SprtNvolcoM
On a Mission!
Date: 04/04/07, Wednesday (Day 80)
Body Weight:
Starting Weight: 170.0lbs (Morning Weigh)
Current Weight: 190.0lbs (Morning Weigh)
Total Weight Change (+/-): +20.0lbs
Weight Change from Previous Weigh In (+/-): +2.0lbs
BF% Unknown (round 13%-14%)
Suppliments (injects, orals, dermals):
- Test E @ 500mg/wk
- Deca @ 400mg/wk
- T3 @ 25mcg ED (25mcg 2x ED) Tapering off ...
- Letrozol @ 1.25mg EOD
Other Suppliments:
- Multi Vitamin
- Vitamin B12
- Vitamin E
- Vitamin C
- Acidophilus
- Milk Thistle
- Cranberry
- Taurine
- Garlic
- Fish Oil
- Selenium
- Pyruvate
- CLA
- Forskolin 20%
- Pantothenic Acid (prevents acne)
- Red Yeast Rice (lowers LDL, raises HDL)
Personal Note:
Where do I start ...
Man oh man, this has been a rough few weeks. School started back up, YAY! That's not the rough part though. As disappointed as I am in myself, it's important that I admit it ... I relapsed a week or so ago (pain killers) after quite a long run at sobriety. Some of you might have read a post or comment of mine explaining my past battle with pain meds. It's not something I'm proud of and I'm positive many of you can relate. Some might feel this news is better left unsaid, and that's understandable; part of me feels this way as well. That being said, however, I also feel it should be discussed, or at least noted, since it is obviously a negative aspect effecting my current cycle.
Although I have decided not to end my cycle, I have relaxed a bit and eased up a lot on my sup intake, diet, and training. Physically I'm fine. The relapse did not effect me physical being what so ever. The effects these pain meds have on me are purely mental; its the addictive aspect of the drugs that I have the hardest time with. After the relapse, when detoxing for instance, I was unable to stay focused or get motivated enough to perform the easiest of tasks. Simply not having the drugs left me clouded and unwilling to even get out of bed some days; I was seemingly crippled mentally. Long term drug use, as I was previously involved in (during my first battle), tends to make these drugs effect you a little different from they would rec users. It's a bit ridiculous sounding, I know, but to anyone who has never had a true addiction problem let me say "you are literally incapable of comprehending or understanding these concepts (or "side effects," if you will) of addiction." Not to belittle anyone, but I've tried many times to talk about my problems with people who have never delt first hand with opiate addiction and I hear the same things almost always ... "I don't understand -- just stop." I wish it was that easy. On the other hand, you sit down with a group of users and you will hear people answering each other sentences. It's a little odd, I agree, but one has to assume this is only normal. "Birds of a feather flock together" (or something like that); I'm sure you guys get what I'm saying.
So I relapsed, I detoxed, and I believe I'm back on track now. Let me just say, though, that if anyone knows someone suffering from any kind of addiction and its strong enough that its effecting their way of life, consider it your responsibility to offer this person(s) help. It sometimes takes outside intervention to make the addicted realize. Remember, however, that they will only change if they want to make the change for themselves. Don't expect them to change for anyone else ... it just wont happen. They have to be truly ready, and a lot of folks are but just don't know where to turn for help. Enough about all that ...
It's been a while since I've updated. I wish I had something else to report then my down fall. I don't really have anything to report since I've been out of the gym this last week & a half. I didn't drop any weight ... in fact, I gained 2lbs during this break (as I'll call it). I've dropped most of the sups I was taking -- most of the more over board sups like PGF2a for example. I never dropped the Test/Deca/Var though; like I said I didn't stop my cycle I just relaxed a bit.
If anyone has any questions or suggestions concerning anything I've talked about in this update, please feel free contact me or throw a post out there. Good luck to anyone reading who might also be suffering from drug addiction. PM me if necessary ... I'd happy to try and offer any help or assistance I possibly could.
