Polish_Oak
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has this ever happend to anyone before on m1t???
ever since i started using 2Omg i started to have these angry flashes.....controlled anger outbursts...lolol...i dunno what the ****...heres the cenerio::
it happens about 2 a month..... always when im on the subway going home in the afternoon....never when im standing always when im sitting down....when all of a sudden i get angry....so angry that my heart starts beating faster and faster.....i start figgiding...and all i can think of it beating the person in front of me to a point where theres blood all over the train i mean till hes not moving at all ...i can c the blood and i can picture the lifeless body laying there....man its a sick feeling .....and if i close my eyes it just gets worse i get dizzy at the moment so i reopen them this feeling last about 2 to 6 min then its all over and i m happy again???????????????????????? what gives????
im scared that one day i might not b able to controll this feeling.....its hard to contain ur self when ur whole body is moving around and ur antsy.......help
MY history:: never did AS only PH....i started using m1t about 2 months ago
2 weeks on and 2 weeks off.....
no mental history
and im not a viloent person...
i am a bouncer and i deal with a lot of **** everyweekend...
im also been deprived of sleep since i meet my new girfriend
sleeping less the 2 hours sometimes with a max of 6 far inbetween
i workout 4 days a week ...intense
ever since i started using 2Omg i started to have these angry flashes.....controlled anger outbursts...lolol...i dunno what the ****...heres the cenerio::
it happens about 2 a month..... always when im on the subway going home in the afternoon....never when im standing always when im sitting down....when all of a sudden i get angry....so angry that my heart starts beating faster and faster.....i start figgiding...and all i can think of it beating the person in front of me to a point where theres blood all over the train i mean till hes not moving at all ...i can c the blood and i can picture the lifeless body laying there....man its a sick feeling .....and if i close my eyes it just gets worse i get dizzy at the moment so i reopen them this feeling last about 2 to 6 min then its all over and i m happy again???????????????????????? what gives????
im scared that one day i might not b able to controll this feeling.....its hard to contain ur self when ur whole body is moving around and ur antsy.......help
MY history:: never did AS only PH....i started using m1t about 2 months ago
2 weeks on and 2 weeks off.....
no mental history
and im not a viloent person...
i am a bouncer and i deal with a lot of **** everyweekend...
im also been deprived of sleep since i meet my new girfriend
sleeping less the 2 hours sometimes with a max of 6 far inbetween
i workout 4 days a week ...intense