it's doable.

 

[delsolrob]

The avatars are unbeatable. LOL

x 2

Look'n great Rosie!

 

[Rosie Chee]

x 2

Look'n great Rosie!

Um, thanks

 

[Chub]

Yes, you would dse at 3 caps twice daily.

You could dose the same as me (but that the way I do it, for me).

I would recommend that you dose:
Dose 1 - 3 caps immediatley post-gym (and eat a meal with ~50g carbohydrate in 15-20 min later)
Dose 2 - 3 caps 15-min pre-meal (containing ~50g carbohydrate) either earlier or later in the day

Alright thanks, NP got a nice deal on NeoVar and Kwick karb i'll be taking advantage of in the new year

 

[Force of Green]

Today was this week's Day Off, considering how I was feeling...


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0050-0450 (waking at 0130 and 0200), so ~4 hours sleep. Closed my eyes and was asleep after I'd only done half the study required. Panic set in at 0500, and was struggling to stay awake...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Not too alert, really. I was shaking before my exam, but settled down in it. I honestly felt like I was going to pass out at one point; and when I got home, just watched DVDs mindlessly, before falling asleep, waking, and watching more...

Energy: Just nervous energy not good for a lot, today.

Motivation: GRRRRRRR, DAMNIT, girl, get your fcuking act together and get into shape!!!

Mood/Aggression: Relieved (finally) after last Final. Too tired to feel anything else much (except disappointment in myself for the bad diet over the last couple of weeks...)

Stress: On a scale of 0-10 (10 being the most extreme stress ever), a 1 (now).

Libido: Not really much of one there when I'm itchy, though...

Joints: Fine.

Endurance: N/A.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: N/A.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity poor...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Not really noticed, today...

Body Composition and Look: The redness comes and goes, and my back looks like I've been whipped from the furious scoring of my nails...Not bloated this morning. Possibly tomorrow, though...

Appetite: None. Until tonight. And even then, I didn't really have one. I just ate for the sake of eating; and couldn't be bothered cooking, so it was pizza and fries (no ice-cream this time). Actually feel a little 'heavy' 3 hours later. And have been feeling like I have something stuck in my throat for the last 2 hours...

Overall Sense of Feeling: The itching and irritation is the main b*tch right now...Study is now OFFICIALLY OVER AND COMPLETE!!!...Time to start abusing that body like there's no tomorrow!!!

You panicked when you couldn't keep your eyes open and stay awake? Sorry to hear that... You could always try doing what I do... Put 1 cap of No-Doze, 1 cap of ephedrine, 1 cap of pregnenolone, and a mixture of 7 grams tyrosine and 2 scoops Poseidon in diet drink mix and leave em all on your night stand so when you wake up, you can down em. I barely have the energy to reach over and grab the pills anymore. Aye.

 

[Rosie Chee]

You panicked when you couldn't keep your eyes open and stay awake? Sorry to hear that... You could always try doing what I do... Put 1 cap of No-Doze, 1 cap of ephedrine, 1 cap of pregnenolone, and a mixture of 7 grams tyrosine and 2 scoops Poseidon in diet drink mix and leave em all on your night stand so when you wake up, you can down em. I barely have the energy to reach over and grab the pills anymore. Aye.

No, when I woke up at 0500 and realized I'd slept that long, LOL...The best thing for me to do is just GET up; I usually come right after being up for 20-30 mins (depending on how much sleep I've had and what supplements I've had upon waking). I just want to be able to have normal sleeping patterns (and no more attempts for all-nighters anymore for study, so that's a start) and training again!!! :frustrate :frustrate :frustrate

 

[Rosie Chee]

Day 58

0843 - HIIT Rollers:
a. 4 min in 39x16 @ 65% HRmax @ 106 rpm
b. 8 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy in 39x16 (HR 80-85% HRmax, rpm N/A)
c. 2 min in 39x17 @ 106 rpm (HR dropped back to 75% HRmax)
d. 10 min in 39x16 @ 80% HRmax @ 124 rpm
Done on the rollers, because the sun was already out, and the sun irritates my skin too badly these days. I was all fired up and looking forward to the session, given how awesome last week's sessions went. However, HR was slow to rise, and legs were not in a happy place. 8 efforts were enough for me today. Managed to increase the cadence quite easily after a quick easy period, but HR wasn't rising the same. It was an ok session. Sweat dripping everywhere. And for a short time, took my mind off the itching...

0911 - Stretch 25 min.


Sleep - Time and Quality: ~2215-0723 (waking at 0330 and 0630), so ~9 hours sleep. Not as much scratching last night, which is a good thing. Not a very good sleep, though, post 0330...

Mental Alertness/Focus: There. Turning my head inside out with some statistics (I like calculus, but not statistics...)

Energy: Not really many. Enough to do what I had to do.

Motivation: Good. I want to be out training, not hiding in my house!

Mood/Aggression: Serious aggression and frustration at the irritation now...

Stress: Only stress is from the irritation...

Libido: None.

Joints: Fine.

Endurance: Good.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Not as good as last week.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity ok...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Glutes and legs.

Body Composition and Look: The welts and redness is gone in the morning. They return with the burning when I put clothes on or go out in the sun (even if I'm covered). By 1930 (the last five nights) I look like a freshly whipped piece of meat. Swelling is happening

Appetite: None. Wanting to cheat all the time, but didn't today. NEED to get diet on track!!!

