Sitting here eating get my lunch of grilled chicken and broccoli I suddenly realized something I already knew, but ignored. My goal for the last several months was to increase muscle mass. Might sound egotistical, but I wanted to be big and strong. I wanted people to be amazed when they found out how old I was. Problem is that I've been eating at a deficit forever, it seems like, and I'll never increase muscle mass when I'm continually in a deficity. I look at what others are posting here and today I had an epiphany; I'm skinny / fat. Maybe even borderline scrawny. I had planned on running an 8 week cycle of OL Tr1umph, Test1fy and X-Gels beginning October, in the hopes of getting bigger. Then I decided to wait until after this challenge was over, because I
really wanted to be down to 180 pounds before starting that. Now my injury may move that back a few more weeks (but maybe not), but either way I'll be finishing this challenge. Then I will begin my next phase, which is bulking up so I can increase my muscle mass. Maybe even run an andro / epi cycle after the first of the year.
Any hoo, I guess what I'm getting at is seeing all of the posts from everyone is motivating, even when the posts are about set backs. I've had plenty of setbacks myself, and I realize that what's keeping me from reaching my goal is my ingrown fear of eating too much. I guess I spent too much time as a fat kid to change that easily, but change my thinking I must, especially if I plan on being like
BEAST73,
FireTitan ryane87 and
bighulksmash, as well as all the other beasts on this forum.