Day 9
I'm trying hard. Just gotta keep the food down and stay focused on myself and not myself+her.
I just hoped I don't get injured. My damn forearm splints feel better, but now my left elbow (the good one) is starting to feel sore on the long lower tricep part, right above the elbow
Not my arm, but is that a tendon, or is it part of the lower tricep muscle? It hurts like a sore muscle, but never had pain there.
I did go really heavy on DB presses, did 120'sx5 the other day routine.
Weight: 202 +2lbs
I look bigger, and I only ate 2200 calories today and 1500 yesterday!
I need to get back to 5k calories/day. My GF is really upsetting me. I can't even bear to accept the word ex.
Shes out of town for the summer, away from our college, and everytime she goes home, she changes on me. Her parents want her to date someone of the same faith, and cultural background and she doesn't stand up for our relationship when she goes home. She allows them to influence her. Shes an amazing girl and spends tons of time with me at school, but when she leaves, she always acts like I'm just a dating friend to her family. She won't make an effort to plan to see me because she's worried about what her family will think if she comes across as being serious. When I called her out on it, she broke up with me saying that she needs time to be single because she can't handle the serious committment that I desire in this relationship. Shes "not ready for the level of committment" She "doesn't want to even think about dating anyone else, and still loves me/misses me, but doesn't know if she has learned enough on her own to handle the seriousness". Its funny because she was telling me the day before how much she missed me and wanted to see me. I demand respect, and it backfires. You give so much, and you only get back a little. I'm torn because the girl loves me, is awesome, but wants her cake and to eat it too. And now, its backfired and I'm sitting her single without her. Its been 2 days no contact at all for the first time ever in 3 years. What should I do?
Saving my IGF-1 for the return of my appetite.
Leg is pretty sore today from the shot. But not to terrible. Its a little swollen, but not red or hot.