yes bro, good to see you back.Got a grip of this **** from my GF. 75/25 novalog pens....lantus..
Was thinking about running it or maybe selling or swapping for gear.
Ricky Blobby here. Yes I'm fucking alive broooooos
**** bro, I laughed, cried, cheered, cried again and got a semi on reading that.Life story
I've been doing the Inspection thing since 02
My company put me through API Inspector class in 2006. Big bump in pay...
As you may expect once I got my 570 I dipped. $26.50 as a UT hand 40 hours a week
to $40.00 an hour at BP Texas City, 84 hours a week and 700 a week per diem Clearing 4k after taxes every week for 8 months.......and this project was basically infinite
That was '07, I was 26 years old, Megan was 21 and the iPhone 1 just came out
I've stayed gainfully employed as an API for the past 14 years until this year. Year after year after yearrrrr of per diem, OT working long term projects in bum **** Egypt.
At one point I accumulated all this:
-BMW x5 on 22's, sickest vehicle we owned. I not exxagerate and say it was the sickest vehicle I've ever seen personally but top 4 for sure.
-Silverado SS truck...
-Ford F250 Harley Davidson Edition.
-Yamaha banshee with a 521cc Cheetah motor
-Bad ass 5th wheel toy hauler, $75,000 for this rig.. Thing was fancy as ****..cost more than my first house lol
Fast forward to April 2019. I decide to leave Megan. Amazing woman I just couldn't do it anymore we didn't see eye to eye ever, it seemed, we both stopped investing time in us and we grew apart
May 3 2019 moved into the Venue Apartments, 10 minute walk from Tiger stadium. Best tigah team in history, shredded everybody. Good times.
Heather I really liked you. I was selfish and did you bad. You never let me make it up to you
July 8 2019 meet Renee. Second arguably third love of my life. I'll never love anyone the way I loved Renee. She had a past, I was fully aware of it and even though she saw it as a weakness it made me love her on a level I could never love anyone else. We shared a different level of intimacy. You ever been addicted to someone's voice? The sounds she would make my God.
August 15th ish 2019 Quit my bad ass 180k a year plant job to get us away from the BR trap.
The relationship was worth way more than that to me.
October 2019 we split. She went to treatment, I went to work.
I was lost the whole time, devoid of joy
December 24 2019 Im in Dallas with family. Back on my game back in rare form. I get a call from Renee mom. She completed treatment, she needs a ride home. I felt warmth in my heart for the first time in months.
I'm psyched AF to see Renee, I pick her up in Alexandria and then drive home to her mom's house in Mississippi.
This was the happiest time of my life. I was back on my ****. Renee was fucking clean! This immaculature creature of my dreams was all mine......chemistry between us is off the meter.. life altering intimate life.This is how life should be.
January 4 2020 Show up at Huntsman Port Neches for a 4 week outage.
February 15ish roll out. Turn myself in to clear a warrant I been having. Instead of a day like my lawyer said I was in there much longer. One thing lead to another and we split again.
Everything is gone. Car, MacBook, Jordan 8 retro aqua mint, clothes..... gone. Down to my socks. I ain't had ****.
She ghosts. It's early March and I am just fucked. No money, no car, no clothes, no house, worst of all no Renee.
My parents are long gone and I have no family members left that I had spoken to in recent years.
Luckily I had taken care of my in laws when I was married, so I was allowed to stay in their abandoned house. Had electricity and water, but no AC, no fridge, no stove, no hot water, no microwave.
Hard ass raw ass ramen noodles and tuna fish. That's what I ate.
Still feeling ok, I had turnarounds lined up from April 3 to the end of July. Just gotta do this 2 weeks then I'm good.
Covid landed. Everything, all my jobs for the rest of the year....cancelled. Straight bumming. Too much pride to ask my close friends for help, much less see me in such a state.
So I thugged it out in that shitty ass stanky ass house for right at 7 weeks until My unemployment kicked in.
Got a decent job in Chicago doing concrete work for cash. Got back on my feet. Just getting over Renee again...... Mid June.
