Man I’m really struggling with my gym right now. It’s a small commercial gym. It’s the best I got right now. I’m the only one in there who lifts heavy and intense. There’s one other guy who benches like 225 on the smith machine LOL and that’s the closest thing to a comrade in iron I have. I’m in there pulling 5 plates for reps, and I swear to god, people stare at me. A lot of guys want to talk to me. When I’m training, I don’t want to talk. I have to focus and it’s like meditation..but it makes it fucking hard to get in the zone and it’s fucking up my training. And now, I actually got a job there, so I don’t wanna be an asshole, I need to be friendly with these assholes lol. I might have to ride my bike to the YMCA which is like a 30 minute ride (crashed my car awhile ago before I got sober) or train really early...cuz training is my therapy..I don’t know what’s so interesting to people about heavy weight lifting LOL. But apparently it’s rare in my area...
I guess I’m venting.
I guess I’m venting.