Hey.
I very much appreciate you being so honest with me. That takes alot to type all this out. Be proud of yourself dude. Your trying your best to get away from that destructive life. I've had alcohol issues and I know it isn't easy.
I was losing friends and family with my alcohol use also. I lost my driving licence and even crashed a work vehicle that I honestly shouldn't have survived. I went to view the vehicle and the guy standing says. You were in that? I said yes. He says. When that vehicle came in I thought that the driver was 100% dead. How in the hell did you survive that?
I've woke up in police cells a couple times also.
I still have some wine now and again. I will always crave alcohol. It's manageable now thankfully. I only will drink wine and never touch a spirit again. I done a genetic test and honestly my genes had numerous markers saying I am at high risk of being an alcoholic. I know that it's built into my dna. Sounds stupid but you know how strong that urge is.
So how is your body holding up? Is your liver pretty hammered? The liver is an amazing organ so hopefully it will go into repair mode. If your kidneys were dying then I would say. Your screwed in terms of healing but the liver can recover.
What's your future plans? Are you still in employment?
If you want to chat dude. Just message me. Even if your want to share your WhatsApp etc. I'm more than happy to chat and help you along. More than happy.
Always tell yourself. Those bad days weren't you. It was a alcohol fueled you.
Chin up and keep fighting