Open my FB Messenger, whadda ya know... Renee
A simple "hey" had me feeling all in love again
So at this time I am on my feet in a very nice part of Chicagoland, south and east a bit in northern Indiana. Good old boys. Beta males are extinct in this part of the country.. Close friends are Millionaires, we are in lambos, 300k Pavati wake boats every weekend. Turned up, dream lifestyle. Dream lifestyle.
Renee wants to get clean. Not one person in my Indiana circle does dope beyond a few tokes of medical grade ganja. There isn't a ghetto within 30 miles of this town. Renee can get clean here. She understands the situation and is willing to move up North with me.
Bought an 05 ram took off towards Mississippi to rescue my woman once and for all.
Truck blows a head gasket just outside Memphis. Forced to leave the truck on the highway, caught a bus to Ms.
Lose my job up north. Getting enhanced unemployment still. Saved $500 a week for 4 weeks until I could afford a reliable Honda Accord.
Picked car up in Lafayette, on the way back to Mississippi, get our **** then head back North. I'm dozing off so I let her drive.
I wake up, to the all too familiar red and blue flashing lights. Renee goes to jail
This was mid July 2020, and I haven't heard from Renee since .It finally clicked. It's not gonna work... Feels like a cruel joke.
I've done AC work since then.
Now that it's cooled off there is no extra money. no more aC work. $247 a week unemployment.
Even caught the God damn covid. Ended up stuck in Crowley, took off walking to my gF house in Mamou. A 30 miles walk sick as a dog, pouring rain. thank God somebody picked me up in mowata I only had to walk halfway.
With no family to fall back on, I've been thuggin it out in Baton rouge..........Brookstown. soon as you finna fall asleep ppppppp lop pop pop
But you know what it feels like home anyway
But why all this ****? Why did I lose no matter what I did?.... I'll tell you.
At one point, I realized I had lost myself. And I was terrified upon the realization of this. But what I had lost.....was fake. An illusion...... It was the self I manifested, my ego, driven by money and power, my manifestation of who I should be.
A clever intricate disguise I had hand crafted for years.
And just when it was near perfection, God's hand came down and peeled it away... and it was when I was in the lowest of places, already defenseless it felt.... Time to see what I was really made of... only self remained
Some people call this an awakening. Becoming woke, or whatever.
But what it is is a blessing in disguise. The bigger your ego, the bigger the fall will be to shed this fake ass burden of a thing.
I fell far. I fell faaaaaaaar. But in the end, I recognize the process and learned to embrace the pain along with the joy, because they are equally essential to true personal growth.
When you can embrace pain and appreciate it as a time of growth....that is when true grit is born and real men are made.
I'll be here all week.
Or until someone gives me a job.
Seriously. Y'all are gonna be throwing work at me to shut me the heck up.
Next week starts my tour. Mistras, Acuren, Team , ACTT. I'll bring lunch too. Just so you don't have an excuse to leave. I have so much to talk about. And I sound just like Gilbert Godfrey... looks.... It's glorious
I'll spare Sentinel. Solid core group, treated me like family. FR I won't forget that.
And that red goes the hardest no doubt
And Intertek Longview office. The old Hi Tech Testing OG Longview Inspection.
Yall feel like family too y'all deserve everything y'all got coming.
FR I am feindin to go to work. A part of me is missing it's the exact size and shape as go to work.
I been washing the dishes 2 times so I can feel something. Trimming my beard with scissors. I need to be challenged these women weak these days too. Even the fine fine ones Insecure as hell. No teasing or nothing just buss it wide open.
I ain't lying you better put up a fight. Make me feel insecure too bite back I can handle it.
Team I know y'all got that work in BR. Imma be there bright and early with 2 dozen donuts.
But they all gonna be pink with purple dongs on em so y'all feel violated after y'all eat em. You gonna FIND me a job by the time I leave there. If I leave there.
Yeeeeah bruh lol. I havent been on anabolics in the last year other than a small tren blast. I need to get at least some test in my system to help me recover from this life. I was hoping someone would be interested in the slin**** bro, I laughed, cried, cheered, cried again and got a semi on reading that.
quite the rollercoaster man. Glad your in a better place now brother - getting after it
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