My Heart & Prayers,
Sprt
Body Weight:
Starting Weight: 170.0lbs (Morning Weigh)
Current Weight: 190.0lbs (Morning Weigh)
Total Weight Change (+/-): +20.0lbs
Weight Change from Previous Weigh In (+/-): +2.0lbs
BF% Unknown (round 13%-14%)
Suppliments (injects, orals, dermals):
- Test E @ 500mg/wk
- Deca @ 400mg/wk
- T3 @ 25mcg ED (25mcg 2x ED) Tapering off ...
- Letrozol @ 1.25mg EOD
Other Suppliments:
- Multi Vitamin
- Vitamin B12
- Vitamin E
- Vitamin C
- Acidophilus
- Milk Thistle
- Cranberry
- Taurine
- Garlic
- Fish Oil
- Selenium
- Pyruvate
- CLA
- Forskolin 20%
- Pantothenic Acid (prevents acne)
- Red Yeast Rice (lowers LDL, raises HDL)
Personal Note:
Where do I start ...
Man oh man, this has been a rough few weeks. School started back up, YAY! That's not the rough part though. As disappointed as I am in myself, it's important that I admit it ... I relapsed a week or so ago (pain killers) after quite a long run at sobriety. Some of you might have read a post or comment of mine explaining my past battle with pain meds. It's not something I'm proud of and I'm positive many of you can relate. Some might feel this news is better left unsaid, and that's understandable; part of me feels this way as well. That being said, however, I also feel it should be discussed, or at least noted, since it is obviously a negative aspect effecting my current cycle.
Although I have decided not to end my cycle, I have relaxed a bit and eased up a lot on my sup intake, diet, and training. Physically I'm fine. The relapse did not effect me physical being what so ever. The effects these pain meds have on me are purely mental; its the addictive aspect of the drugs that I have the hardest time with. After the relapse, when detoxing for instance, I was unable to stay focused or get motivated enough to perform the easiest of tasks. Simply not having the drugs left me clouded and unwilling to even get out of bed some days; I was seemingly crippled mentally. Long term drug use, as I was previously involved in (during my first battle), tends to make these drugs effect you a little different from they would rec users. It's a bit ridiculous sounding, I know, but to anyone who has never had a true addiction problem let me say "you are literally incapable of comprehending or understanding these concepts (or "side effects," if you will) of addiction." Not to belittle anyone, but I've tried many times to talk about my problems with people who have never delt first hand with opiate addiction and I hear the same things almost always ... "I don't understand -- just stop." I wish it was that easy. On the other hand, you sit down with a group of users and you will hear people answering each other sentences. It's a little odd, I agree, but one has to assume this is only normal. "Birds of a feather flock together" (or something like that); I'm sure you guys get what I'm saying.
So I relapsed, I detoxed, and I believe I'm back on track now. Let me just say, though, that if anyone knows someone suffering from any kind of addiction and its strong enough that its effecting their way of life, consider it your responsibility to offer this person(s) help. It sometimes takes outside intervention to make the addicted realize. Remember, however, that they will only change if they want to make the change for themselves. Don't expect them to change for anyone else ... it just wont happen. They have to be truly ready, and a lot of folks are but just don't know where to turn for help. Enough about all that ...
It's been a while since I've updated. I wish I had something else to report then my down fall. I don't really have anything to report since I've been out of the gym this last week & a half. I didn't drop any weight ... in fact, I gained 2lbs during this break (as I'll call it). I've dropped most of the sups I was taking -- most of the more over board sups like PGF2a for example. I never dropped the Test/Deca/Var though; like I said I didn't stop my cycle I just relaxed a bit.
If anyone has any questions or suggestions concerning anything I've talked about in this update, please feel free contact me or throw a post out there. Good luck to anyone reading who might also be suffering from drug addiction. PM me if necessary ... I'd happy to try and offer any help or assistance I possibly could.
My Heart & Prayers,
Sprt
