look man if it is that bad hop on some hcg, start blasting like 500 iu eod for few weeks.
I guaranfckinteeyou you will feel relief immediately, in a few days at most.
Everything, exactly everything you are describing happened to me back in august when i tried to pct cold turkey with just clomid, without hcg.
I was in the exact same boat. Depressed, anxious, paranoid (some may remember health scare threads i used to start).
Took a shot of hcg in the morning and in the afternoon i remember going for a walk and a huuuuge sense of relief came over me, it was probably due to the stimulation of lh receptors in the brain.
i felt so good it was insane, and i felt like dogshit before. Sad, depressed, anxious, i felt like crying at times, feeling of terrible burden. And i am telling you it is the estrogen dominance, i used to experience that when i used to intentionally skip my test shots to see how i feel. Horrible feelling! I cant even describe the feeling with words. Worst kind of depression. Was literally lying in bed the whole time thinking about whay kind of disease has come upon me.
And then, moslty in the evenings, i wpuld get this feeling of extreme sadness mixed with anxiety and depression. Repeat, it is estrogen dominance from lack of androgens.
I felt almost like a feel good high from hcg. Probably due to the fact i felt horrible for 2 weeks before that so it was a huge change.
Hcg was the cure. I didnt even feel the transition.
I started creatine too and pumps are amazing, gaining strength in the gym, libido is good, motivation great being off test after being on it for effin 8 months! (Most of the time trt dose though).
Repeat: i dont feel any different being off now after 8 months and on damn 50mg of clomid a day!
Blast hcg for a few weeks 500 - 750 iu eod and then try clomid, believe me, i fuking hated clomid but it wasnt the clomid, it was the fact that my test was nonexistent.
now i have absolutely 0 sides from double the dose of clomid because my test levels are normal, because of all the hcg i used.
This is obviously not working for you. Hop on hcg and start over.
Edit: it was exactly 21 days into that pct (25mg clomid per day) when i said fuk it and started over.