Overall Sense of Feeling: I had work today, but only for a short time, which was good...Afterwards, took a bath with baking soda, oatmeal, and lavender bath salts, in the hope that it would dry out my skin, or, at the very least STOP the itching. But no, a couple of minutes in, and I was covered in red welts (and being in water, made it worse). The last five days the perpetual itching has started at ~1830-1900, and gotten worse, easing only slightly at ~0800 the next day, and is by no means pleasant. By the end of it I burn all over and well...Anyways. I just want to be back training like I want to be. And getting somewhere...Right now I just feel miserable

 

[Force of Green]

Everything looks nice... except for the libido

I started Relora and already I have no desire to eat crap foods!

 

[Rosie Chee]

Everything looks nice... except for the libido

I started Relora and already I have no desire to eat crap foods!

Yeah well, when feel like this, the only thing
I get is shitty.

Great. I'm close to it, and then I think "whatever", and well. NO MORE CHEATING! Grrrr....

 

[crader]

I think it is time to pull myself together now. I am eating a full variety of junk food and really not caring at all at the time. But due to untold misery I really need to stop as it is making me hate myself.

 

[Rosie Chee]

I think it is time to pull myself together now. I am eating a full variety of junk food and really not caring at all at the time. But due to untold misery I really need to stop as it is making me hate myself.

I know that feeling. And the cheating just makes it worse, aye. Except, every time I put something in my mouth I KNOW I SHOULDN'T be doing it, and then hate myself more afterwards (vicious little circle).

What's up, Christine? Why are you miserable?

 

[Force of Green]

I know that feeling. And the cheating just makes it worse, aye. Except, every time I put something in my mouth I KNOW I SHOULDN'T be doing it, and then hate myself more afterwards (vicious little circle).

What's up, Christine? Why are you miserable?

I fought myself one time when I was cheating... I had a huge handful of dried fruit and nuts at like 11pm and was holding my one arm down with the other... One side of me said, "no just go to bed," while the other knew that I'd be too caught up in thinking how good it'd be to eat the whole bag.

 

[Rosie Chee]

I fought myself one time when I was cheating... I had a huge handful of dried fruit and nuts at like 11pm and was holding my one arm down with the other... One side of me said, "no just go to bed," while the other knew that I'd be too caught up in thinking how good it'd be to eat the whole bag.

Oh, I never fight myself (and the whole bag/packet/box of anything is gone before I know it!). Sometimes it will be a verbal joust in my head, and I'll tell myself all the reasons why I should NOT cheat, and then all the reasons why I should (never very good reasons, nut they win out 90% of the time, LOL). Sometimes I just end up not being bothered going out and getting anything. And if I'm good, chances are I'll end up craving whatever it is I didn't eat and go on a rampage a day or two later, and it be worse than what it would have been had I just had what I 'wanted' initially. As my ex said: "you cheat with everything all at once". Anyways, trying NOT to think about food. I actually get ok, once I start feeling better from NOT cheating and eating clean and training properly.

 

[Force of Green]

Oh, I never fight myself (and the whole bag/packet/box of anything is gone before I know it!). Sometimes it will be a verbal joust in my head, and I'll tell myself all the reasons why I should NOT cheat, and then all the reasons why I should (never very good reasons, nut they win out 90% of the time, LOL). Sometimes I just end up not being bothered going out and getting anything. And if I'm good, chances are I'll end up craving whatever it is I didn't eat and go on a rampage a day or two later, and it be worse than what it would have been had I just had what I 'wanted' initially. As my ex said: "you cheat with everything all at once". Anyways, trying NOT to think about food. I actually get ok, once I start feeling better from NOT cheating and eating clean and training properly.

I have that addictive personality. It's all or nothing. I'm workin on it though

 

[Rosie Chee]

I have that addictive personality. It's all or nothing. I'm workin on it though

Hmmm, I would say my personality is more of a perfectionist, obsessive compulsive with a penchant for addiction.

Yeah, the no 'moderation'; it's either one extreme or the other, neither of which is very healthy.

 

[Chub]

I'm sitting here contemplating wether or not to walk 20minutes to the supermarket to get the biggest bar of chocolate and as much beef jerky as i can get with £20

 

[Force of Green]

I'm sitting here contemplating wether or not to walk 20minutes to the supermarket to get the biggest bar of chocolate and as much beef jerky as i can get with £20

Maybe a few spoonfuls of apple cider vinegar?

 

[Rosie Chee]

I'm sitting here contemplating wether or not to walk 20minutes to the supermarket to get the biggest bar of chocolate and as much beef jerky as i can get with £20

LOL. The longer you leave it the more you will probably get (I should know; I spend at least $50-60 on average a day on stuff I DON'T need. And yes, I should be SAVING it) :frustrate

 

[Force of Green]

LOL. The longer you leave it the more you will probably get (I should know; I spend at least $50-60 on average a day on stuff I DON'T need. And yes, I should be SAVING it) :frustrate

Whoa! You are absolutely nuts! 50-60 bucks?!!!!

 

[Chub]

Maybe a few spoonfuls of apple cider vinegar?

i got none It actually sounds quite nice lol

LOL. The longer you leave it the more you will probably get (I should know; I spend at least $50-60 on average a day on stuff I DON'T need. And yes, I should be SAVING it) :frustrate

I had a good look in my kitchen, found a chocolate sponge pudding i can microwave and a chocolate bar. I've been meaning to make the trip for the beef jerky for 3 days now lol. The only place that sells it is in the other direction of the gym and work so i don't pass it much.

Just wish I hadn't had a nap today, wide awake now and nothing to do apart from watch startrek its 23:20 and i'm working at 9am!

 

[Force of Green]

Hahaha! I gotta have some of that around... You can also keep a ziploc bag of rotten fruit/veggies and whenever you're jonesing for a big cheat, open the bag and take a deep wiff. LOL. Turn a binge into a purge!