Hey again Stallion.
I still don't think the a-d's are gonna help (anti-depressants.) You can't solve the problem with drugs my man! I assure you, I've tried.
I'm actually a recovering heroin addict, I've been sober since Sept. 21, 2007. Everyday I get stronger, in who I am, in who I want to be. I still think about heroin, but I don't want it anymore. It only hurt me and took me down the path of self-destruction.
Girls can be the same as heroin my friend. Really...they are almost exactly the same feeling in my mind. It's an addiction either way. And if you don't have heroin, you feel the same as when the girl goes away. Sick, can't eat, can't sleep, depressed, suicidal, crazy, racing thoughts.
I used the drugs to get over a girl actually...well she was part of it, but I really just hated life in general.
My real honest opinion is:
If you have good, caring friends - you need to talk to them. you need to cry, you need to yell, you need to FEEL the FEELINGS, not numb them out with drugs. Then, once you have said all there is to be said, move on with your life. Remember who you are, follow the path you want to follow. When you are feeling sad, TELL YOUR FRIENDS. And then, do something fun! Repeat, repeat, repeat. Until you realize, you never needed her, and you actually always wanted something better.
Then believe...in your heart and mind, that if you continue to work on yourself, you will get what you want. And just continue working...and one day you won't even know what happened but you'll be happy again, and look back as a stronger person knowing...YES, I got through this!
On a side note...I WOULD NOT TAKE ADDERALL! Unless you are in serious need of it, (e.g. SERIOUS ADHD.) Adderall is prescription amphetamines. Amphetamines are DANGEROUS. They make you go crazy man! Literally, I'm in a rehab with a lot of drug addicts and bro, you want nothing to do with stimulants like amphetamines. They do irreversible brain damage (on the dopamine neurons) and a stimulant like that is not going to help you in the gym!
Please before you take adderall, look up it's side effects. I am really adament about this, please do not take this ****. It is terrible for you.
I hope you understand everything I'm telling you, I believe it could save you from a lot of pain.