
I could never build a house by tearing my neighbors down. But hey that`s just me.
WS thanks for reminding me of the book you mentioned. I read it before and now after pulling it out again see that I made it maybe 75% through before moving on. First half grabbed me but the second.. Well I am not really sure why or what came next.
Hell is here on earth. I lived there for many years. Gehenna! You know what the hardest part of being an addict is? The cover up! I lied to everybody... even when the truth would do. After you tell so many lies to so many people you then have to recall what you said to each. That is a full time job! Then there comes a point where you have lied so much YOU begin to believe your own bullshit. Every waking moment is spent in defense of your addiction. Protect it at all cost!
There is no time to relax. Except maybe when your stoned but even then you need to worry about your next high. Peace?!? The only piece I needed was of the rock... which I crushed and stuck up my nose. Lying, cheating and stealing thats what I did.
Guilt? Remorse? Or any
E-motion for that matter. Washed them away with the perfect solvent. Oblivion!
Or so I thought. Then things turned.
I could not do this dance anymore.
I surrendered...
It amazed me the first time I realized that there didn`t need to be anymore LIES! Talk about a stone being removed. This one hung around my neck for years. The overwhelming relief can`t be put into words. Except maybe to say it felt like a fire inside my being was extinguished.:woohoo: