And I can appreciate that. I've been an EMT, so I have seen what happens if your body gets out of whack. And I have seen when people are faced with something crazy that they can't or don't know how to control. The body's fight or flight response causes the adrenaline rush, which causes you to not be able to focus or think. With the limited info you gave, it didn't seem to require the desperate and extreme measures you were talking about. I still don't think it does, and it is your body, your life. I don't judge you for wanting to be the best, and supps obviously help you get there. I just know that no matter what your situation is you are dealing with, when you are in the emotional state you are/were in, you can't make a rational decision. I'm not saying you don't have plenty of experience using what you have by any means, you just can't process things correctly when your brain is going a hundred miles an hour and you are freaking out, that's all.