toughchick401
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I decided to write my thoughts here, FB is not an option ( sister sees it all) so here it goes...I had weight loss surgery in 2010, lap band ( they don't even do it anymore) and than it was removed in 2013, my first doctor lost his license and was a drug addict, fast forward to only 2026,
Over the years the tests of what is wrong with my gut, endless blood tests, endoscopys, and other tests..many hospital visits, so many specialists that I have lost count.....FINALLY I was told I Had Gastric Paresis, ( your stomach does not digest food ),,, I had a name, endless nights of throwing up, being sick, laying on the bathroom floor all night and trying to work, trying to have able relationships.....
Two weeks ago I had my stomach removed, and they made a small pouch stomach from my intestines (only this time I am 5;9 and 98 pounds) ( I was in the hospital from April 23-May1st for a GI bleed, I was just let go again from the hospital with 4 more bags of blood!!! that's 8 in less than a month total, I was told remove your stomach the GI bleed is in that stomach, fine, take it out, here I am Thursday driving, almost killed myself with the sick, couldn't breath, dry heaving so bad I had to call a friend to come get me, and went to the hospital with a Hemoglobin of 6.7, I left on May 1st with a Hemoglobin of 8,2, still well below normal, 11 and above is normal....NOw the issue is they saw a "bleed" in my new stomach, on a CT scan so my DR and I had a plan, we would burn the bleed and than see how my numbers were, after 4 units of blood back to back, bring told what my numbers were, ( god I should be at a 24 by now) but no I was a 10.5 , than a 10 and my last draw Friday pm was 9....notice a tread, yes its dropping.....
My Dr wanted me to be transferred to RIH( Rhode Island Hospital) from Miriam but I refused saying I can wait, I can go out patient and I say this with such dread as my insurance company has already said they don't want to pay for 4/30-5/1 because I was "stable" so Im fighting with them now, so because I came in with a active GI bleed, and they saw it thursday night but come Friday AM it stopped.......and 4 units of blood....and now my sister thinks Im refusing tx, which to know her is to hate her controlling fat ass, but anyway she told me she was done, Im dead and I need to never call my nephews ( whom I am close with ) again....I tried to explain to her why, as in I was fired the last time I was in and I am getting some $$ but nothing like I was bringing home, so what the hell???!!!!!
SO if I die because I am refusing anymore blood, it seems that like to "band aid " me and send me home to re bleed or have body parts taken out, Im defeated, malnourshed and just heartbroken....I wanted to be thin years ago, and now I hate food, Im never ever hungry, I cant keep weight on and get called names, and no one wants to help or seems to have the solution for me......
ANyway if anything happens to me, that's my story... toughchick is done!!!!!!
Over the years the tests of what is wrong with my gut, endless blood tests, endoscopys, and other tests..many hospital visits, so many specialists that I have lost count.....FINALLY I was told I Had Gastric Paresis, ( your stomach does not digest food ),,, I had a name, endless nights of throwing up, being sick, laying on the bathroom floor all night and trying to work, trying to have able relationships.....
Two weeks ago I had my stomach removed, and they made a small pouch stomach from my intestines (only this time I am 5;9 and 98 pounds) ( I was in the hospital from April 23-May1st for a GI bleed, I was just let go again from the hospital with 4 more bags of blood!!! that's 8 in less than a month total, I was told remove your stomach the GI bleed is in that stomach, fine, take it out, here I am Thursday driving, almost killed myself with the sick, couldn't breath, dry heaving so bad I had to call a friend to come get me, and went to the hospital with a Hemoglobin of 6.7, I left on May 1st with a Hemoglobin of 8,2, still well below normal, 11 and above is normal....NOw the issue is they saw a "bleed" in my new stomach, on a CT scan so my DR and I had a plan, we would burn the bleed and than see how my numbers were, after 4 units of blood back to back, bring told what my numbers were, ( god I should be at a 24 by now) but no I was a 10.5 , than a 10 and my last draw Friday pm was 9....notice a tread, yes its dropping.....
My Dr wanted me to be transferred to RIH( Rhode Island Hospital) from Miriam but I refused saying I can wait, I can go out patient and I say this with such dread as my insurance company has already said they don't want to pay for 4/30-5/1 because I was "stable" so Im fighting with them now, so because I came in with a active GI bleed, and they saw it thursday night but come Friday AM it stopped.......and 4 units of blood....and now my sister thinks Im refusing tx, which to know her is to hate her controlling fat ass, but anyway she told me she was done, Im dead and I need to never call my nephews ( whom I am close with ) again....I tried to explain to her why, as in I was fired the last time I was in and I am getting some $$ but nothing like I was bringing home, so what the hell???!!!!!
SO if I die because I am refusing anymore blood, it seems that like to "band aid " me and send me home to re bleed or have body parts taken out, Im defeated, malnourshed and just heartbroken....I wanted to be thin years ago, and now I hate food, Im never ever hungry, I cant keep weight on and get called names, and no one wants to help or seems to have the solution for me......
ANyway if anything happens to me, that's my story... toughchick is done!!!!!!
so no more...... going to the lawyers this week to make my friend the medical proxy she will follow thru and she is also my $ person as it will be given to my nephews....